Female but I wish I never existed as anything at all, if it's up to me I never would have chosen to exist, to exist as a human is the most futile and torturous burden. There's nothing desirable about being conscious and aware enslaved in this decaying flesh prison that can potentially torture us and cause us to suffer to unlimited amounts all while one is just waiting to die anyway in an existence that was always so undesirable and unnecessary in the first place.
There's no value in the abomination that human existence rather I only see beauty in the permanent absence of it, all I've ever wished for is non-existence, all that comforts me is the thought of being unaware for all eternity. I find it so tragic how the human species even evolved in the first place, it's the most terrible tragedy how human existence continues to be imposed even know nobody can be harmed by never existing at all.