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Unsure and alone
It's a slow fade
- Dec 10, 2023
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I'm wanting help considering the consequences of admitting to a medical professional a little bit more how bad it really is .
Things are really bad .
I've come close to making a suicide attempt every day so far this week.
Reaching out is the only reason I'm still here through that .
I had been doing better with self harm for a bit .
Having a certain space to talk helped a lot
But right now
Well I'm running out of room unless I extend where I've got scars .
My task manager took a break and just almost completely broke for a few days .
I'm setting low goals for Today .
And seeing what happens.
Bottom line I know I've been running far to close to my limit.
And it's likely to get worse because I'm losing that space to talk soon.
So what would be the consequences of admitting to self harm to a medical professional ?
I can't run that risk without a better idea of what it would mean.
So all thoughts welcome.
I guess you should know I'm looking at this as a maybe get some help in the meantime.
See if there's some help as I drift closer to the end
Not as a I'm starting to recover.
I guess it's worth hoping someone would care to still reply to what looks ever more to me like a lost cause .
Things are really bad .
I've come close to making a suicide attempt every day so far this week.
Reaching out is the only reason I'm still here through that .
I had been doing better with self harm for a bit .
Having a certain space to talk helped a lot
But right now
Well I'm running out of room unless I extend where I've got scars .
My task manager took a break and just almost completely broke for a few days .
I'm setting low goals for Today .
And seeing what happens.
Bottom line I know I've been running far to close to my limit.
And it's likely to get worse because I'm losing that space to talk soon.
So what would be the consequences of admitting to self harm to a medical professional ?
I can't run that risk without a better idea of what it would mean.
So all thoughts welcome.
I guess you should know I'm looking at this as a maybe get some help in the meantime.
See if there's some help as I drift closer to the end
Not as a I'm starting to recover.
I guess it's worth hoping someone would care to still reply to what looks ever more to me like a lost cause .