What will have to happen for you to stop wanting to CTB?

[PI3.14]

For me: Getting a great career, either getting taller or for the world as whole not to treat me as a short man differently, finding love and overall have a good health both physical and mental.

 

[Reflection]

Reconciliation with my estranged ex girlfriend

 

[KillingPain267]

My brain would have to be rewired completely. No matter what, I can't get ctb out of my mind. Too many traumatic memories. Maybe a total memory wipe of the traumatic things while retaining the good memories as well as my physical pain going away. But I would also need to avoid being a wage slave. And who knows what else negative comes along. At this point, any slightly negative feeling or event, my brain immediately jumps to ctb as the solution.

 

[PI3.14]

My brain would have to be rewired completely. No matter what, I can't get ctb out of my mind. Too many traumatic memories. Maybe a total memory wipe of the traumatic things while retaining the good memories as well as my physical pain going away. But I would also need to avoid being a wage slave. And who knows what else negative comes along. At this point, any slightly negative feeling or event, my brain immediately jumps to ctb as the solution.

I feel like bad life experiences make us more sensitive to emotional pain. That's why our brain jumps to CTB even at the slightest discomfort.

I just got off a public bus and the driver was angry at me for not signaling early that I wanted to ride the bus. This incident alone made me wish to vanish from existence, also I'm a foreigner where I live so I didn't understand anything he said but understood why he was pissed off.

 

[Gstreater]

I think making enough money to not have to worry financially and finding someone they loves and supports me for who I am and helps me get better.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll have to die, as long as I exist I'll always hope and wish to be gone, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and the thought of being trapped here for much longer just to die in agony from old age is absolutley horrific. Personally I just want peace instead of all this cruelty and suffering, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could just erase my existence like I never suffered at all, more than anything I wish I never existed.

 

[PI3.14]

I'll have to die, as long as I exist I'll always hope and wish to be gone, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and the thought of being trapped here for much longer just to die in agony from old age is absolutley horrific. Personally I just want peace instead of all this cruelty and suffering, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could just erase my existence like I never suffered at all, more than anything I wish I never existed.

Have you always been this way or only did it start at a certain age? For me it all started when I turned 19. Before that, I was blissfully ignorant guy.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

honestly, I don't think I could be ever happy with my life. I'd have to wake up tomorrow a completely new person

 

[AllTheseQuestions]

A Time Machine, or to erase certain events from my mind.

 

[KillingPain267]

I feel like bad life experiences make us more sensitive to emotional pain. That's why our brain jumps to CTB even at the slightest discomfort.

I think it's more because I now know a relatively painless easy way to ctb (SN), so it kind of gives me the power back to just avoid having to deal with any bullshit at all.

 

[Defenestration]

Une machine à remonter le temps, ou pour effacer certains événements de mon esprit.

Cancel my birthday

 

[Forever Sleep]

If I die a natural death. I think I've exhausted the other options.

 

[star.trip]

well, to have trained my mirror neurons, to have emotional intelligence, not to have closed in on myself, to be more tolerant with myself and to be so silly.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Either the world would have to magically change so that suffering no longer exists forever and every sentient being in life can win or my brain would have to be rewired so that I think like a normie and live with the pro life glasses on permanently. There isn't any other way really

 

[Tired_of_myself]

Time Machine and enough money to just travel around

 

[JustAnx]

Full GAD recovery, being mentally stronger and more resilient

 

[redkitsune98]

I just need my ex back and a better job

 

[everydaythesame]

Nothing, i have children, been ok wiith money but even these arent enough. Cant stand being alive no matter what.

 

[siouxsie]

love. From a grown up human being. Not just my children. It seems it's impossible to love or even just appreciate me just the way I am with all the flaws and weirdness. Being unlovable definitely is one of the main reasons for me to ctb

 

[Calliandras]

My ex loving me again. My life still would be shit and I still would be a loser who can't do anything right, but with him by my side I think I could endure anything.

 

[AlcoholicSphinx02]

What would need to happen for me to consider NOT CTB?
1. For time travel to be a thing, that way I could travel to, say, 150 years into the future just to get a female body. Then I would be sent back to where I originally time traveled from, but 15 seconds after.
2. Technology being developed and released to the public, that would allow them to travel into the spirit realm for about a couple hours at a time, allowing them to talk with their family members that have passed on.
3. If I were to get one of those Neuralink devices implanted into my skull, which would then allow me to completely delete ALL my traumatic memories from my mind as well as allow me to write in new habits into my subconscious.

 

[everydaythesame]

love. From a grown up human being. Not just my children. It seems it's impossible to love or even just appreciate me just the way I am with all the flaws and weirdness. Being unlovable definitely is one of the main reasons for me to ctb

I know how you feel, im sure your lovable as we all should be.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing could ever stop me from wanting to kill myself asap

There exists pain so bad it makes everything else meaningless

For one thing nobody could convince me that anything is objectively important, valuable or good least of all evil life or this evil prison world

No one can convince me that there is an objective reason to want to live another day another minute in this nightmare.

i don't want anything from this evil life and evil world

Live is an imposition torture slavery prison

all the meaningless addictions they say are soooo goood are just meaningless bait for extreme torture .

why would I want to be part of evil ? If u know what is best non-existence why not act to go towards non-existence forever? After Death is non-existence forever

who would voluntarily choose unending constant unbearable pain over non-existence? not me.

 

[pariah80]

At this point, nothing. The world I was preparing to live in doesn't exist. This life is incapable of giving me the things I want. Outside of waking up in some fantasy world, nothing is going to change my mind.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Oh nothing too insane, just me getting a girlfriend.

Nvm, that's impossible.

 

[Hollowman]

Brain transplant

 

[Just_Another_Person]

A shit ton of money ($1,000,000, taxes already deduced, would be enough to fix my life).

 

[Z-A]

Moneh

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

To be honest, nothing that's actually possible would stop me from CTB. I would need to go back over 12 years into the past, change every influencial event that has happened, and then maybe that would stop me from CTB, as my mental health would probably be very good.

 

[Rejection]

We can invent whatever we want, the reality is that we don't even know and can only make entirely theoretical assumptions. Our mind will do anything and will tend to adapt to any situation, generally you come to realise CBT when you lose everything and not because you have not achieved anything yet.
An empty, depressed person who has nothing to lose is unlikely to kill himself because he lives in that grey area where his mind and spirit are used to.
The father of a family, on the other hand, who loses his wife, who takes away his children, who takes away his house, and maybe even loses his job, might actually manage to kill himself. Or the person who stakes everything on school and work results, but fails, has failed, and goes for CBT.
But an empty person, who has nothing, will invent any excuse not to kill himself.