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hypnoticpoisoned

Magnolia Electric Co.
Jan 10, 2026
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If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
 
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LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
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If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.
Honestly, I've always had this specific immagery: me collapsing in a flower field as my vision grows dark and life drains out of me, probably from a lethal drug or something.
Netheless to say, my dream suicide is peaceful....and therefore impossible lol.
 
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IdentityDoe

What is freedom when demanded of you by a god?
Jan 14, 2026
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I would want to have a vivid dream of going to space, seeing different planets and stars, then jumping from the spaceship before suffocating from the oxygenless void. I've always wanted to go to space but few people ever get that opportunity...
 
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Oct 9, 2023
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I want a sarco pod suide pod/ painless and no risk of failing. Basically inert gas method but guaranteed to work and professional looking af
 
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woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
277
I get access to N. And she's there, her gorgeous white hair spilling down her shoulders and swaddling my head. She pets my face and my cheeks, tells me, "my sweet perfect boy. I love you. I love you. I love you." I play with the beads on her bracelet that I've made her, because I can't stop giving these things to the people I love; I can't ever stop because I need to see someone else's face light up that way people's faces do when I give them things, the way I never can replicate. And I know she's crying, but it's out of love, not sadness, because she knows just as I do that I'm finally finding the peace I've always wanted. I just lay in her lap and fall asleep like that. Peaceful. Quick. In the warmth of her arms. A person who doesn't exist. And a person who, if she did, would likely never be able to see me die that way. I wag the tail I wish I had at the thought of it happening.
 
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they/them
Jul 13, 2021
130
I have this romanticized idea in my head of a lover consensually killing me, maybe via poison of some kind, and cradling my head in their lap as I die. They make me look beautiful and serene, and then take care of my bones for the rest of their life. However I know it wouldn't be so painless or pretty in real life, so it's not really a genuine desire. I think I just want to go knowing that I'm loved and will be cared for in death. To end by the hand of someone who loves you enough to make it gentle, painless, and loving... I like the idea of it, at least.
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
125
The ideal manner for me is to die slowly in a funny way.
 

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