Discussion What helps?

[Jiva]

What helps you not think about suicide? For me it is photos taking. I like taking photos of technique (cars, aircrafts, ships). It makes me happy.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I don't know...depends on my mood. On better days it's listening to music, youtube, social media which includes this site parodoxically lol. Otherwise I'm sleeping most of the time.

 

[Muri]

Nothing.

 

[OkTotti]

Hmmm.. thinking of suicide makes me happy ...the answer to all my problems... wish i could think of suicide more than my problems and what i could have done differently in the past...

 

[Circles]

What helps you not think about suicide? For me it is photos taking. I like taking photos of technique (cars, aircrafts, ships). It makes me happy.

Smoking weed and sleep. That's about it. Yep a very exciting existence.

 

[Fucking loving it]

Ketamine. Smoking weed.

 

[TAW122]

Playing video games, watching interesting documentaries on youtube, and watching firearms related videos or reading about firearms and shit.

 

[bigj75]

Nothing

 

[Mr. Bill]

alcohol

 

[BangBangBang]

New Journey to the West, Kpop and alcohol

 

[Help_Me]

I reached that point when nothing helps me to stop thinking of ctb. To be honest, all generic methods never helped me at all unfortunately :(( I mean job, exercises/gym, hobbies e.t.c. I hope nobody would ever come to this. I like everyone's replies here and I am really glad (and envy) that you have something to keep you focused on.

 

[worldexploder]

CTB is always on my mind. I do try and distract myself while waiting. Maybe watch some comedy or post offtopic.

 

[Strumgewehr]

Heavy Metal

 

[divinized]

Watching tv shows/movies, drawing, and listening to music.

 

[WayOut]

I do a lot of personal development and character building.

I live the fitness life style. Over the past couple months I've got into papercraft and origami. I have a diverse taste in music, and while I'm not capable of playing instruments, I enjoy expanding my tastes. I pay $20 a month so that I can see three movies a week at the movie theater (I typically don't always do this). I enjoy film, I don't like a lot of the Hollywood Blockbuster films, and I typically will see a movie I like 3 - 5 times to that I can truly appreciate it. For example, I've seen Creed II 3 times. It gets better every time, but it isn't better than the first one.

I like vintage photography, especially vintage models. I love vidya games. I have well over 200 games on Steam, and I have a collection of classic vidya from the 16 bit era. A couple times a year I'll replay games like Chrono Trigger, Link to the Past, Final Fantasy 4 - 6 (4 is the best of the 16 bit ones, fight me).

I enjoy cooking, and browsing my favorite Futaba Channel websites. I'm part of over 15 Discord servers. I admin on two of them. I have been shitposting since late 2004, I've got skin in that game. I like to occasionally fuck around with crypto-currencies. I like Japanese robots and mecha culture, I'm a little bit into anime, but meh. I see a therapist once a week. I like to shop. I drive my car like I stole it, and I dress like I was owed it. I'm an epicure.

I do work for my fathers and step-mothers law firm. With my father mostly incapacitated at this point and my step-mother taking care of him, I've taken the reins of doing the soft administration of their practice (My father's job), while I am by no means a lawyer, and I will never attend law school. In their absence, I have handled all of the majority or their filings, I have reviewed numerous legal drafting, I've acted as a liaison for them with their staff, I teleconference with lawyers working for the law firm, and on occasion attend court hearings with those lawyers. I don't receive a steady paycheck from this, all of this can be done within about 12 - 16 hours a week.

I enjoy shooting guns. I have god knows how many guns, and once or twice a month, I take them to town and just unload at the gun range.

I do some trade work, I can weld, fabricate, and do some metal craft. I do dumpster diving and repair shit that I find dumpsters. I've thought about taking another two years and learning electronic engineering tech, but meh. I keep a list of goals and milestones I want to accomplish.

What keeps me going is that I put myself first in my life, and I continue to strive to improve myself. Don't mistake this for narcissism, but if it doesn't benefit me, I'm not going to do it. I lost 25 years, so I try to live my life in way that makes up for it.

I lost so much of my life to sexual abuse, Munchhausen by proxy, and living in a cult, and that is the diet-lite version, it doesn't account for the physical, emotional, and mental abuse, the neglect, the alcoholism, the drug addiction, the sex addiction, all of my surgeries, the CPTSD. I work hard to keep myself going. I keep myself busy. That's how I cope. That's how I deal with my mental illness, I keep myself fucking busy.

And I have a sense of humor.

Nice to meet you. Your sense of humor makes me chuckle.