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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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In clinics there was always a therapist around. But I went to two self-help groups where only mentally ill people (affected people) took part.
I am not sure what I prefer.
The last time I opened up myself in a self-help group my honest feelings about suicide it went pretty bad. (there was no therapist). But therewere a lot of older people who were shocked about my takes. They said things like "suicide is never a solution." I told them my therapists gave me up and think that I gonna kill myself.
I have joined another self-help group and I tend to admit some parts of my suicidality soon. It is a college self-help group with a lot of young people. I have the feeling the people there don't get shocked that easily. I am not the first person to talk about suicide. But I think I am the person who is the most serious about it. But there is also one very suicidal person.
I am not sure which I prefer I have the feeling without a therapist there is less of an authority and more freedom. I feel like I am in less of a risk to get locked away (but I am not fully confident that this would remain if I was acute suicidal.)
On the other hand there is less structure. And the people don't really know paranoia/psychosis that well. They are not as educated as a professional.
But the current self-help group is very acceptiing. It might be still a good choice not to go nuclear and tell everything about my suicidality. Rather small dosages and I will look how they react.
I am not sure what I prefer.
The last time I opened up myself in a self-help group my honest feelings about suicide it went pretty bad. (there was no therapist). But therewere a lot of older people who were shocked about my takes. They said things like "suicide is never a solution." I told them my therapists gave me up and think that I gonna kill myself.
I have joined another self-help group and I tend to admit some parts of my suicidality soon. It is a college self-help group with a lot of young people. I have the feeling the people there don't get shocked that easily. I am not the first person to talk about suicide. But I think I am the person who is the most serious about it. But there is also one very suicidal person.
I am not sure which I prefer I have the feeling without a therapist there is less of an authority and more freedom. I feel like I am in less of a risk to get locked away (but I am not fully confident that this would remain if I was acute suicidal.)
On the other hand there is less structure. And the people don't really know paranoia/psychosis that well. They are not as educated as a professional.
But the current self-help group is very acceptiing. It might be still a good choice not to go nuclear and tell everything about my suicidality. Rather small dosages and I will look how they react.