I'm not scared of Death. Death is just like going back in time to the time before you were born.
I only fear remaining alive after a suicide attempt with more brain damage or other physical damage and not being able to kill myself.
i didn't exist for 13.8 billion years. i didn't have any problems nor a chance of extreme torture. this changed when they birthed me into this hell as a bag of 30 trilion cells that constantly has to feed those cells and as a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.. that's only the begging of the horror.
yeah this hell called life is fleeting and i'll return back to Non-Existence this time for good but in the meantime i could fall into a trap of unending constant unbearable pain every second for decades. that's the problem skipping any excruciating pain while i'm alive.
i don't fear Eternal Non-Existence because i can't suffer , i can't feel unbearable pain, no problems no bad memories if i don't exist .but i can suffer all these horrors and more while i'm alive. Permanent Non-Existence is the ideal state for me and what i desire greatly not fear it why fear the time before i was born?
Non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection : the only guarantee of never suffering so badly it's a billion times worse than the worst hell you can imagine.
I only fear remaining alive with more brain damage or other physical damage and not being able to kill myself.
we all live for breif time then cease to exist for all time, just like a fly , a fish, which i am that an animal. in 1000 years there won't be trace any of the 8 billion alive now ever lived. in 1000 years it will be as if all alive now never existed in the first place . in a trillion years even more so and also there wont't be a trace that DNA life and the nightmare called Earth ever existed . in a trillion years it will be as if evil DNA life and this evil prison world Earth ever existed . some people have been taught to believe that they'll still be alive in the Entropic universe a trillion trillion to the quadrillion power years after the Earth Sun and stars died as some kind of afterlife kinda difficult when all the stars have died and even black holes and protons decayed and the universe continues to expand forever into nothingness where no energy could ever be total heat Death . but to me that concept of a human outliving the stars and universe i'll never belive since a human is just another small animal no different than any other machine in the universe
a human is just an animal, cells, chemical reactions a machine. i'm just a mouse,lizard, bug, but another horror is that my brain believes it's something more something special
