What would change your mind about CTB?

[cantdecidenameeven]

What do you need? What would give you a great reason to stick around? Can we help you achieve it?

For me, I think it's love. I want to be loved by someone who isn't forced to love me. Like I'm loved by parents and siblings, but what choice did they have? They had to live with me for 2 decades.

Business working out would be a huge W too. Then I can travel.

 

[Defenestration]

I wanted My mom not ill

 

[HereIGoAgain24]

I haven't 'made up my mind' about CTB per se- it's more that I bought the method so it's there if I'm ever ready. That said, the biggest thing that would eliminate the desires, in all honesty, would be for this world to start showing signs of lasting improvement. Seeing how completely screwed everything is has convinced me that, regardless of what's going on in my personal life, the external situation is rapidly unraveling- but far worse, the attitudes/actions of our leaders and their followers only perpetuate this cycle of misery. It's this constant selfishness, this greed, and this sectarianism, that's killing all of us.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing Will change my mind about killing myself asap

Logically I don't want any thing from this evil world and evil life

I never want to exist under any circumstances

The only way some one could help me is to help me with suicide like shooting me in the head. But they made that a crime precisely to keep everyone in this prison as a slave

Why is it illegal to pay someone to help me with suicide?

 

[LunarLight]

I need my brain to function properly and let me enjoy things. Then I will have no more reasons to CTB.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nothing really. The problem with life is existence itself. I guess if I had lots of money and could be a neet, I'd stick by for a bit longer so that I could help some suicidal people here get access to things that are inaccessible to them due to financial barriers or just those who are suicidal from financial problems but, aside from that, I'd still want to be dead. The issue with life is existence itself and, even if I was the richest person on earth, it wouldn't change the fact that I'd still have to exist and that I'm still subject to suffering and pain

 

[Reflection]

To rebuild a healthy realtionship with my ex girlfriend before she moves on with someone else...thats all I ever want from this life.

 

[LiveOrganization97]

Getting the ability to feel joy back.

 

[chester]

Right now I need to make up my mind instead of changing it. I can't stand living, but I can't kill myself either. I tried multiple times.
I wish I could just die without having to do it myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I just don't wish to exist at all, instead all I hope for is to never exist again, to me existing is the most futile, torturous and painful burden that just caused me to suffer, I'd always prefer to peacefully not exist than to suffer for decades longer just to be tortured by old age. I've suffered so much for so long, more than anything I wish I never existed, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, to me existing will always be deeply undesirable, I'll always see it as the most horrific, terrible tragedy to exist.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Even if by some miracle all my problems got resolved, I doubt I would want to keep existing. Life has no meaning. I cannot exist without meaning.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Too many things, none of which have changed in 60 years. The only thing that's changed is my ability to deal with them and they no I owe it to myself to allow myself release after all that time coping with everything for the sake of others. There's so little time left in my natural life so I fell like "let's just cut to the chase". Fast forward to the ending.
Too many things, none of which have changed in 60 years. The only thing that's changed is my ability to deal with them and they no I owe it to myself to allow myself release after all that time coping with everything for the sake of others. There's so little time left in my natural life so I fell like "let's just cut to the chase". Fast forward to the ending.

 

[divinemistress36]

Having a healthy brain

 

[Iris Blue]

To be honest, I'm not sure if there would be anything that would make me want to live, more so making me tolerate staying for a while longer. Before it was for my family, friends, and dog. Now I feel like I'm kind of already wrapping things up by distancing myself from them, holding off on jobs or anything else that would get in the way. I already delayed CTB a few times due to taking care of other people's needs first or something I felt like had to be done. I maybe sort of wish there was something to truly want to stay alive for but for the most part I just feel like I'm done and am ready to go.

 

[wren-briar]

Currently, it would be having an absolutely, legally enforceable guarantee that I would NEVER again be subjected to unasked for or unwanted mother-f'ing psychiatric crisis f'ing interventions: no suicidal intention interrogations, no coffin rooms, no psych prisons, no psychologically bully via the threat of state-sanctioned imprisonment because of my firmly held moral beliefs and resulting "exit plans", " retirement plans", and my "safety plans" ever again.

As for the absolutely, legally enforceable guarantee, if I were to ever again be thusly subjugated, then every single person who -in anyway- contributed to me being subjected to such actions or places would (a) have to watch as I killed myself -as a direct and explicit response- to such subjugation and (b) have to spend the rest of their lives in the psych prison of my choice.

As for "currently", I would still be able to CTB for other reasons of my choosing (e.g. developing dementia, becoming quadriplegic, etc.)

 

[cohomology]

Nothing that's even remotely realistic. I think I've lived enough already. I've already made a promise to myself to ctb.

 

[badK9wolf]

A job I don't hate and a way out of debt

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

Nothing. I simply wish I wasn't born, and I'd never want to live any life at any point in time. CTB is the only way I have a chance at nothingness/non-existence, and I hope it's eternal and I don't come back in some form.

 

[babouflo201223]

For my part, just having somebody in my life, somebody to love and to be loved by her/him, not necessary at all a girlfriend/boyfriend (I'm not interested in sexual relations) but somebody to talk with, to feel quiet with, to share ideas, points of view, and daily life as it is.