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lnlybnny

Arcanist
Jan 25, 2024
453
I didn't do anything slightly productive besides immersing myself deeply in my limerence over my fav artist. I know this might be a coping mechanism since she's basically the only source of joy I still have and she made me feel happiness when I needed most.

I feel so dumb and ridiculous because I'll turn 30 next year and I've amounted to nothing in life besided neeting. At the same time I know I couldn't bring myself to do anything productive because I'm not well mentally. People think I'm just lazy but only I know what I go through every day in my mind. It's a struggle to survive with my brain each day but it doesn't stop me from feeling terrible.
 
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reyonrays

reyonrays

Death brings peace, the ultimate release.
Oct 27, 2024
41
tbh, same! Didn't do shit this year!

Makes me more depressed each time i think about it.
 
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Wendigo

Wendigo

Member
Nov 2, 2024
22
I lost everything this year.
My health, my gf, everything in a matter of months. I am trying my best not to make it to 2025 tho. Already failed once but will try again as soon as possible.
 
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GalacticWarrior777

GalacticWarrior777

One day I'll be gone and that's it
Sep 24, 2024
121
This year was the worst year, once again. Every year has been getting worse and worse, and this year is the worst. I've already had suicide thoughts for a couple years, but this year was actually the first time i've made progress on preparations to CTB. I've lost my last few friends this year, both my mental and physical health has gone down a lot, and I just cant understand how is it possible that a year that in the beginning was so promising ended up this bad. If I make it to 2025, I'm already going in with low hopes for that year lol.
 
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frog problems

frog problems

Member
Oct 25, 2024
5
This year was definitely one of the worst of my life. I pretty much did nothing for a year straight. No energy do do anything. Just keep getting more and more depressed. This fucking sucks considering that last year was so good and life was showing so much promise. I guess it's my fault for believing good things would come, because things truly only get worse.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,187
Worse than 2022 (if you exclude the end) but better than 2023. Pretty mid year
 
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trist_

Member
Jul 15, 2024
12
Well, just failed an exam. Now the last reason for me to continue to live has dissapear. I'm in the process of handling bureaucratic things as of now, I would probably CTB either in January or February.
 
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afternoontea

afternoontea

Even my dreams are depressing
Nov 4, 2024
8
Started off depressed and with a job. Now I'm depressed and don't have a job. Funny how that happens
 
Ethernatuskoi

Ethernatuskoi

Life is a very bad joke
Oct 24, 2023
201
This year was bad, just like all the other years before, but I think this one was worse because a lot of bad things happened to me and I started to feel worse than before. I noticed that my depression and suicidal thoughts intensified, I lost the girl I loved, I lost job opportunities, I'm having problems at college and I might have to drop out of it all, I had my first failed attempt to ctb, and I'm distancing myself from my online friends. I had a lot of things planned, but everything went wrong, for once. Anyway, it's part of it, it's normal for one thing or everything to go wrong.
 
Tuonetar_

Tuonetar_

Member
Sep 18, 2024
23
This year has been a blur for me. I spent most of my time working and on my days off, I was too tired and burnt out to go out and do anything or pursue my hobbies. I feel like I stumbled through the months in a haze and when I finally stopped and looked up it was November.
 
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deadzombie6

deadzombie6

Exhausted
Oct 15, 2024
20
This year has been the worst year of my life tbh I've lost the small amount of hope I had in life it's been a miserable horrible year
 
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ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
249
This year has been a blur for me. I spent most of my time working and on my days off, I was too tired and burnt out to go out and do anything or pursue my hobbies. I feel like I stumbled through the months in a haze and when I finally stopped and looked up it was November.
Ditto
Every year this seems to be the case.
 
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Pyxel

Pyxel

Sleepy
Sep 10, 2023
56
First half of the year was stagnant but things are improving. Hoping to keep things rolling.
 

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