I think I have a very weird one. I always disliked to make a journey especially with my family. Going to new cities, nights in hotels, sightseeing. This is all too stressful for me. I need my routines. I am glad when I have enough freetime. Making a journey does not feel relaxing to me. There is always this expectation one has to enjoy it because one pays so much money for it. Another reasons why I don't like journeys they cost so much money. I dislike being one of those tourists who leave garbage at places and fullfiling the stereotype of an ignorant tourist. I was that when I made journeys with my family. And it did not feel good for me. However one can learn about new cultures on journeys.
Probably a lot of people perceive this in a different way. When I have vacation I just want to have much freetime. Watch youtube, play video games, read books (I have often only have time for that during vacation), read the newspaper, educate myself on certain new topics, meet my friends and phone with them. Though I also do some chores so that I don't have to do them while studying.
It is a little bit cringe but I stay a lot of the time in bed. Maybe a shocking amount of time. I don't eat much so that I don't gain weight. And my current problem is less depression rather mania. Many say staying in bed is very detrimental when having depression. In order not to get manic I reduce stimulation maybe this is a good strategy then? I don't know. Maybe it will backfire one day when my bones my torture me alive. I could very well imagine I won't reach that age anyway.
I could imagine going one day on a journey with friends to foreign countries. But there are many points why I won't do it. My financial situation will get worse and worse. So I don't have the money for that. It will rather be pretty depressing. When I see the pictures of my friends in Japan, the US or anywhere else. I think this will be in general quite tormenting. Comparing with my peers what they have reached, that their dreams come true and I suffer daily. My life quality will become way worse in the future and the fact that I become more and more envious makes me sad. I already am too begrudging. It hurt me when I saw my friends with their gfs and everything fails for me.
Probably a lot of people perceive this in a different way. When I have vacation I just want to have much freetime. Watch youtube, play video games, read books (I have often only have time for that during vacation), read the newspaper, educate myself on certain new topics, meet my friends and phone with them. Though I also do some chores so that I don't have to do them while studying.
It is a little bit cringe but I stay a lot of the time in bed. Maybe a shocking amount of time. I don't eat much so that I don't gain weight. And my current problem is less depression rather mania. Many say staying in bed is very detrimental when having depression. In order not to get manic I reduce stimulation maybe this is a good strategy then? I don't know. Maybe it will backfire one day when my bones my torture me alive. I could very well imagine I won't reach that age anyway.
I could imagine going one day on a journey with friends to foreign countries. But there are many points why I won't do it. My financial situation will get worse and worse. So I don't have the money for that. It will rather be pretty depressing. When I see the pictures of my friends in Japan, the US or anywhere else. I think this will be in general quite tormenting. Comparing with my peers what they have reached, that their dreams come true and I suffer daily. My life quality will become way worse in the future and the fact that I become more and more envious makes me sad. I already am too begrudging. It hurt me when I saw my friends with their gfs and everything fails for me.
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