Help What led you to this decision?

[eyes0nfire]

I'm sat listening to music wondering how I came to be on this forum & making my plans to ctb.
What, to you made it clear ctb was the right & best thing to do?

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ctb is the best thing to do as it will prevent decades of suffering. I have came to the conclusion that life is simply not for me. I see life as a pointless unnecessary thing. Life scares me as there is unlimited potential for suffering. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. I just want to be nothing and I want peace. I get no enjoyment out of life and my situation is hopeless. Nothing will change and make me want to live.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Decades of never ending depression and a crescendo of fuckery has brought me to this point in life.

 

[deadverysoon]

i was really forced to.

i had a shitty life before.

but several constructed crisis events destroyed me.

i fighted a lot.

i was brought down. again and again and again.

i lost. and i gave up.

i dont want it you can have it - be proud of you.

i never wanted to comitt suicide.

i really got murdered with this systematical bullshit that was done to me.

i cant say it in another way.

and i dont want anything.

except to fucking die right now.

 

[wannabesetfree]

Because it's the only way I can actually be free. I'm totally trapped and there's no way out I'm afraid.

 

[ITSCHRISHERE123]

I'm sat listening to music wondering how I came to be on this forum & making my plans to ctb.
What, to you made it clear ctb was the right & best thing to do?

There's a whole lot of reasons for me. But life sucks and I'm honestly just depressed almost every day… it's like I am obsessed with suicidal ideation and thoughts

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

If I don't use it I might as well lose it (life, that is). If I can't use it then I don't need it.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Suffering to the extent I am for the extent I have, it isn't viable for me to better my psychological condition.

Truly, the most logical decision is CTB. My decision is already made.

 

[Mr2005]

I unknowingly commited suicide when I didn't do a computer course in 2005

 

[OnlyTheWind]

It's fun to repeat the reason in these threads. I was too shy to talk to my crush in high school and now we'll never be together. I hate myself for it every day.

 

[PlushieLover]

I stop trying when nihilism absorbed me. Nothing matters to me anymore, I don't care about my family, friends, I don't care about myself and I just want to stop existing so the suffering finally stops.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I feel like this has always been my path. I first thought about suicide when I was 13 and first made plans when I was 19. My next major depressive bout was at 25 after my best friend had died. I had several other depressive periods, but just over two years ago, my decision was made for me.

I lost my career, my friends, my home, my future… everything. The few people still in my life think I can overcome, but I know better. I've been trying so hard to make everything work for the past 20 years, and even after all I've done, I've still ended up here.

This will destroy my mother, but it's honestly better for her. She's in the early stages of dementia. I hope she doesn't have much longer. My husband is unhappy with me, but feels trapped. He'll be better off without me. And my few friends who worry about me will be able to stop worrying. Most importantly, I'll be at peace.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

I've been suicidal for a long time. Usually the thoughts only came up when I was very sad, depressed and suffering a lot. As I got older, I would think about cbt even when I was happy and things were good.

Only you can determine how much suffering you're experiencing, and only you know when the time is right. Everyone has the right to that choice. I think I've done a lot of the things I want to do. It doesn't even out the rest of the troubles and sadness in my life though.

 

[Trueform]

autism, ugly looks, social isolation

 

[callme]

Everything just keeps pointing out to this logical conclusion no matter what happens. I think there is no way out, regardless of reasons after you're stuck in a loop.

Some will call it confirmation bias, but how does nobody ever consider nobody else would seriousky want that for themselves, let alone live this way, unless they really had no other option?

 

[patheticpartner]

I've had no discipline, motivation, or initiative to improve. My life has just been failure, stagnation, and opting for the easier path. Suicide, as daunting as it is, is the easiest path for me.

 

[healthrecovery]

Suffering really bad
i'm on forced anti-psychotic injections called invega and i'm highly allergic to them. The doctors won't listen and they keep me on this stuff forever so i'm trying to find a quick and fast way to die. The suffering i'm experiencing right now is really bad.