EyeBeyond

EyeBeyond

Beyond Galaxy
Dec 3, 2023
68
What is the worst thing that you have done to someone that you regret?
 
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inaminute

inaminute

Student
Dec 12, 2023
192
For being in their presence which hurt them
 
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luneylonegirl

luneylonegirl

Lonely betrayed girl ready to die
Jan 31, 2024
68
Last year, i think it will be a final year. I deadly loving my bf and i don't want to make him sad. So, i want everyone to hate me. It makes me easier to ctb. And yes, it's became easier.
But, in november, i tried to give my life a chance and i just realised today, that what i've done is ireversible. For parents, yes, i can turn our relationship to normal. But with my bf? No. I pretend to cheat on him and he believe it. And when he's hating me, i'm rotting inside, tried to ctb 3 times (ODing) but i failed and survived.

But now, i will make sure that i didn't survive anymore. People around me start to think that my ctb is just a joke to scare them.
 
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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
710
There's...a couple of things i regret but it was what I did to myself that i guess i regret the most....
it's not...like selfharm or anything, it's a ton of little things like not being able to have the strength to fight my own laziness, or not being smart enough to resist the present me's wants so that the future me would be better off.
Sorry if it's confusing, let's see, here's an example:
When i was in my early 20's, instead of humoring the 20's (not 1920 or 2020) version of me and going out and experiencing stuff, I should have stuck to the plan and finished school while working. Or like instead of going out drinking and living from paycheck to paycheck for a while I should've exercised more self control.
The experiences i had were okay, good even, but somehow not really that important when I look back now..Like i could've not done it and I think I would've been better off financially, or with time management, at least.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,111
Cheating and fighting with my mom when I was a kid
 
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Lookingtoflyfree

Lookingtoflyfree

Specialist
Jan 11, 2024
324
Worst thing I did was open my heart and be vulnerable to someone who was mentally unstable, because it clearly was the worst thing to do, to show someone incapable of loving anyone that I needed love. If he should ever hear about me dying, I hope he suffers. The abuse he put on me was incredible and I hope he suffers.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,317
I thought the offtopic section on here was for asking random questions, this is the suicide discussion. But anyway to answer the question, I simply haven't, I don't do horrible things to other people, there is already enough suffering in this world and I'm anti-suffering.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,982
It doesn't matter what horrible things I've done (of which there are many), what matters is the horrible things I will do by continuing to live. I would say maybe my biggest regret was freezing up in fear and not shooting Godzilla in the face with the machine gun turret before he killed everyone at the refueling station who helped me dodge my kamikaze pilot duties and - oh wait that was the plot of Godzilla Minus One nvm.

I guess my actually biggest regret might be all of my failed crushes and love interests I had, even the ones that started off mutual. I know I've caused them so much pain and suffering just by being in their lives which is why sometimes I think it's not enough to just CTB. I should really have been working to erase myself from the past so that none of them would ever have to have met me.
 
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EyeBeyond

EyeBeyond

Beyond Galaxy
Dec 3, 2023
68
I kn
Worst thing I did was open my heart and be vulnerable to someone who was mentally unstable, because it clearly was the worst thing to do, to show someone incapable of loving anyone that I needed love. If he should ever hear about me dying, I hope he suffers. The abuse he put on me was incredible and I hope he suffers.
Ow how it is, i did something very dumb, i met a slut who was a very good person to talk and to be with but some months ahead I realised she was just pretend all that shit, today she treated me like didnt know me, like a stranger, and kept talking to me like I was forcing that situation, feel betrayed and dumb for all that shit
 
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onbekend

onbekend

Experienced
Jan 14, 2024
266
Betrayed a ton of my former friends trust and I've came to the realization direct contact with other human beings is not my strong suit. For some reason, I don't mind talking to people on forum sites. So that's how I ended up on here.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
850
I've done so much shit I regret it would take me days to write it all out.
 
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natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
164
The worst was probably when I cut off my then best friend when I was 12 in a desperate attempt to fit in with the "cool kids". It didn't work, but much more importantly, I should't have wanted to fit in with them anyway, and it really caused harm to both me and to the old friend.
 
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mabel

mabel

eternal oblivion !!
Jan 31, 2024
7
i tried to ctb via benadryl overdose and for some reason i was so out of my mind from the benadryl that i texted someone who was rlly important to me throughout the whole thing. the thing with benadryl is that it puts you in a DEEP state of delirium so i kept rambling complete nonsense to the only person who really ever cared about me for DAYS

the regret is so so deep on that because afterwards she (understandably) completely cut me off after 4+ years. i think she also thought that i was lying about trying to die, since i ended up living, it just looked like i was trying to manipulate her

i miss her so much & i will never forgive myself
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
1,685
Prefer not to say but it's one of the reasons I will no longer touch a drop of alcohol. (The other reason is because of a medical condition.)
 
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Manfrotto99

Specialist
Oct 10, 2023
307
I'm not sure, because I've never intentionally meant or done anything to hurt or harm anyone, but then somehow, it seems that I often do.
 
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Kit1

Enlightened
Oct 24, 2023
1,091
Three regrets;

1 and 2 - I wish I could bring myself to visit the two people who are responsible for my birth more often. They are divorced and would like to see me more often - they are now elderly and vulnerable. Unfortunately I was abandoned as a baby and I spent less than 5.5 years with them in my entire life and do not feel connected to them and there was a lot of abuse (Mental health played a part) during the time I did live with them. Struggling to give them the time and care that they deserve - and whilst I have superficially forgicen them, I don't think I really have and I do feel bad about this and wish I could change it.

3. One of the abusers/paedophiles dies lld a couple of years ago. A few weeks prior to his death, he asked me to forgive him (we met a couple of times when he was diagnosed with cancer and I was seeking some answers). I told him that I forgave him as I strongly felt and still feel that once someone has asked to be forgiven, they should be able to die in peace - bit I am not convinced that I have truly forgiven him and I hate lying - though I know that I lied for a good reason and would do it again if I had to.
 
sindra

sindra

Member
Feb 2, 2024
21
When I was in high school, there was this girl that I liked and we were getting along. We would talk to each other for hours and I always felt 'alive' around her, I've never seen anyone like her, she was a bit strange but that's what I liked about her. It was around the time when I got into an argument with 2 of my friends and my cat died because of some infection, I didn't know what to do and was feeling shitty almost all the time, I would start overthinking everything which was frustrating. Anyways, for some reasons I decided to avoid and ignore that girl for no apparent reason, one day she didn't show up to school and the next day it turns out she took her life. I wasn't the main reason for her decision but I know I contributed to that, I could've done something and I will never forgive myself for that.
 
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foreverfalling

foreverfalling

Experienced
Jul 22, 2022
255
I wish I could say sorry to these people, sometimes I imagine myself doing so.

I was playing ball at school when it rolled over to a girl, who picked it up and tried to throw it back to us but missed but a long shot. I screamed at her and said some stupid things, thinking I was funny. I didn't think much about it, but many years later I think back and wonder did I make her cry?

I had a friend who made me drop my lunch at school, so I hit him really hard on the head. It was just an immediate reaction at that time, and I wasn't sure how much power I used. I think it was hard enough to make him cry. I did end up saying sorry a year later, but kind of indirectly, I wish I could explain it to him.
 
FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

✌️ you are mentally ill ✌️
Jan 21, 2024
105
I can't say. The statute of limitations aren't up yet. People got hurt. There was death. It was all my fault and I cry about it every day.
 
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