what made you lose faith in humanity

[Yume Nikki]

The fact that Ted Bundy use to work at a Suicide Crisis hotline is enough for me to realize how batshit insane life truly is. What about you?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't think I ever had faith in humanity to begin with tbh

 

[Mirrory Me]

There's lot's of people who seem similar, but not any one is the same.

 

[pariah80]

Seeing the deterioration of human behavior during the COVID restrictions. But, as I think back, there were always reasons to not have any faith in humans. I just made the mistake of giving them the benefit of the doubt.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Seeing the deterioration of human behavior during the COVID restrictions. But, as I think back, there were always reasons to not have any faith in humans. I just made the mistake of giving them the benefit of the doubt.

People became more cold, distant and less social during COVID for sure. Everything has gotten competitive after thousands began losing their jobs, even social media has been increasingly negative these past few years.

 

[pariah80]

People became more cold, distant and less social during COVID for sure. Everything has gotten more competitive after thousands began losing their jobs, even social media has become increasingly negative these past few years.

There's just such an evil and weird vibe in the air. And it's everywhere. All over the world. I feel like something's coming. Something bad. Social media is simply reflecting the degenerate values that have become so prevalent and accepted in the past few years. People even sort of look weird and different. All interaction teeters between indifference and violence. I'm not sure what's on the horizon. I just know I won't see it and I'm very happy for that.

 

[Yume Nikki]

There's just such an evil and weird vibe in the air. And it's everywhere. All over the world. I feel like something's coming. Something bad. Social media is simply reflecting the degenerate values that have become so prevalent and accepted in the past few years. People even sort of look weird and different. All interaction teeters between indifference and violence. I'm not sure what's on the horizon. I just know I won't see it and I'm very happy for that.

I hope I won't be around to witness what may happen in the future either if it comes. I've essentially given up on finding meaningful connections with people if all they do is abandon you like my friends and ex have done in the past. They left me at my worst, and I've just begun to realize how rotten humanity is. The only way for me to escape this madness is to ctb, but I'm too scared to.

 

[pariah80]

I hope I won't be around to witness what may happen in the future either if it comes. I've essentially given up on finding meaningful connections with people if all they do is abandon you like my friends and ex have done in the past. They left me at my worst, and I've just begun to realize how rotten humanity is. The only way for me to escape this madness is to ctb, but I'm too scared to.

I know exactly what you mean. A part of me hates that I've reached the conclusion that most human interactions are transactional and hollow. However, in studying human history, I guess I should've picked up on that very early on in life. It really explains a lot of the abuse I took trying to make connections with people. I was trying to connect when they were trying to either compete or consume. Humans are just animals that behave differently. That's all. I'm sorry about your friends and ex. I was left by a woman who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. However, I'd decided to ctb long before she left me. She never knew about my feelings. So, I'm sort of glad that I don't have many connections.

Humanity is rotten to the core. I cannot wait to escape. I wish you peace and clarity on your journey, no matter what you choose to do.

 

[Yume Nikki]

I know exactly what you mean. A part of me hates that I've reached the conclusion that most human interactions are transactional and hollow. However, in studying human history, I guess I should've picked up on that very early on in life. It really explains a lot of the abuse I took trying to make connections with people. I was trying to connect when they were trying to either compete or consume. Humans are just animals that behave differently. That's all. I'm sorry about your friends and ex. I was left by a woman who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. However, I'd decided to ctb long before she left me. She never knew about my feelings. So, I'm sort of glad that I don't have many connections.

Humanity is rotten to the core. I cannot wait to escape. I wish you peace and clarity on your journey, no matter what you choose to do.

I felt the same about my ex. I thought we would get married one day and have a life of our own. But he ghosted me out of the blue, and every nightmare is about him. It made me believe that life is no Disney movie and that nothing is promised. It's all a gamble, finding friends, finding love, finding a job, it all depends on luck and I've had none. Every conversation felt forced and artificial, I even tried befriending a guy I met on r/SuicideWatch, and when I tried to be open about the abuse I endured, he didn't care, and kept pestering me for advice on how to get with another girl, while I was going through a breakup. It seems as if every friendship of mine is like me being used for advice or being treated as a personal therapist for someone. it's strange how when we put ourselves out there we're treated as someone's punching bag. I've wanted to ctb as well before meeting my ex around the age of 19, I'm 23 now and still want to due to my OCD and intrusive thoughts.

Whatever we choose to do with our lives I just wish that the pain would stop for all of us, the problems we go through just intensifies itself as we age, and it's getting exhausting trying to find a solution to work around it. But thank you for being kind and listening, I hope you are able to find peace as well during these dark times.

 

[vampire2002]

the reality of sex trafficking, honestly. i've never heard of humans committing such atrocities against one another in the modern age. that's when i realized there was no saving humanity, if so many are capable of abusing the innocent for their own selfish desires, either for sexual pleasure or for profit.

 

[natthebrat]

i'd say the approval of article 13 and article 11 (and the reaction to it) in the eu during 2019 made me pretty cynical. seeing how many artists, even tons of "underground" or "indie" ones, were openly talking about wanting to gatekeep creators they considered "low-quality" from having a platform. not to mention how the music/film/publishing industries and politicians got away with accusing the directive's opponents of being paid protesters.

 

[divinemistress36]

Social media making people narcissitic and the mental health care system all they care about is money

 

[pariah80]

I felt the same about my ex. I thought we would get married one day and have a life of our own. But he ghosted me out of the blue, and every nightmare is about him. It made me believe that life is no Disney movie and that nothing is promised. It's all a gamble, finding friends, finding love, finding a job, it all depends on luck and I've had none. Every conversation felt forced and artificial, I even tried befriending a guy I met on r/SuicideWatch, and when I tried to be open about the abuse I endured, he didn't care, and kept pestering me for advice on how to get with another girl, while I was going through a breakup. It seems as if every friendship of mine is like me being used for advice or being treated as a personal therapist for someone. it's strange how when we put ourselves out there we're treated as someone's punching bag. I've wanted to ctb as well before meeting my ex around the age of 19, I'm 23 now and still want to due to my OCD and intrusive thoughts.

Whatever we choose to do with our lives I just wish that the pain would stop for all of us, the problems we go through just intensifies itself as we age, and it's getting exhausting trying to find a solution to work around it. But thank you for being kind and listening, I hope you are able to find peace as well during these dark times.

I'm really sorry about all of that. I can't say I've ever been ghosted before. I've been abruptly dumped before, and that hurts bad enough. Someone just stopping all communication with me would feel terrible. So, I'm so empathetic toward you. Putting yourself out there is a true gamble, as you've explained. And for me, it's just not worth it. Most human communication feels so scripted and forced, that it's not worth it to me to try and put myself back out there one more time. I'm 44 now. I remember in my 20's, how much I loved meeting new people. I had energy for life and tried to grab it by the horns. I've had a lot of experiences, good and bad. However, connection with humans is temporary, at best.

It's just heartbreaking to me that THIS is what life was coming to. Not death. That's coming to everyone in one way or another. Just... this world. This time. The vibe. The way everything is. I guess I just saw a much brighter future for humanity and myself than what it is. I remember growing up thinking that the future would be much better and that I would have a hand in making it better in one way or another. I had such hope and high expectations of my fellow human. I believed in love. I believed that all people were good. That everyone was precious in one way or another. I sought genuine connection and love. Despite all of the abuse I took from my mother and the bullying I took in school, I always looked to the horizon and imagined that a better day was coming. That I would meet better people. I guess I didn't want to believe that humans were what George Carlin was describing. I wanted to believe they could be and were better.

Like you, I just want the pain to end. I know that isn't possible as long as I'm here. It's like things like hope and love are just jokes in this world. They're mocked. They're used as tools of manipulation, and not deeply held values. There's nothing to hope in. There's no such thing as genuine love. All of it is just ash in the mouths of those foolish enough to believe in them in such a world. People like me. It's almost like this is some backwards, evil realm where good people are treated like punching bags and outcasts. These are dark times, indeed. I fear that the worst is yet to come.

 

[Yume Nikki]

the reality of sex trafficking, honestly. i've never heard of humans committing such atrocities against one another in the modern age. that's when i realized there was no saving humanity, if so many are capable of abusing the innocent for their own selfish desires, either for sexual pleasure or for profit.

This is actually one of the biggest reasons as to why I believe humanity is beyond redemption and that there is no God. If things like this are bound to happen, then it is best to escape a world that contributes to an individual's suffering.

 

[pariah80]

the reality of sex trafficking, honestly. i've never heard of humans committing such atrocities against one another in the modern age. that's when i realized there was no saving humanity, if so many are capable of abusing the innocent for their own selfish desires, either for sexual pleasure or for profit.

Modern age. lol. I remember thinking that humans had graduated past their primitive and regressive past into a so-called 'new age.' However, in studying human history, we live in a rare time when slavery is present, but not prevalent. Such times are very rare in human history, and that's something that I learned never to take for granted. Slavery and repression seem to be a much more common than we want to realize.

 

[Pluto]

 

[CTB Dream]

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I hope I won't be around to witness what may happen in the future either if it comes. I've essentially given up on finding meaningful connections with people if all they do is abandon you like my friends and ex have done in the past. They left me at my worst, and I've just begun to realize how rotten humanity is. The only way for me to escape this madness is to ctb, but I'm too scared to.

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[F@#$]

The Inhumanity I see everywhere. Nobody gives a fuck about anything or anyone who can't be used for their personal gain or perversions.F.T.W.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Social media making people narcissitic and the mental health care system all they care about is money

It has also made people more hateful as well. I go on twitter and the first thing I see is pro-nazi accounts posting unfunny memes about marginalized groups to demonize them even further, with thousands of people liking and sharing their garbage. It's unavoidable, and the trending page is people sharing clips of fights, violence, crime etc. without any sort of trigger warning in place. It's like the website is programmed into making people more sadistic.

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I'm sorry people have abandoned you due to your injury, people are very good at masking their fake persona and pretending to care about those with physical/mental disabilities. I've had people claim to care about my mental health just to stop caring the next, and while I can understand not always being able to provide support due to time management, it's the fact that we didn't mean as much to them as their other friends do. I hope you have found people on this website that understand your condition and I'm always here if you need to vent about anything. Hugs go out to you.

 

[divinemistress36]

It has also made people more hateful as well. I go on twitter and the first thing I see is pro-nazi accounts posting unfunny memes about marginalized groups to demonize them even further, with thousands of people liking and sharing their garbage. It's unavoidable, and the trending page is people sharing clips of fights, violence, crime etc. without any sort of trigger warning in place. It's like the website is programmed into making people more sadistic.

I'm sorry people have abandoned you due to your injury, people are very good at masking their fake persona and pretending to care about those with injuries and physical/mental disabilities. I've had people claim to care about my mental health just to stop caring the next, and while I can understand not always being able to provide support due to time management, it's the fact that we didn't mean as much to them as their other friends do. I hope you have found people on this website that understand your injury and I'm always here if you need to vent about anything. Hugs go out to you.

This election has really brought out peoples hate on both sides

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

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[Yume Nikki]

The Inhumanity I see everywhere. Nobody gives a fuck about anything or anyone who can't be used for their personal gain or perversions.F.T.W.

I use to think only evil people use others, but I find that in all of my past experiences, that friends, lovers and family are capable of the same thing.

 

[Spazsticatednoodle]

It was more of a realisation that our human nature is to suffer and we spread that suffering to one another and that it's all pointless cause where all gonna die anyway

 

[Life'sA6itch]

The fact that as a child I was verbally & physically abused by my mom from my earliest memory. She was always annoyed or angry at my presence and often cussed at me and beat me or threatened to. She did this in public as well. The final straw, still as a child not even 8 or 9 is my lived experience where for multiple years she took me and my younger sister with her as her alibis while she cheated on my dad & continued the beatings, cursing & threats to me, forcing me to say whatever lies she told me to say about our whereabouts if & when my dad asked. All this before I was 10 years old and on the night of my 13th birthday was my 1st of 3 suicide attempts. I knew my life would not get better as a child and I was right.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I haven't entirely given up on humanity, but my faith has been severly damaged since my wife filed for separation without warning right after I got out of spending a week in the hospital, right when I needed support the most. I had been working so hard and being so supportive of her for 20 years as we raised a family together, only to have everything abruptly and unceremoniously tossed in the trash bin. Forget about "in sickness and in health" because I was abandoned the instant I became sick, and it's devastating.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

Honestly, what gave made me give up on humanity was watching it all fall apart. Humanity cares about nothing more than the amount of money they have in their pocket, no matter who they have to trample to get it. AI taking what's left of humanity's soul? Fine, because we can profit off it and use it to our own gain. People suffering because they can't afford basic necessities? Not my problem, I could use that five dollars for something else. Hell, I just watched my country willingly elect a leader who has a piece of paper written up talking about how he wants to kill people like me. -But the price of eggs! :(((((((

We're all just disgustingly selfish and self-absorbed in the end.

 

[FinalVoid25]

Observing it.

 

[anagram]

Too big to list. It all boils down to ignorance. Most people are ignorant. Such an inaccurate phrase when ppl say "ignorance is bliss". Ignorance actually causes and prolongs suffering. All of humanity's problems boil down to stupidity and ignorance.

 

[evq]

Ho Chi Minh brought communism to Vietnam, and it made the country's progress go backwards by a hundred years.

 

[darkshadownice]

Seeing the deterioration of human behavior during the COVID restrictions. But, as I think back, there were always reasons to not have any faith in humans. I just made the mistake of giving them the benefit of the doubt.

Yep, this was partly my answer too.

Trump's first election win in 2016, which I foolishly brushed off as my dad wasn't a nazi or a racist or whatever, he just believed Trump would do good on the economy, and Trump didn't have a political track record yet so I brushed it off. Then it was the COVID debacle and people acting like they're experts on medicine, and the how anti-vaccine conspiracy theory bullshit basically took off again and is stronger than ever (even though Trump did Operation Warp Speed) which is how we have RFK Jr. getting ready to run HHS which is fucking beyond insane, and now with Trump's second election win and all the utter hate and vitriol that happened during the campaign, and him managing to still win, yeah I've lost any hope for any sort of faith to be restored. Climate change is going to fuck us so hard, and the greed of the billionaires and shortsighted-ness of the working class will be our undoing.

I try not to delve into politics anymore, it's one of the main drivers of making me want to ctb. People have become more hateful and ignorant in the past 15 years, it's pretty jarring to see, and I grew up in middle school and high school seeing everything fall apart.