What was the most graphical suicide that you watched and still remember?

[noname223]

As a teenager who got physical punishment on a daily basis I coped by watching gore.

There were some suicides I watched.

One of the most graphical was Budd Dwyer. The US politician who shot himself in the head in front of TV cameras. I watched the video on Youtube as teenager. I think I watched it a couple of times. It is still quite vivid in my memory.

There were videos on Youtube where people jumped of the Golden Gate bridge. I can remember there was someone in full black. A very tall man. Who jumped with full body control. This astounded me.

I can remember a video of probably an Indian man. He was in a live call with most likely his ex girlfriend. I think it only shows the last part of the call. She beggs him not to do it. She begs him so much. But eventually he jumps out of the window and you hear the sound of car that gets damaged and rings an alarm. I don't know in which floor he was.

There was one Mexican cartell beheading that I watched. But it was too disturbing to watch. I skipped through it because I got really sick. The pictures were not the worst but the sound of it. This poor woman.

I think to stop watching gore was a very good decision. And I would recommend to all of you. Quitting to watch gore can really improve your mental health. I would probably have PTSD now if I continued watching such explicit gore. There were some videos that were even for me too disturbing to that time. I always wondered how it looks like if someone jumps in front of a train. But I never watched it (gladly.) I think this could have traumatized me.

 

[martyrdom]

I've seen my fair share of gore irl. It's good you stopped watching it. My suicide will be very violent and graphic and I have cameras in my house, so I might just end up becoming LiveLeaks' next big star.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I tend to avoid gore. I was going to say that I haven't seen any gory suicides but- come to think of it- I think I have seen the Budd Dwyer footage.

I believe the man you are talking about from 'The Bridge' was Gene Sprague. I've always hoped my attempt would be as confident as that. I also admired him because I believe he waited for his Mum to pass first. His Nan was lovely too. She didn't try to stop him- she knew how much he suffered. She only asked him to say goodbye before he went. I thought that incredibly brave.

Weirdly, the most graphic in my head is a suicide of which no footage is available- as far as I know but- similar to Budd Dwyer- Christine Chubbuck shot herself in the head live on air. Prior to it, saying the network was going to have "an exclusive coverage of an attempted suicide". There are documentary films about her life. That definitely stayed with me.

 

[CaptainSunshine!]

I remember a video about a father hanging himself in front of his young (4-9 years old) son. The child kept screaming "papa!" and tugging at him. Another one is Ronnie McNutt who shot himself with a shotgun during a livestream on Facebook.

Back when I was active on Discord, I wanted to be edgy, unique and cool so I looked at gore videos. There were many brutal videos, like a man killing dogs and drinking their blood, but I can't remember any memorable suicides besides these two.

I think gore has always made me uncomfortable. It is so uncinematic. One time I saw a person getting stabbed. At first I thought it was fake, but after a moment, it started becoming real to me. The sound of the knife was so easy and minor, I couldn't believe it.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I watched a video of a guy lighting himself on fire and after he did that he was enveloped in flames immediately and he was screaming for an entire minute before dying/losing consciousness. That was the most traumatizing suicide I ever watched. Poor guy

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

Pretty sure one of the other alters watched this liveleak video of a dude blowing his brains out when we were a kid. I don't remember much of it, it was super grainy and low quality.

I watched a video of a guy lighting himself on fire and after he did that he was enveloped in flames immediately and he was screaming for an entire minute before dying/losing consciousness. That was the most traumatizing suicide I ever watched. Poor guy

Oh gosh I forgot about that guy. I watched that too. Sucks that they tried to just call him mentally ill instead of addressing the reasons he did it.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

Ronnie McNutt and another video of a guy slashing his throat with a knife.

I usually watch gore if I'm in a particularly bad or angry mood. Sometimes I wonder if it's a form of self-harm.