Pisceslilith
Student
- Aug 19, 2019
- 159
For me it's that I'll only really have myself, I figured it out as child but everyone made me out to feel like I'm "crazy" or "dramatic" (gaslighting was common in my childhood).
That we can wishfully think all we want but nature doesn't give a shit what we think or feel.
Also that I had many blessings despite my issues and comprehensively fucked my life up by being a lazy arrogant drunk.
This is super relatable. You're not the only person with these traits.That I wallow in self-pity and need negativity to live as I am reliant on it. I am self-indulgent and a cause for a lot of my own problems. The things I hate in others are reflections of things I don't like in myself. I had potential but I have ruined my future.
Your story brought a tear to my eye amiga.The hardest and most shocking truth for me was learning that people are not who they seem.... and that you can live with someone for almost 20 years only to wake up one morning and find out you live with a stranger.
And the even bigger shock was to discover that the said person was in fact real, but that you had refused to see the truth, having blindly believed and prayed to that satanic entity called love.
There is not a trace of arrogance in any of your posts. Quite the opposite.
Wow. I could have written that too, especially the last bit.That I wallow in self-pity and need negativity to live as I am reliant on it. I am self-indulgent and a cause for a lot of my own problems. The things I hate in others are reflections of things I don't like in myself. I had potential but I have ruined my future.
Unfortunately true.That physical health can be taken in a moment, life can change from essentially perfect to complete suffering in a flash. And tragedy/suffering does not discriminate. It can happen to anyone, anywhere.
Your story brought a tear to my eye amiga.
I have lost much of my arrogance in some ways and yet still retain it in others. It's a fault I still have and so try very hard not to let it master me.
Wow. I could have written that too, especially the last bit.
If it's what I think it is, it needs to go burn in hell.We are here only for IT'S entertainment and IT'S servant :(
It might just be universal, the good old projection... I just recently realized the greater extent as to how judgemental I can be about others, and that's probably not even the final form.The things I hate in others are reflections of things I don't like in myself.