Discussion Whats it Like for You Everyday?

[Xebsora29]

For me, its silence and emptiness.

I sit here and there, conversing with peers and family.

I laugh, smile, and render my appearances as positive.

Yet ironically, I'm consumed with adversity and constant affliction.

I regularly question my motives, actions, and existence.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

The symptoms of late stage treatment resistant hemocromatosis.
Physical pain
Muscle cramps
Lack of energy
Shortness of breath
Neurological problems
Heart problems
Liver problems
Stomach problems
Exhaustion
Confusion
Regret
Loneliness
Disappointment
Longing
Fear
Insomnia
Anxiety
Depression

 

[Mr2005]

I wake up to the reality that I didn't join a plastic surgery forum in 2004 and it's now 2020 and I think about it until I go to bed

 

[Thanatos]

I wake up to the reality that I didn't join a plastic surgery forum in 2004 and it's now 2020 and I think about it until I go to bed

What makes you care so much about appearances if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Mr2005]

Apparently I didn't or I would have joined one wouldn't I? Or did I not even know they existed? Or could I just not take my hands off my dick long enough to use a computer for something else? I don't know. Just a few of many scenarios. It's the one thing I don't remember. It's the rest I'd like to forget. It just doesn't make any sense.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Waiting waiting waiting waiting. Uncertainty kills me (lol I wish it did actually)

 

[waterbottleman]

Chronic loneliness. No friends, haven't had a girlfriend or a date in 12 years, been rejected my entire life even though I'm s kind person, am only able to get sex/intimacy by paying for it.

The only enjoyment I have in life now is the stock market. Idk why but the stock market fascinates me and it's the one and only thing I have left in my life. Depression has consumed every interest I have, every passion, every motivation. The only thing it hasn't taken at this point is my interest in the stock market. I pay attention to it everyday and always am awake when it opens.

I have a lot of money and I have an idea of what I'm going to do and it's going to be an ultimatum on my life.

I'm going to find an options trade involving buying deep out of the money options on some stock/etf (buying out of the money options is akin to gambling, you can easily lose your entire investment but if you win you earn an ungodly sum of money) and schedule my suicide the day after this trade. I'm going to prepare my suicide in advance before I make this trade.

If the trade is successful and I become rich I'll move to Thailand and retire on my money.

If the trade fails I'm just going to kill myself the next day.

I've been thinking about this more and more and realize this is what I have to do.