Discussion What's the last thing you want to enjoy before you ctb?

[TheSource]

I plan on seeing the FNAF movie with my brother.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

The salty tears of my enemies.

 

[EternalShore]

idk yet! I want to do some fun stuff before my 40 minutes with God tho! ^_^ Then, I will just be preparing myself for the afterlife! xD

 

[phoebonebe]

Food. My relationship with it is one of the biggest reasons I want to CTB ( I know it sounds dumb ) and I want to at least enjoy it while it lasts. I want to have a feast with everything I wanted , and probably with my family as well.

 

[tired0zymandias]

Have a one wonderful day with my ex it can be picnic date, or just cuddling and kissing for the rest of the day. And just pretend that we are together again. Just for a day before I go.

Oh god, can't believe the one that I love so dearly is the most reason I want to ended up it all.

 

[protector_iorek]

Food. My relationship with it is one of the biggest reasons I want to CTB ( I know it sounds dumb ) and I want to at least enjoy it while it lasts. I want to have a feast with everything I wanted , and probably with my family as well.

This is probably what I would do too. I struggle with binge eating disorder (I don't really care about the term/label, but it's the only thing I know how to describe my issue) and food is simultaneously a reason to CTB and one of the few things enjoyable about life.

Sweets are my go-to. I'd probably find the best slice of cake I can and just eat as much as I want.

 

[kvheeo]

I would spend a day with my sister, she's the only reason I'm still here. I love her more than I love myself

 

[avaruus]

Probably to see my cat once more. It's at my mothers house, but i haven't talked to my parents for over a year now, the last time i saw my cat was 2022 june. I just can't face my parents, too much shame. He (the cat) is turning 14 in next spring and i'm afraid that it will die before i gain the courage, if i ever even will.
Even tho it hurts to say this, but i hope he doesn't miss me.

 

[peace_van]

A peaceful day walking in the forest, along a stream, ...
After sunset, ingest N, lie on the grass under the milky way...
It's like returning to Mother Nature's hug.
She understands me, I guess.

 

[cscott]

Nothing nothing at all. I hate earth it's hell everything disgusts me

 

[Flameboyant]

Eat donuts. One of My favorite tastes, but Im gluten intolerant and where I live i cant get GF donuts that taste like actual donuts anywhere.

 

[phoebonebe]

This is probably what I would do too. I struggle with binge eating disorder (I don't really care about the term/label, but it's the only thing I know how to describe my issue) and food is simultaneously a reason to CTB and one of the few things enjoyable about life.

Sweets are my go-to. I'd probably find the best slice of cake I can and just eat as much as I want.

we have the same issue ! I actually struggle from anorexia b/p , the binging is a more recent thing to me and the weight gain is just so hard for me to bear. I have a sweet tooth so really I'd just want to eat whatever i can before i go.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't wish to experience anything at all, I only wish for nothingness, being conscious and aware just leads to suffering, I see existence as just being a horrific mistake in general rather than something desirable, existence is very meaningless and tiresome to me.

 

[voyager]

The enjoying part is part of the problem, tbh. But, I have sometimes considererd going on a holiday and blowing some money. Maybe ride some waterslides in Dubai, loved that as a kid or surf in Bali. More than that though, I'd love to do something extreme, like wingsuiting or skydiving, just to see if I could snap out of this comatose state for a minute or two. It's just fantasy though, without a license they won't just let one jump out of plane.

So, ultimately my enjoyment will come from listening to some music, watching my favourite film after the sunset and ending it under the star filled sky. Yeah, good enough.

 

[Is0lated]

I plan on seeing the FNAF movie with my brother.

I plan on buying a good outfit before I die, and eating some sweets then I wanna try smoking and drinking, maybe I'll hangout with some friends then I'll ctb

 

[iamsofkntired]

I wish I could hug my siblings before I go but most all of them are out of the country and the younger one would probably figure out what I'm gonna do ,but logically I'm gonna smoke a cigarette and just do it

 

[kilowatt]

My favourite soda. I also want to give away my stuff or just make/buy gifts, I honestly find that enjoyable because I have plenty money saved up and I don't want them to go to waste or be taken by my mother.

 

[リンさん]

Cuddle and kiss a girl that I love and that loves me. There's nothing better in this world.

 

[protector_iorek]

we have the same issue ! I actually struggle from anorexia b/p , the binging is a more recent thing to me and the weight gain is just so hard for me to bear. I have a sweet tooth so really I'd just want to eat whatever i can before i go.

Being THE fat girl my entire childhood and into adulthood has been a #1 or #2 reason for being suicidal. The abuse I've experienced simply because I'm the fat ugly girl.. I can't even begin to describe it.

Not just a little chubby either, I mean FAT. The kind of fat where people look at you with disgust, total strangers. People wish you dead.

I've lost over 100lbs twice in my life but I always gain it back thanks to BED. I wouldn't wish an eating disorder on anyone.

I might as well kms because people want me dead anyway for being a fat woman at least I'd make some people happy.

 

[SovietSuicide]

Well I have the last little bit of money left. If I don't get a job by the 15th I think I'll get an escort and some meth and then drink SN on the comedown.

I'm not really into hiring an escort but I don't want to die a loser and a virgin.

 

[With0ut]

to feel loved by my girlfriend, but it would probably prolong my stay so i'm not sure.

 

[serah]

have someone tell me they love me and genuinely mean it, not happening tho just wishful thinking lol.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Hot sex, chocolate, a glass of red wine, a beautiful sunset and a cuddle with my son.

 

[paska_paska]

Spending time with my significant other. We happen to be long (or medium?) distance, so I don't get to see them all the time.

 

[sserafim]

I plan on seeing the FNAF movie with my brother.

I want to go traveling (probably to France), and eat a nice steak. I'd also eat filet mignon as well. I'd watch a beautiful last sunset, and drink my last cup of coffee

 

[ghostgirlxx_23]

I would probably want to smoke a joint, listen to music, and spend time with my Cousin because she is one of the only reasons I'm still here.

 

[Morgengrauen]

finish the music project i've been working on, one last concert and party with a friend, smoking a fat joint, do heroin for the last time, find a hookup and have wild sex, some really good dining, go out with a bang by having some kind of wild night like in my teens doing stupid shit with others until morning dawns. and also seeing the fnaf movie lol

 

[ctvunny]

Right now, all I can think of is a good puffs of cigarettes. Man, I miss smoking. Im just stopping myself just because lol

 

[Ambivalent1]

Premarital sex

 

[Unattainable666]

sex