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Mmjj219
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- Nov 17, 2019
- 13
i don't care about my mom actually one of the reasons to ctb is to rub her face on how shitty mother she is.
my problem is mostly with my brother, he gets maniac episodes and just do crazy stuff.
my house is already fucked up and by me dying this will just worsen them not as if they care but as I said i can't imagine what would my brother do, he might just go berserk and kill someone in return, I wonder if there is a way I could delay this information to them.
i have exams after 2 days and I just gave up on studying cuz I'm so mentally unstable right now to study and the new semester will start right after the exams and I need to start working so fucking hard cuz it's college of medicine.
so I think the best time to kill my self would be in these 2 days and I'm in pretty fucked up situation and don't know what to do.
my problem is mostly with my brother, he gets maniac episodes and just do crazy stuff.
my house is already fucked up and by me dying this will just worsen them not as if they care but as I said i can't imagine what would my brother do, he might just go berserk and kill someone in return, I wonder if there is a way I could delay this information to them.
i have exams after 2 days and I just gave up on studying cuz I'm so mentally unstable right now to study and the new semester will start right after the exams and I need to start working so fucking hard cuz it's college of medicine.
so I think the best time to kill my self would be in these 2 days and I'm in pretty fucked up situation and don't know what to do.