ComradeJas
Member
- Aug 31, 2020
- 18
Maybe this is stupid but can I overdose on something to numb the pain? Or take something to pass out, it's just to make it not as bad I don't care.
I can't get out of my home, I don't even care anymore it's not worth it.
The only thing I have here is a combat knife at home, it's apparently pretty sharp and it looks like it will get the job done.
There's a gun at home too but it's hidden, I can't look for it since I'm never alone.
I feel like shit, I just want it to stop, I'm so angry and terribly fucking depressed, I've been hurting myself for days and my mind never stops attacking me. I never even liked life, nobody ever asked me if I wanted this, I hate it so much, I always hated it.
The only thing that could make it worth it for me is ruined, my self esteem is in the garbage and I can't even read some words without triggering some kind of anxiety and crying for hours.
Thank you for reading me, I'm so so so so sorry.
I can't get out of my home, I don't even care anymore it's not worth it.
The only thing I have here is a combat knife at home, it's apparently pretty sharp and it looks like it will get the job done.
There's a gun at home too but it's hidden, I can't look for it since I'm never alone.
I feel like shit, I just want it to stop, I'm so angry and terribly fucking depressed, I've been hurting myself for days and my mind never stops attacking me. I never even liked life, nobody ever asked me if I wanted this, I hate it so much, I always hated it.
The only thing that could make it worth it for me is ruined, my self esteem is in the garbage and I can't even read some words without triggering some kind of anxiety and crying for hours.
Thank you for reading me, I'm so so so so sorry.