Discussion what will be your last days's activities?

[_Minsk]

Would be interesting to see how you would plan your days before the final date, like having some good food once or just relaxing and making friends with the idea of ctb

 

[DyingisHard93]

I wanted something simple but fun , maybe hang out with some friends or my partner and have a few drinks or go out on a boat , side note dying on a boat would be cool.

 

[willitpass]

Would be interesting to see how you would plan your days before the final date, like having some good food once or just relaxing and making friends with the idea of ctb

my first serious attempt i was in middle school, i went to school, after school i went and started sewing a blanket for my cousins new baby. i went home and relaxed and ignored my homework. then i did it.
my second serious attempt was in high school, i went to school and left after a few periods, walked down to the river and went over the damn. i was in a suicidal trance the whole day and didn't feel anything.
this time will probably be similar. i will probably go about my day, go to work, come home and then go. i don't believe that i will remember my last day so i don't even care to make it special, if anything i just want to make it special for the people i'm leaving behind so they have something to remember.

 

[_Minsk]

having really good food once,
a ton of liquorice (i love it),
maybe doing some soft drugs
ohh and watching some animes

if anything i just want to make it special for the people i'm leaving behind so they have something to remember.

 

[SleeplessSoul]

The day before I want to go and do a double shift at the theatre I volunteer at and go for drinks with some friends. The day of I'll probably find somewhere peaceful and just soak in nature and do some writing

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Consider my anxiety doesn´t get the better of me and I have to ctb on impulse and my ego won´t get in my way (don´t ask what that is about)

Then I would like to ctb the 12th or maybe 19th because I have an appointment at my psychiatrist so I can get Mc Donalds on my way home so I would start my day off with some cereal with milk the Nesquick one with the bunny on, I haven´t eaten them since childhood plus I am now allergic to milk and on my way home from my shrink I will order a Happy Meal like I got when I was a child then I would be spending hours watching all the nostalgia I have (over 1100 elements in my nostalgia folder) and childhood pictures, look through my old school books from I was a child and teenager and look through my box with my things from when I was Goth, Also look at my Yugi-Oh cards maybe even watch the first episode too and of course watch a childhood video of me at 9 years old along with my brothers. I would also listen to nostalgic music this would take at least 5-6 hours last time I indulged in it, it took over 4 hours.

Then I might be hungry again but since I am ctb it won´t really matter that much so I will just make one single Filet mignon to eat go up to a secluded place while it´s evening/night i.e. dark out and think about my childhood one last time maybe even say "please let me wake up as a child again and all of this was just a bad dream" and then shoot myself in the temple with my Glock 17 using 9mm JHP 115 grain bullets.

At least all of this is the dream how I want it to perfectly work out but it might end up completely different.

 

[Erase.myself]

My ctb date through SN is coming Monday, May 11th in the evening. I have 2 1/2 days left on Earth. I am spending my last days watching my favorite movies , eating my favorite foods (and not caring about the calories despite my ED), giving support and lots of hugs to those around me, and giving away my clothes and things as gifts to others.

If I can leave my mark on this earth in small ways like supporting others and giving them hugs before I go...I am satisfied.

 

[1DayItWillBover]

hookers and hard drugs

 

[LastRide]

I'd like to spend a couple of days on my own to mentally prepare, look at nature and wonder at her beauty, be happy that I will soon be just a part of her. Listen to some music, look at the night sky. Say goodbye to all the beauty in this world. Then take a drug cocktail to make you feel in the right mood. Have an orgasm one last time (on my own - some last-minute romantic company is not going to happen unfortunately). Then concentrate so as not to fail !

 

[BPD Barbie]

Just spent relaxing, getting some take out, hoping for clear skies to watch the stars before going to sleep forever.

 

[Squiddy]

I haven't decided if I'm gonna ctb or not, but if so, then I'll have a week full of taking drugs with the last day taking molly, and then maybe heroin or meth to go out with a bang.

 

[Despondent]

Eat some good food (mukbang) and relax. Possibly take a train to a bigger city earlier that day to do some gift shopping for family and friends (I love to spoil people anyways, so it's something I enjoy lol). Go to the movies.

Nothing out of the ordinary but do something fun and outside the box. I would like to dream of doing those things, but that would just be a longer day than I can handle. Realistically, I would probably make my exit with doing nothing beforehand haha

 

[miguel6565]

Weed and alot of anime too

 

[rebelsue]

Sit with my cat for a while...she's going to take it the hardest I think. Because she won't understand what it all means. Then go sit in the woods for a while and breathe really deep and say see you soon.

 

[X-Kid]

Don't have a date, but when the time comes I'll spend that day being with my dog, preparing my letters for those I love, treat myself to some delicious snack and go somewhere where I won't be immediately found.

 

[Talokin]

If I could enjoy hangin' with friends and eating good food, I would not want to kill myself.

My last day with be exactly the same as the previous few years. Wake up, go to bathroom and avoid looking it mirror because I do not want a reminder that I exist. Force myself to eat so I have energy to do the stuff. Accidentaly hear music and remember how I used to love music. Stare in the middle distance. Stare some more.

Die.

 

[_Minsk]

over 1100 elements in my nostalgia folder

so sad i loved t collect nostalgia stuffs too but they have become just a reminder that im overdue...

If I could enjoy hangin' with friends and eating good food, I would not want to kill myself.

My last day with be exactly the same as the previous few years. Wake up, go to bathroom and avoid looking it mirror because I do not want a reminder that I exist. Force myself to eat so I have energy to do the stuff. Accidentaly hear music and remember how I used to love music. Stare in the middle distance. Stare some more.

Die.

wow, i can relate a lot!

 

[TheGoodGuy]

so sad i loved t collect nostalgia stuffs too but they have become just a reminder that im overdue...

I actually can´t feel nostalgia as I used to because of apathy but it´s the best drive I have to motivate me to ctb since I don´t feel anything no sadness from depression or teenage hormones so watching nostalgia that brings memories from a simpler time where life was so exciting and I was happy is the best drive because of the extreme contrast between then and now.

I also just checked I was wrong I have 1795 elements in my nostalgia folder.

hoping for clear skies to watch the stars before going to sleep forever.

This is an important part for me too I love the star clear sky

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Eat food, reflect on life a little and just try to relax. Don't really have many friends I could hang out with.

 

[Keepingtabs]

I've always loved music, and that's also what I do for a living, I'd probably record some songs as a way to say goodbye to everyone.

 

[Tuumii]

On my final day, if I ever go through with taking my own life, I'd like to spend the entire day doing everything i use to enjoy. reminiscing, eating my favourite foods, shopping at my favourite stores, and finally, having a picnic (I've never had a picnic before.) I'd like to end my life in nature; a piece of land surrounded by dense trees, grass and flowers, soothing winds and silence, far away from civilization. I've always loved nature, and I'll give my life to nature.

 

[Keepingtabs]

On my final day, if I ever go through with taking my own life, I'd like to spend the entire day doing everything i use to enjoy. reminiscing, eating my favourite foods, shopping at my favourite stores, and finally, having a picnic (I've never had a picnic before.) I'd like to end my life in nature; a piece of land surrounded by dense trees, grass and flowers, soothing winds and silence, far away from civilization. I've always loved nature, and I'll give my life to nature.

sounds relaxing

 

[I’mDone]

My plan is sn so my second to last day I'll cook my favourite food, enjoy the meal and chill. My last day will be spent driving to the location, somewhere remote and scenic, then just sitting in nature, listening to birdsong and feeling the warm breeze. Maybe the scent of wild thyme in the air. Then it'll be time to drink the kool-aid so to speak. I'll have a couple of spliffs rolled and ready. Hopefully all this with a like-minded partner, but alone if it has to be.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Looking like today might be my last day.

 

[I’mDone]

Looking like today might be my last day.

Please don't rush in to anything? Have you planned or is this impulsive?

 

[Mr.Nobody]

Just all day waiting the darkness , I guess.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Please don't rush in to anything? Have you planned or is this impulsive?

Little bit of both. I've been meaning to do it for years now, anyway.

 

[I’mDone]

Here if you want to talk bro (or sis)..

 

[SheJumped]

in the order give or take a few items moving up

• Ensure all communication to those I wanted notified is sent (letters)
• • Ensure nothing is looked over
  • Reflect on what I've done in my lifetime
  • See/listen to songs and certain movies
  • Eat my favourite dish
  • Drink my favourite drink (alcohol)

 

[TheSoulless]

I will listen to songs that are important to me and cry a lot. I'd like to watch a good anime during my final days, preferably something sad. And, if the day happens to be in the summer, I will go outside and watch the midnight sun for a while, since I live north of the Arctic Circle.