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[Bluff]

Hello

I am new but have been lurking for a couple hours. I'm honestly lost on where to go and it's nice having people who feel the same way talk me through what I can do.

I'm a senior in high school and I truly only have 1 friend. He has been growing distant on me and it's harder to be around him. He's moved on. He was my last thing making me happy and it's crumbling down now. I also have an ex boyfriend that I still love to death and it's making school impossible for me because I can't do it without him. It's gotten to a point where I am physically ill/numb while assessing anything I have to do. I plot ways that I can end it. I had a night two days ago where I punched myself for a bit and reached over to find the scissors to stab myself. It was dark and I ended up grabbing something plastic and it broke on impact. I'm getting down to my last days I'm pretty sure. I don't know how long I can manage this

 

[green_snail_227]

my friend, please do not hurt yourself. i promise it doesn't feel as good as you will think. i promise that these feelings can go away and you will be able to be happy again. if there is anything i can do to help you carry your burden, please message me. your existence is beautiful, please know that.

 

[Bluff]

my friend, please do not hurt yourself. i promise it doesn't feel as good as you will think. i promise that these feelings can go away and you will be able to be happy again. if there is anything i can do to help you carry your burden, please message me. your existence is beautiful, please know that.

I hear stuff along these lines all the time but things don't get better. I was in a relationship where all my friends said if he hurt me they would be on my side and hurt him. He ended up cheating on me and traumatizing me. One of those friends is now his best friend, and another one dated him behind my back. no one is on my side

 

[green_snail_227]

I hear stuff along these lines all the time but things don't get better. I was in a relationship where all my friends said if he hurt me they would be on my side and hurt him. He ended up cheating on me and traumatizing me. One of those friends is now his best friend, and another one dated him behind my back. no one is on my side

i am so sorry that youve had to experience such evil. some people's only ambition is to cause others suffering, and its not fair that youve come victim to them. i know that there are better people out there and i promise you deserve them. you deserve life and happiness.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Hello

I am new but have been lurking for a couple hours. I'm honestly lost on where to go and it's nice having people who feel the same way talk me through what I can do.

I'm a senior in high school and I truly only have 1 friend. He has been growing distant on me and it's harder to be around him. He's moved on. He was my last thing making me happy and it's crumbling down now. I also have an ex boyfriend that I still love to death and it's making school impossible for me because I can't do it without him. It's gotten to a point where I am physically ill/numb while assessing anything I have to do. I plot ways that I can end it. I had a night two days ago where I punched myself for a bit and reached over to find the scissors to stab myself. It was dark and I ended up grabbing something plastic and it broke on impact. I'm getting down to my last days I'm pretty sure. I don't know how long I can manage this

This is not the place for you. As a high school student, even if you've turned 18, this is not the first place you should go. Your being here is driven not by the truth of your own desires but by the actions of others.

Do not let anyone have that kind of power over you. Even if everyday sucks, is absolutely terrible, and seems endless, you can get through the last of school. Once that happens, your life will look very different. You will have more power to make your own choices than you have ever had before.

Please wait and try to use that power to choose. You do not need to choose to end your life now. That choice will always be there and you can always come back to it. You can always come back to us. But for right now, just hang in there. Lurk if you must, but please don't let someone else's actions drive you to end your own life.

 

[Bluff]

This is not the place for you. As a high school student, even if you've turned 18, this is not the first place you should go. Your being here is driven not by the truth of your own desires but by the actions of others.

Do not let anyone have that kind of power over you. Even if everyday sucks, is absolutely terrible, and seems endless, you can get through the last of school. Once that happens, your life will look very different. You will have more power to make your own choices than you have ever had before.

Please wait and try to use that power to choose. You do not need to choose to end your life now. That choice will always be there and you can always come back to it. You can always come back to us. But for right now, just hang in there. Lurk if you must, but please don't let someone else's actions drive you to end your own life.

I've been suicidal for years. I've kept a scissors next to my bed in case I get the guts to. It's never been okay for me. I've never been enough and never had someone who has stuck it out for me. Life just seems pointless. I heard about this form and wanted to talk to people with this mindset because no one gets it. It's hard to keep going. I might be a little young but I've had to deal with so much mature things like my father cutting himself in front of me because I was scared to touch a knife. I believe I am the problem to my life going wrong but I'm to far gone now. This is not meant to be mean at all if it sounds like it

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that life really is something that is so incredibly pointless and of course it's understandable just wishing for peace from all the suffering. Your feelings are valid and it's completely up to you what you should do, I know that some people on here like to think it's their place to dictate who should be allowed the right to die or not, but when to leave this world could only ever be up to the individual, nobody else has any say in it. But anyway, I wish you the best, I do get that it can certainly be tiring feeling trapped here when you just want to be gone. It really is so horrible how cruel humans create so much harm in this world, you just cannot trust and rely on people.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

That is, of course, if you manage to survive high school which is not as easy as it sounds. And even if you do (and I doubt anybody is stupid enough to not realize this) you will not be the same person when you get out that the one you went in, it's up to you if you can look at yourself in the mirror and like what you see or if you can even look at yourself in the mirror at all.