What's the point of recovery?

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

As I stand being abused so badly to the point where I am thinking suicide is my only way out, lets say by miracle I do escape and live on my own. The mental trauma and scars will still follow me. I'll have to be in therapy for god knows my whole life. This isn't a life I signed up for

speaking of which my mom would shame me for therapy saying "what youre gonna od that forever? you'll be crazy!"
still think I should have killed myelf at 13 the she told me to. Then I wouldnt be suffering this mess

 

[clayp]

Sorry you going through that. Your mum shouldn't have told you those words. A big hug to you. I'm gonna quote you one of my favourite quotes, it won't rain all the time.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Sorry you going through that. Your mum shouldn't have told you those words. A big hug to you. I'm gonna quote you one of my favourite quotes, it won't rain all the time.

easier said than done. My brother is pushing me to death and I tried cutting myself yesterday

 

[clayp]

easier said than done. My brother is pushing me to death and I tried cutting myself yesterday

My parents also have told me I should be dead, so In a way I relate to what you are feeling. That's why I left home as soon as I could. Im sick and they made me even more sick just with their words and actions.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

My parents also have told me I should be dead, so In a way I relate to what you are feeling. That's why I left home as soon as I could. Im sick and they made me even more sick just with their words and actions.

I wish I could just leave

 

[massiveblackhole]

I am sorry you are suffering in this way. Is there not womens refuge or something that could help you escape your situation?

As for what is the point of recovery, I don't have experience in this kind of thing but I guess people DO pull through traumatic experiences in their lives and manage to go on to live ok lives. you shouldnt need therapy forever...they say helping others in your situation is greatly healing.

 

[clayp]

I'm not saying my meds are perfect, but I still manage to have at least a few good days. Not like I'm dancing in the house of happiness. But less sad guess.

 

[LastWhisper]

I'm sorry about your situation, I have experienced something a bit similar.
The point of the recovery is that you may think now that it won't help you in any way in the future, but in most cases it really does helps. Once you escape from your situation, new positive moments in your life somehow will override the bad ones from the past. My mother was an awful person who turns my days into nightmares, but when it ended, many things comes back to normal.

 

[JoeFailure]

As I stand being abused so badly to the point where I am thinking suicide is my only way out, lets say by miracle I do escape and live on my own. The mental trauma and scars will still follow me. I'll have to be in therapy for god knows my whole life. This isn't a life I signed up for

speaking of which my mom would shame me for therapy saying "what youre gonna od that forever? you'll be crazy!"
still think I should have killed myelf at 13 the she told me to. Then I wouldnt be suffering this mess

I think it could be different if you're able to get out on your own. I'm not saying that for sure, nobody knows that, but it's at least a chance. The scars could possibly always be with you, but they might subside more and more as time goes on.

I never like to say these things as definitives because there are no guarantees in this shitty world...but things CAN possibly get better. I guess that's the point, is just that hope. But I understand it when things get so bad and bleak that it can feel like there's no hope left.

I hope you can get out from your situation and at least be able to attempt life out on your own, it could make a big difference.

 

[noaccount]

If you call around to different places reporting that you're homeless, some places are giving the homeless motel rooms now? And honestly if you had to change your story in some way to get into a DV shelter, I think you'd be more than justified in doing that, this is a form of abuse that you have a right to escape.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

theres no point in continuing to live a life that is so damaged

 

[ATownSerenity]

I'm sorry to hear that your mother and brother have been so cruel to you. That is no way blood should ever treat blood.

As for the purpose of recovery, I don't know about you, but I've always felt that I was a good person. I also feel that in this world, most of the people who succeed aren't great people. I figured that if one good person, myself, was able to make it, the world would be just a little better. It's better that I fill whatever limited successful position there is in this capitalist system than someone else with worse principles. Maybe it's egotistical, maybe it's not understanding that most people probably see themselves as fundamentally good, and maybe it's not understanding that oftentimes, the peak of success lies on the broken backs of others. Nonetheless, this is just what my personal purpose in recovery is.

 

[TreizKhushranata]

I have the opportunity to see a therapist for my ptsd but I'm not going to. I need to die. If I had met her a few years ago, then i'd do it.

 

[racek]

recovery for someone who was abused is taking revenge, bring back justice

 

[kohaku]

theres no point in continuing to live a life that is so damaged

Plenty of musical artists lived these damaged lives. See how far they got. Chester Bennington very clearly had a lot of trauma he was dealing with and ended up committing suicide. Had he gotten suitable treatment, this wouldn't have happened.

Recovery gives you an opportunity to enjoy the little things. Imagine being able to look at a sunset and actually consider it beautiful rather than thinking of how it's just the same, dull thing you've seen hundreds of times before. Recovery puts you in a very different mindset. One where you actually believe you can make it. You could feel happy.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Plenty of musical artists lived these damaged lives. See how far they got. Chester Bennington very clearly had a lot of trauma he was dealing with and ended up committing suicide. Had he gotten suitable treatment, this wouldn't have happened.

Recovery gives you an opportunity to enjoy the little things. Imagine being able to look at a sunset and actually consider it beautiful rather than thinking of how it's just the same, dull thing you've seen hundreds of times before. Recovery puts you in a very different mindset. One where you actually believe you can make it. You could feel happy.

Man Chester....so sad. Though sure, recovery can help but I feel kinda....done? Its so much work and I dont not want to commit suicide one day

 

[WhiteDespair]

I'm sorry about your situation, I have experienced something a bit similar.
The point of the recovery is that you may think now that it won't help you in any way in the future, but in most cases it really does helps. Once you escape from your situation, new positive moments in your life somehow will override the bad ones from the past. My mother was an awful person who turns my days into nightmares, but when it ended, many things comes back to normal.

My life started to get back on track when my mother CtB. Still love your avatar. Reminds me of my step mother's cat.

Man Chester....so sad. Though sure, recovery can help but I feel kinda....done? Its so much work and I dont not want to commit suicide one day

My mom made me feel worthless too. Getting the right meds helps. Keep in mind that it's weird how to little steps amd movements add up to a lot. We're probably programmed to focus on all or nothing actions, hence our propensity toward CtB. It's like seeing a completed dance and trying to master it instead of learning the first few steps and then a few more and then a few more.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

My life started to get back on track when my mother CtB. Still love your avatar. Reminds me of my step mother's cat.


My mom made me feel worthless too. Getting the right meds helps. Keep in mind that it's weird how to little steps amd movements add up to a lot. We're probably programmed to focus on all or nothing actions, hence our propensity toward CtB. It's like seeing a completed dance and trying to master it instead of learning the first few steps and then a few more and then a few more.

I just dont want help anymore. Im convinced life will only get worse for me
I eman i am meds that dont work and my pscyhraitrist always puts me down and its a huge process to get a new one. Id rather die
it feels like since I wa a kid life never anted me to be happy and is hound have killed dmyself earlier if I knew I was gonna face all this suffering. I am so stupid for not doing anything

 

[WhiteDespair]

I just dont want help anymore. Im convinced life will only get worse for me
I eman i am meds that dont work and my pscyhraitrist always puts me down and its a huge process to get a new one. Id rather die
it feels like since I wa a kid life never anted me to be happy and is hound have killed dmyself earlier if I knew I was gonna face all this suffering. I am so stupid for not doing anything

Sounds like you got a raw deal all around.