what is wrong with me

[losergirl]

i walked out of my job without notice.

i work in a warehouse packing peoples orders all day. the conditions there suck and due to me having some health issues, working there is extremely hard for me.

i feel like such a failure seeing people my age have a stable and "normal" living. i hate getting jealous of other peoples situations because it makes me feel bitter but i am jealous most times and i cant help it. i genuinely hate most aspects of my life and no matter how i put myself out there or try to "change" it progressively gets worse.

im like holding onto straws at this point. i dont care if i lose my job anymore because at the end of the day i can always just call my life quits and thats the mindset ive had forever.

ending my life has quite literally been my backup plan since i was a child. i feel so alone and i feel so fucking stupid. i type aimlessly just spewing a bunch of unconstructed thoughts because thats the only thoughts i have. just a bunch of fragments of actual human feelings and emotions. i feel like a robot. i dont feel like a normal human being.

i just want to lay down and die.

 

[trulyautistic]

i walked out of my job without notice.

i work in a warehouse packing peoples orders all day. the conditions there suck and due to me having some health issues, working there is extremely hard for me.

i feel like such a failure seeing people my age have a stable and "normal" living. i hate getting jealous of other peoples situations because it makes me feel bitter but i am jealous most times and i cant help it. i genuinely hate most aspects of my life and no matter how i put myself out there or try to "change" it progressively gets worse.

im like holding onto straws at this point. i dont care if i lose my job anymore because at the end of the day i can always just call my life quits and thats the mindset ive had forever.

ending my life has quite literally been my backup plan since i was a child. i feel so alone and i feel so fucking stupid. i type aimlessly just spewing a bunch of unconstructed thoughts because thats the only thoughts i have. just a bunch of fragments of actual human feelings and emotions. i feel like a robot. i dont feel like a normal human being.

i just want to lay down and die.

nothings wrong with you its not your fault that life sucks sometimes there's just nothing we can do hope your life does improve though.