What thoughts are you having today?

[Empty Smile]

Mine are usually dark and bleak, but today it's even darker than normal. It's a dark, chilly and rainy day, so my thoughts have been on misery and death.

It's a wave of emotions today, none of them even remotely near the stages of happiness. I am in the bottomless pit of hell, the deepest part that no normal people dare enter.

You know the sensation where the tears are there, but they won't flow? That feeling you want to cry, but you can't? Your mind is wandering, but you have no idea where you are? Your mind is out of control, but you can't stop it?

Welcome to my world, my life, my hell. Please wipe off your shoes before entering, and close the door behind you.

 

[SlackJim]

I can relate to that, today in my head it feels like a swirling pool of rage, if my body acted out my thoughts I would be on a rampage. But it doesn't come out, just builds inside me until I hurt myself. Hope you can start to see some positive things soon

 

[Empty Smile]

I can relate to that, today in my head it feels like a swirling pool of rage, if my body acted out my thoughts I would be on a rampage. But it doesn't come out, just builds inside me until I hurt myself. Hope you can start to see some positive things soon

Like you, if I acted out on my thoughts, the outcome wouldn't be pretty. I also let the shit build up inside, and I know someday, it's going to explode.

 

[StillWaiting]

Same here.
Trapped with my thoughts.
Feeling as if I am going insane.

 

[Rachel74]

I've an itchy foot and the chop stick I put down my plaster as snapped! im thinking how can I get it out?

 

[BadChanges]

I have no thoughts...just a spaced out feeling and fatigue. My usual.

 

[Final Escape]

Angry and bitter lol! I have these every so often plus I'm in withdrawal again from ADD medication. Hoping the gym will improve my terrible mindset today. If I can even get myself into the gym, I'm sitting here inside the car working up the courage. Irrational anxiety.

 

[SinisterKid]

I am having thoughts of citrus with hints of melon and pomegranate.........hold on, nope, thats the wine

As England kicked Aussie arse this morning, my thoughts go to next weeks semi final with the All Blacks. That is going to be a game and a half to watch. So now, I have something to look forward to, which I did not have when I woke up.

But 4 months ago, I was down there in the depths with you. I got out. I cried and screamed and kicked and punched and crawled out of there. I very nearly ended it, but I am a man of my word.

 

[not4us]

music means more than we think

 

[a_strange_day]

Not a lot of thoughts today, even less emotions. It's one of these days I just stay home sleeping, binge eating, sitting or walking in circle in my little apartment. I can't even watch a movie or read a book, everything seems so stupid, meaningless. Words, words, words.

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

Not a lot of thoughts today, even less emotions. It's one of these days I just stay home sleeping, binge eating, sitting or walking in circle in my little apartment. I can't even watch a movie or read a book, everything seems so stupid, meaningless. Words, words, words.

I can relate to you not being able to read or watch a movie. I've found over the last few months I can't focus on anything as my mind feels deteriorated and restless.

 

[Empty Smile]

music means more than we think

Music is basically what keeps me going. Without music, I think I'd already be committed to an institution.

 

[Passenger]

People want to get rid of me. I want to live, I have so many projects but everyone hates me and wants me out.

 

[Hexen]

"Need to get a job" *checks job opportunities* "I don't have qualifications to do any of these jobs" and repeat every few hours.

 

[Voldmort]

runaway

 

[Empty Smile]

runaway

I consider this option quite a bit.

 

[Midnight]

Anger,hopelessness,depression,suicidality,loneliness,sadness,exhaustion .. the usual.

Thoughts that say "it's been so many years .. i just don't want to deal with it any longer. I'm tired"

 

[DoNotLet2]

I am so much shitty and don't know how to change it.. I wanna cry but my eyes are dry. Ooo it rhymed.

 

[neilo99]

I'm thinking about my wife has mentioned having a child, getting a loft extension and the house renovated. I've sat there agreeing in the knowledge I am at rock bottom, on so many prescription drugs and living a complete lie.

 

[Grey-zone]

I cant plan for shit. No plans. I want to escape, but don't know where or how. I just stare at the wall, doing nothing.

 

[Dazedandconfused32]

I cant plan for shit. No plans. I want to escape, but don't know where or how. I just stare at the wall, doing nothing.

Me too sometimes I tried to empty the dishwasher but got distracted only to be too tired to empty it so I closed it and went back to my room to just stare at the wall and cry. I'm sorry

 

[Return2Dust]

So tired of my family depending on me and weighing me down. I need to go now. I can't go now, my family depends on me. Non-stop loop.

 

[Stan]

How my memory is so bad. I can't remember if I have eaten anything, if I watched TV today, even whether I have been to the bathroom this week. But every bad memory takes a ticket, forms a queue and gatecrashes moments of relative peace on an hourly basis and stays with me until the next break of 5 minutes and then whooooosh! Another arrives

 

[faultypiston]

All I can think about is how badly I want to be emancipated from this planet, but I just can't do it. I'm in such a lethargic, thick fog that even ending my life is too difficult of a task.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

I'm browsing facebook out of boredom. Stumbled onto this.
Amusing myself with the thought of writing a short story involving a demon and a small army of dumbass, young, half naked female adventurers coming at the demon's castle. One by one. The castle is located on top of a mountain. If they manage to get to the castle without too many massive frostbites, the demon quickly treats them and sends them on their way. If they arrive half-dead, the demon has some sort of barracks thing arranged. The demon is being accused of constructing a harem.

 

[Circles]

I fucking suck at existing. I don't know what to do anymore, I just don't want to feel so sensitive to this deafening silence growing inside of me drowning in darkness. We all are going to forget this life like we never lived it at all once we're dead like what the fuck is the point? I'm so tired of feeling so bitter and pathetic about this. Fuuuuckkk.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I miss him. I miss him. I was so stupid. That was my last at happiness. Why was I such an idiot? I miss him. If only. If only. I wish . I wish. I wish. Why did I do it? I miss him. I'm fucking crazy anyway. Who would want me. I'm pathetic. Im sooo stupid. I miss him. Whhhyyyyy? Whhhyyyy? If only. I wish.

Soon Ill be dead. It wont matter. Soon I wont have to deal with this anymore. Just hang in there. Soon it will be all fucking over.

 

[Fadinglife]

That no one cares, especially people who feel close to. They turn their back on you when you need them the most.

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Today I leave my home, I don't want but I have to, cos it's part of my plan. And it's one of the last time that I'm going to do something about my career.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I'm overwhelmed numbness and apathy. But lately I've been brought out of this numb state on a daily basis with a lovely wave of anxiety and/or fear. It's a feeling that actually courses through my veins. It eventually dissipates and I go about my day. Then at the end I am left feeling alone, scared, anxious, depressed, purposeless and just confused in general. This cycle happens daily & I can't think of anything positive that would break this cycle.