what’s the hardest part in CTB

[kokosnight]

missing the people you love or missing what you're gonna do in the future

 

[tea on clouds]

Leaving without squeezing the last drop of happiness I could get.

 

[AprilsBlessings]

Leaving people who love me behind

 

[Captive of Mind]

If I had people that were deeply involved in my life then I would say that would be the hardest part.

 

[Tired_Tired]

Afraid of going to hell because I CTB. If God is really existing.

 

[Meditation guide]

missing the people you love or missing what you're gonna do in the future

Missing nature, sunsets, forests that kind of thing. But I don't have access to that now anyway.

 

[justanotherstar]

Hurting people I love :(

 

[Sans]

I'd imagine the hardest part is getting over the survival instinct and not worrying about what happens after death.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

Another vote for survival instinct.

 

[Donk]

SI

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Leaving everyone else behind to suffer is the hardest thing by miles, followed by SI (just fear of pain now). I finally got a glimpse into understanding at least some murder-suicides

 

[Wayfaerer]

knowing that you will never live the life you should've had.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

knowing that you will never live the life you should've had.

I feel like I've had 20 years getting used to that idea, It's just unpleasantness from the past now that I just want to move on from. Anyone else found that?

 

[Adamsnolife]

Probably doing the ctb itself. Need to get it right especially if it goes wrong and the repercussions of it could be not the ones you'd want.

 

[Hoarsewithnoname]

#1 - leaving my kids. #2 - leaving my parents and friends (and them thinking that maybe if they'd just supported me more, I wouldn't have done it)

 

[Nodscene]

Hardest part is actually succeeding and failing again is not an option. It's not something I want to put my family through again and I can't continue like this.

 

[Bazzinga]

Not being able to fulfill my dreams I once had when I was a kid,feels like forever ago . Leaving behind my mom who's not doing well right now and needs her son,for my sister she just lost her had and I should be there with her as her brother but...anyways and also it's si and the I,yeah that's everything:)

 

[kokosnight]

knowing that you will never live the life you should've had.

this hit hard

 

[EmptyManForever]

Overcoming SI is probably the hardest part for me

 

[PureMetanoia]

Leaving people who love me behind

100% this.

 

[sourpink]

for me the hardest part has been ensuring reliability in method.
.... I have two people in my life I can actually say make it a little bit harder to ctb. but not hard enough not to.
I feel like I'll miss music, though. playing has always been of comfort and solace. but then maybe that was only so beneficial because existing has always sucked.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

missing the people you love or missing what you're gonna do in the future

The hardest part as someone said here is ensuring the reliability of my method of ctb. i just want to die and don't want to remain alive much less in a brain damaged state. Also i fear pain. the rest of the "hard" things are illusions imo that i can overcome.
In 100 years from now i won't miss or know anything anyway or that i even existed much less that i thought i "loved" something. And time passes really really fast. 100 years will be here in no time at all ( this becomes more apparent the older you are). In 500 years no one will know or remember any of us existed or lived.

In a quadrillion years the only things remaining will be black holes and they won't remember that stars or planets or the Earth ever existed.

 

[ScaredGirl]

Hurting those close to me and not being able to get that little bit of extra happiness life might have had in store

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Self-preservation. For whom, or for what is something I'll never come to understand.

 

[Thanatonaut]

The hardest part as someone said here is ensuring the reliability of my method of ctb. i just want to die and don't want to remain alive much less in a brain damaged state. Also i fear pain. the rest of the "hard" things are illusions imo that i can overcome.
In 100 years from now i won't miss or know anything anyway or that i even existed much less that i thought i "loved" something. And time passes really really fast. 100 years will be here in no time at all ( this becomes more apparent the older you are). In 500 years no one will know or remember any of us existed or lived.

In a quadrillion years the only things remaining will be black holes and they won't remember that stars or planets or the Earth ever existed.

It's funny this video mentions time being a human construct, because it ties into the theory about what waits (or rather doesn't) after CTB.

I've never believed in all that Land of Milk and Honey nonsense. Same BS as the Easter Bunny. But I think generations of NDE's produced enough anecdotal lore to produce beliefs of an afterlife. But I don't believe we actually have one. So what were those folks seeing/experiencing in those NDE's? A few ideas:

• One of the human body's greatest gifts is the dopamine dump the brain gets right before death. If anything would produce impressions of heaven, I think this would be it.
• In addition to the euphoria, there would also be a surreal yet familiar experience as the brain shuts down, merging a lifetime of memories with the transition the brain is making. This might make one feel like they're having a reunion with departed friends and family.
• Most importantly, the concept of time breaks down the closer the brain gets to death. So while our bodies are gone in minutes, that last second could last an eternity inside our dying minds.

While this concept might be disturbing to some, I find it comforting. I believe there's a rational explanation for everything, and this one makes the most sense to me.

 

[WrongGuy47]

None of it. Just having to overcome survival Instinct.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It's funny this video mentions time being a human construct, because it ties into the theory about what waits (or rather doesn't) after CTB.

I've never believed in all that Land of Milk and Honey nonsense. Same BS as the Easter Bunny. But I think generations of NDE's produced enough anecdotal lore to produce beliefs of an afterlife. But I don't believe we actually have one. So what were those folks seeing/experiencing in those NDE's? A few ideas:

• One of the human body's greatest gifts is the dopamine dump the brain gets right before death. If anything would produce impressions of heaven, I think this would be it.
• In addition to the euphoria, there would also be a surreal yet familiar experience as the brain shuts down, merging a lifetime of memories with the transition the brain is making. This might make one feel like they're having a reunion with departed friends and family.
• Most importantly, the concept of time breaks down the closer the brain gets to death. So while our bodies are gone in minutes, that last second could last an eternity inside our dying minds.

While this concept might be disturbing to some, I find it comforting. I believe there's a rational explanation for everything, and this one makes the most sense to me.

I believe there is nothing after Death for a human.

 

[kokosnight]

The hardest part as someone said here is ensuring the reliability of my method of ctb. i just want to die and don't want to remain alive much less in a brain damaged state. Also i fear pain. the rest of the "hard" things are illusions imo that i can overcome.
In 100 years from now i won't miss or know anything anyway or that i even existed much less that i thought i "loved" something. And time passes really really fast. 100 years will be here in no time at all ( this becomes more apparent the older you are). In 500 years no one will know or remember any of us existed or lived.

In a quadrillion years the only things remaining will be black holes and they won't remember that stars or planets or the Earth ever existed.

beautiful

 

[nofutureghost]

it's kinda sad imagine someone of my family finding my body and also imagine how my friends and bf will react to the noticed as I'm not planning to say goodbye.... think about someone getting depressed or even hurted for something I did makes me feel even more frustrated.

 

[thes]

I would say nothing really, I don't have anyone around me who would care enough if I died