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luten

work, love, and learn
Feb 25, 2021
507
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,300
My next big move is to brace myself for E3 next week and secretly hope that almost all of the game announcements suck so that I won't be stuck being alive for too long next year.
 
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MYStERY_Man

MYStERY_Man

The 't' is silent
Jul 15, 2020
225
Moving out. Ideally, back to college. But even if I don't make it and I still find myself stuck in this town, as long as I keep my current job, I'd like to get my own place next year.
 
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Shadowrider

Shadowrider

Student
Jan 26, 2021
184
Giving up this stupid, dangerous weight loss thing that's equivalent to an indirect attempt to CTB.

(I kindly ask everyone not to say out the ugly A-word, I hate hearing or reading it. Crap enough that I am the exact contrary of the stereotypes so many people seem to have about your average A-word patient - a trendy teenage girl who began dieting just to look like the models on magazine covers - and so I feel even more ridiculous for qualifying to the A-word.)

Not eating at all, or dieting like crazy is a "good" distraction from despair and suicidal thoughts, also satisfies my longing for fading/flying away. But I ended up being even more desperate and suicidal than before. Constant weight loss does something to your brain, not only to your body. So if I really don't want to catch the bus, I have twice as much motivation to stop losing weight.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Maybe a laptop or a PS5 (it should be the laptop because if my gaming pc breaks down somehow, I won't be able to work properly. Teaching from my cellphone sucks!!)
 
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Shadowrider

Shadowrider

Student
Jan 26, 2021
184
Maybe a laptop or a PS5 (it should be the laptop because if my gaming pc breaks down somehow, I won't be able to work properly. Teaching from my cellphone sucks!!)
Yes, it's always good to have an extra laptop in the closet. I think obtaining an old laptop for a ridiculous price and giving it a new life does worth the effort! (I am writing this post on a 13-year-old laptop, have two candidates that still need fixing. Just in case my stationary machine dies.)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,417
I don't really have plans to do much, I mostly just spend the time hoping I fall into an eternal sleep. I would love to buy another pet but I don't think that would be possible.
 
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Broken Buzz

Broken Buzz

Space Ranger
Apr 30, 2021
51
I got a letter from a former client some weeks ago thanking me for saving her life. She had been suffering from a chronic illness that meant she could barely eat; various doctors and specialists had ignored or dismissed her. I put her right. A year on she's still making progress, it made me quite emotional actually. I realise I've done a tiny bit of good for the world and my next move is to establish a research platform to help more people who have no other hope.

Whether or not I ever get there is a different matter, courtesy of a resident psychopath, life hasn't been kind to me the past few weeks.
 
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Cherry Crumpet

Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
265
I really want to buy my own house. I'm sick of renting. Prices keep going upupup though.
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
My next big move will be getting up from my bed and going for a pee.
 
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Conk

Conk

Member
May 29, 2021
9
I dont really know what would be my next move, my country is in a full social crisis (Riots , protest, etc), everything is against me, there is nothing i can do even if i wanted too.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Mage
May 14, 2018
567
Getting my passport is my only long term plan. The kid is out of the house. I'm free to move about the world.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
2,799
Making coffee.

For now that's all the moving I do. It's to hot :/
 
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PartlyHuman

Sorry for my English
Jan 10, 2021
65
I went to psychiatrist, got diagnosed and prescription for antidepressants. Next big move is to hope they work and I won't ctb. Also need to try to study properly and look for some job...
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Visionary
May 5, 2020
2,980
Well, I travelled the north of Scotland, got a hair transplant in London. So those are checked of my list. My next big move is to win the lottery and get the hell out of this village. Haha. I can still dream can't I?
 
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Red

Warlock
Apr 10, 2019
744
Next big move is getting married. It's odd though, planning it and thinking about it and still passively wishing to just be swiftly snuffed out nearly every single day lol

I love my husband to be and know that he's a good guy. I don't want to hurt him by ctb so just plodding on day to day, trying to ignore being sore, unwell and invalidated but ultimately feeling useless and helpless. Not actively planning anything but hoping so hard that the end might finally be close, somehow. It's nice to kind of look forward to something but also dreading it too - lots of pressure and it's going to be a long, uncomfortable day, full of judgment and potential for drama…

Holiday after. Travelling round as a giggling newly wed that is, unbeknownst to most, internally vaguely wishing to drop dead every few minutes :pfff:

I keep thinking that, the minute that I actually start loving life instead of finding it so hard, I'll just die. Keep thinking that I should at least try to "fake it to make it"; pretending to love life so that that contrary force that has kept me living through so much miserable crap will take notice and whip it out from under me for good.

It's proving quite difficult to fool, however.
 
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Sleepdrifter

Student
Jun 22, 2020
151
I'm torn between making an honest effort with life and giving up. Would like to become a technician however that depends on getting an opportunity for training. May get a job here or move again for a job. I don't know. Don't care.
 
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pulltheline

pulltheline

:(
May 16, 2021
16
ive already moved out of one home and to another. neither are great, the first was abusive but it was my home. this one isn't home and its not nice here. im planning on moving out of here in september, when theres more options for me. im getting help from an organisation who said they could look into that for me because i dont want to go back to the first home and i dont want to be here long-term. maybe i'll get my safe space soon
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I've been out of depression 2 years - check.
I've got my own place, small credit - check.
I'm still single - check.
I've got a job - check.

I could learn something for a career boost.
I could grow shrooms.
Continue eating homemade probiotics.

My next big move?
Trying to produce a candy? Or building a webapplication for some social interaction..... But in reality I've must put feet on the ground, I really need to clean and organize my house first, and pay a debt.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
Working hard at school and starting my career!

When I go back this fall I really wanna put myself out there and learn tons of things so that I'm prepared for the workforce. Maybe make some friends while I'm at it :)

Also i want to start exercising again, I used to do it a bunch when I was younger but I stopped. I wanna get strong again, I can barely lift my matress up to make my bed and that's just sad lol
 
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kovkay

kovkay

Experienced
Jun 29, 2020
245
Save money to go back to uni. Go back to uni. Network & don't fail out. Easy :shy:
 
Garbage Person

Garbage Person

Eating snowflakes with plastic forks
Jan 17, 2020
305
I just want to stay sober, stay sharp, get educated, and buy an 88 key digital piano with weighted keys, a sustain pedal, and a midi port. I need a creative outlet. Want to return to something that has been missing from my life for a while.
 
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