ObsessiveCompulsive
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- Sep 26, 2019
- 52
Sorry if this doesn't belong here, I am new. I've had these symptoms for years, I am hoping someone here may know what is going on with me, all I know is I don't know how much longer I will last.
A few years ago I experienced something that never happend to me before, after being prescribed Sertraline I lost control of myself and never slept for almost 3 weeks, I also didn't eat for about the same, colors were brighter, I noticed stuff like smoke coming from nothing, I was very very paranoid and some things were moving, I was doing drugs but even when doing them this was not normal (maybe stayed up till the AM but that was the most), and it almost seems like this state drove me to them, I am unsure though.
After all this I became so depressed I could barely work (I was useless) all I could think about was flying home and shooting myself. I tried getting help, noone will listen. Family don't care, they don't listen, my doctor just wants to give me more Sertraline but that only half helps, if I take the high dose I become cold.
I take Sertraline because I was diagnosed with PTSD like anxiety and severe OCD, I experience violent flashes regularly, intense realistic like dreams that make me depressed or nervous after I awake, along with the counting 1-2-3. I also had several suicide attempts in grade 12. It's so hard to tell a doctor about the flashes. The only one I told looked at me like a maniac, I don't even have a violent record or ever even got into a fight. Thing is if I dont take the sertraline I turn into a very angry aggressive person, very negative and etc.. I noticed now I'm in the same cycle, very very depressed and all I can think about is offing myself.
I'm pretty scared because my grandfather was a very violent man. He had electric shock treatment a bunch. Also tried to kill a few people, he went into hiding in his later years, I noticed I am turning more and more into him, and it's scary.
It's so hard to tell this to a doctor, (and this is only a part) especially the violent flashes, noone listens, noone cares, if I can even see a doctor, so hard to see a psychiatrist where I am to.
A few years ago I experienced something that never happend to me before, after being prescribed Sertraline I lost control of myself and never slept for almost 3 weeks, I also didn't eat for about the same, colors were brighter, I noticed stuff like smoke coming from nothing, I was very very paranoid and some things were moving, I was doing drugs but even when doing them this was not normal (maybe stayed up till the AM but that was the most), and it almost seems like this state drove me to them, I am unsure though.
After all this I became so depressed I could barely work (I was useless) all I could think about was flying home and shooting myself. I tried getting help, noone will listen. Family don't care, they don't listen, my doctor just wants to give me more Sertraline but that only half helps, if I take the high dose I become cold.
I take Sertraline because I was diagnosed with PTSD like anxiety and severe OCD, I experience violent flashes regularly, intense realistic like dreams that make me depressed or nervous after I awake, along with the counting 1-2-3. I also had several suicide attempts in grade 12. It's so hard to tell a doctor about the flashes. The only one I told looked at me like a maniac, I don't even have a violent record or ever even got into a fight. Thing is if I dont take the sertraline I turn into a very angry aggressive person, very negative and etc.. I noticed now I'm in the same cycle, very very depressed and all I can think about is offing myself.
I'm pretty scared because my grandfather was a very violent man. He had electric shock treatment a bunch. Also tried to kill a few people, he went into hiding in his later years, I noticed I am turning more and more into him, and it's scary.
It's so hard to tell this to a doctor, (and this is only a part) especially the violent flashes, noone listens, noone cares, if I can even see a doctor, so hard to see a psychiatrist where I am to.
