What have you tried to get better?

[noname223]

I want to try a lot before i ctb. 3 times i tried psychotherapy, I was 4 times in a clinic. I tried to have a 30 h job without success. I tried to go to the university without success. I tried to date girls online. I try to make money online and teach. This has a little bit success. But really not enough.
Moreover i tried A LOT of medication. But still I am obsessed with suicide. I hate prolifers who say people with suicidal thoughts just have to go to a professional and take medication. And everything would be fine. This is a big lie.

 

[WornOutLife]

Therapy
Finding hobbies
Working out (this was helping me lots but I've become a lazy ass again)
Psych meds (I can finally sleep again)

These things have helped me and I think I can keep on living for some more time but it's really difficult to be motivated when you're bipolar, as you know. There are days on which I just wanna give up but still, I'm feeling better overall.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Meds and seeing the rapists did jack shit. Having a job did nothing. Being in uni did nothing. I can't stick to any hobby, lost interest in entertainment. Friends and gf are a pipe dream at this point, and doesn't suit my character to begin with. Lifting and browsing SS are good distractions. Going to have to be suicide, lol.

 

[Ender]

I'm trying to. But it always comes crashing down. And, even if I were to recover, just give it a couple of months, and I will break again. I can never really escape; especially with CPTSD

 

[noname223]

Therapy
Finding hobbies
Working out (this was helping me lots but I've become a lazy ass again)
Psych meds (I can finally sleep again)

These things have helped me and I think I can keep on living for some more time but it's really difficult to be motivated when you're bipolar, as you know. There are days on which I just wanna give up but still, I'm feeling better overall.

For me especially the evenings are horrible. When i am depressed i visit SS. I also have good moments at least for now.

 

[WornOutLife]

For me especially the evenings are horrible. When i am depressed i visit SS. I also have good moments at least for now.

SS works great. Btw, if you start therapy, will you tell your therapist about this community and your suicidal thoughts?
As for me, the only person in my circle who knows about SS is my dad. He panicked at first but now he's realized I'm much better thanks to this forum lol. He has even admitted than this works better than therapy for me!

 

[noname223]

My psychologist knows that i am in a suicide forum. He wanted me to leave. But now he has forgotten it due to my other numerous problems, He knows about my suicidal thoughts but not how serious they are.

 

[gus.nixon]

Everybody dies at some point. I see nothing wrong with someone choosing when he or she decides to go out. That being said, I'm looking into alternative types of therapies right now. I hear certain native medicines and shamanic practices do wonders for some people. Ayahuasca ceremonies are one that comes to mind. Do a lot of research if you are serious about healing. Here in the west we don't have much of a choice when it comes to depression and suicide ideation. Medication, talk therapy, being put in a locked facility.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I tried several medications since several years. I went lots of time in psych ward and I can't remember how many. I went almost in prison (a really secure ward with not really clean persons.. like murders, pedophiles and others minors,,, with huge disabilities)
I followed a psycho-dynamic therapy during 7 seven here and had antidepressant, anti-psychotic and anti-anxiety meds at low doses. I was stable, I restarted my studies, I had a goal. Then, recently (since 2 years) I crashed down again because some family's secrets has been revealed. I follow a DBT therapy but it doesn't work and I am still suicidal, don't find a goal to live.

 

[the_final_countdown]

My health isn't improving. I get to watch others achieve their greatest dreams and move up in life.

I had such a promising future. And now just living is a nightmare.

I can never feel good. It's beyond frustrating. I never feel calm. At ease. There's always anxiety. I'm tired of it.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I know what you mean OP, I hate those prolifer platitudes too.

I tried around 20 different medications. At one point, doctors just kept recycling medications I'd already tried, so I started self medicating with different drugs and supplements that I had researched. I have also done several different psychedelics with no improvements.

I've been going to therapists on and off since I was 10 years old, so I've had about 10-11 years, give or take, of therapy. I tried many different kinds of therapy like CBT, applied behavioral analysis, mindfulness, radical acceptance/accepting the trauma, etc, none of it helped at all.

Besides all of that, I tried making similar changes like those you've mentioned. I've moved to different cities, different countries. I quit my previous degree and chose another subject, and switched unis a couple of times too. I joined dozens of different groups and communities, only to still feel like an alien. Many different hobbies and activities that I tried to pursue, only to fall short.

I'm not even depressed. I'm just tired and fed up of living with chronic pain, ptsd, and various disabilities while being told by others that I haven't "tried everything yet". They insist that I haven't seen all life has to offer and that there are still treatments out there for my issues that I have yet to explore.

Wish they could enlighten me as to what this magic solution is.