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Scacie

Scacie

She/Her
Feb 24, 2023
242
I was just reminded of it, and now she's in my mind again. From what I learnt about her she had no one other than her girlfriend and maybe me. I think her girlfriend also does drugs and im scared she will overdose and pass away too, leaving only me. They say that people die a second time when everyone forgotten about them, I'm scared no one will remember her and she will be forgotten. I dont want her to be forgotten.
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
38
I think it's important to cling onto the good memories of that person always. Talk about them as if they're not actually gone at all. I don't know what kind of activities you did together but maybe go do some of that in their honor. And make sure to smile when you think of them, don't cry (i know that must seem impossible). They don't want the pain they experienced in life to be shared with those that they loved. Maybe if you have a little space, make a small tribute table.
I hope you find peace in knowing your friend is no longer suffering. It's a terrible thing losing a loved one. Sending plenty of love and warmth your way this morning. Go make the best of it <3
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,780
There is no such thing as honor that would matter to them because they are dead and are thus non existent. Nothing that you do would matter to them because they aren't alive anymore. The things that you can do only matter to the living, not to the dead. Also, memories of them won't last forever anyway. In a few generations, they'll be completely forgotten. It's a harsh thing to say to people but it's true as people like to think that they're more important than they really are but, honestly, no, we are not important at all in the grand scheme of things.

If there is something that you want to do for her though, perhaps you could share some things that she wished that other people would understand? I'm sure that those who have ctb in this forum wished that the right to die peacefully existed for those who are suffering and suicidal in the future. Maybe she was one of those people too
 
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Scacie

Scacie

She/Her
Feb 24, 2023
242
I think it's important to cling onto the good memories of that person always. Talk about them as if they're not actually gone at all. I don't know what kind of activities you did together but maybe go do some of that in their honor. And make sure to smile when you think of them, don't cry (i know that must seem impossible). They don't want the pain they experienced in life to be shared with those that they loved. Maybe if you have a little space, make a small tribute table.
I hope you find peace in knowing your friend is no longer suffering. It's a terrible thing losing a loved one. Sending plenty of love and warmth your way this morning. Go make the best of it <3
Thank you. We met here, but we've never had the chance to meet in person before she left. I've requested all our chat data from discord since her account got deleted awhile after (I think she may have began the deletion process before she left)
To be honest my main regret was not being with her at her last moments (she chose a super brutal way to go), and I wish that maybe if I've done more things would have been different. I was just in such a blur when she suddenly told me.
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
38
Thank you. We met here, but we've never had the chance to meet in person before she left. I've requested all our chat data from discord since her account got deleted awhile after (I think she may have began the deletion process before she left)
To be honest my main regret was not being with her at her last moments (she chose a super brutal way to go), and I wish that maybe if I've done more things would have been different. I was just in such a blur when she suddenly told me.
It's tough hearing info like that. The human mind isn't built to react but rather go into a state of shock. That haziness you experienced is all a defense mechanism. Don't beat on yourself about it, we all have to deal with things on our own time. Hope discord is able to restore your data so you have those memories to hold onto
 
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resurgence

resurgence

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Jan 17, 2025
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what things did she like? what was she passionate about, did she have any silly lil interests? what qualities of hers did you enjoy and cherish? keep her memory alive <3
 
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TennTrixie

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Aug 31, 2024
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There is no such thing as honor that would matter to them because they are dead and are thus non existent. Nothing that you do would matter to them because they aren't alive anymore. The things that you can do only matter to the living, not to the dead. Also, memories of them won't last forever anyway. In a few generations, they'll be completely forgotten. It's a harsh thing to say to people but it's true as people like to think that they're more important than they really are but, honestly, no, we are not important at all in the grand scheme of things.

If there is something that you want to do for her though, perhaps you could share some things that she wished that other people would understand? I'm sure that those who have ctb in this forum wished that the right to die peacefully existed for those who are suffering and suicidal in the future. Maybe she was one of those people too
Honoring someone who is gone is actually about ourselves rather than the person who died. Perhaps OP used "honor" in a way that meant ,more like "remember".
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
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Your fear that the memory of your dear one might fade is understandable, yet equally inevitable. Time is a universal solvent, a river that drags and erases everything, without exception. The idea that the dead continue to live on in the memory of the living is a fragile consolation, an illusion crafted by humans to combat the unbearable awareness of their cosmic insignificance. Memory, however precious, is nothing more than a fleeting echo destined to fade into the infinite void.

We must accept, with a lucid and unflinching gaze, that every action carried out in the name of the deceased holds no value for them, as they no longer exist. They are absent in every sense of the term, vanished into a nothingness that cares not for our actions or intentions. The universe is indifferent to our passions and pains, and it is precisely in this indifference that the ultimate truth is revealed: humanity is but an ephemeral spark, destined to extinguish without leaving a trace.

If you feel the need to act, do so for yourself, because what you do will never hold any ontological relevance for those who are no more. And know that even this act will be absorbed into oblivion, as will your memories and those of the ones who follow you. Memory is a fragile mechanism, and future generations will carry nothing of what today seems irreplaceable to you. It is a bitter truth, but in its cruelty lies a form of freedom: there is no moral obligation to remember, nor any burden to bear.

Embrace the insignificance of existence and the transience of memory as intrinsic parts of reality itself. What remains, if anything can remain, is the act of facing this truth without fear, understanding that, in the end, nothing matters.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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for me, joining them.
 
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