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- Sep 24, 2019
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I was abused as a child and by others later on in various ways. I'm wondering which of my many negative traits are a result of abuse as opposed to traits developed due to my own character flaws.
For example, i'm almost entirety self absorbed, don't love anyone but I do care about my parents who adopted me, mean-spirited but kind (I attribute the latter to vulnerability and wanting to not be fucked over), very little empathy or sympathy except for people who have suffered like me, cold, vengeful. That's all I can think of at the moment.
I'm really tired of being treated like some devil for having developed many bad traits because of what happened in my early years when my brain was still growing. It's a big factor in why I want to die. The average person can't understand or is entirely unwilling.
For example, i'm almost entirety self absorbed, don't love anyone but I do care about my parents who adopted me, mean-spirited but kind (I attribute the latter to vulnerability and wanting to not be fucked over), very little empathy or sympathy except for people who have suffered like me, cold, vengeful. That's all I can think of at the moment.
I'm really tired of being treated like some devil for having developed many bad traits because of what happened in my early years when my brain was still growing. It's a big factor in why I want to die. The average person can't understand or is entirely unwilling.
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