What has to change for you not to cbt?

[Cedi]

I believe (almost) every person wants to cbt because they have some kind of problem in their life. I dont believe people want to die, we simply dont want to live the life we are living. We are not build to die.

let me go first. I want to die because I am about to lose mine house and I will be put in huge debt and be homeless. This is too much for me. I cant see a way out. I have still a chance to win a lawsuit that prevents it. For me, this will solve not to cbt.

You think there is a solution for you? You can share any crazy solution.

Maybe this is a stupid post, idk.

 

[Mr2005]

What has to change? The past. Bit screwed

 

[racek]

Peace in mind regardless situation

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Maybe successful plastic surgery revision
But corona wiped out my assets

 

[mediocre]

If I got treatment for my pain if I just felt ok I could take things a day at a time. I will never solve all of my problems because I know that's unrealistic. I will always have Aspergers and struggle socially. This can be worked on but it will always be so. It's the inability to be able to deal with my issues that has lead me to this point.

 

[rat.girl]

Although I know many things were out of my control, like neglectful parents and genetic predisposition to mental health problems, I wish I could go back to my childhood and get a second chance at everything. I think I made a lot of bad decisions that brought me where I am (choosing to stay in toxic relationships, not trying to go to college, not participating more, burning bridges with people that I realise were trying to help me). If I hadn't made those mistakes, I feel like a lot of my problems that make me want to ctb would not exist. For example, my main issues are massive amounts of debt, no close relationships, only able to get minimum wage jobs, no social skills, poor physical health, weight issues that destroy my self esteem, etc. I think these things were all preventable if I had navigated a teen years better. So if I could change anything, I would go back in time and redo it all.

 

[imsorrybear]

My gpa, disordered eating, weight, metabolism, mindset, personality, attitude, family. I know theres more to it but I dont know what, but It doesnt matter now does it?

 

[Blutsager]

What has to change?

Well... this entire situation... that a vaccine came out.

The only reason why I signed up here was to find an easy way out should things become so horrible I couldn't take it anymore. And thankfully I found here my answer: SN.

From now on is only a matter of waiting, and me living one day at a time... waiting for the worse.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Replace my mind and fix my physical problems then I could "live" like the rest of the sheep in blissfull ignorance I know too much of the world I don´t wanna remember nothing, except my childhood and I wanna be rich and important (basically the rest he says)

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Fixing my skull and face deformity. But its unfixable. Or i will need to find the will to live in another way without love from the outside. Some days are better then others but it's been a long time that i was legitimate happy. Its always on my mind and the first thing i think about when waking up.

 

[bpdandme]

If I had money I would not CTB or I would live lavishly and get N when my problems catch up with me.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Having enough money to deal with all my psych problems.

 

[Nolivesmatter]

I would have to change and face myself and all my problems, and I don't know that I have it in me anymore. I wish I could redo it all and be more accepting of life and hard working.

I've been given so many opportunities and chances, and I've fucked them all up by being lazy and passive.

 

[itsamadworld]

If I have to do another 25 -to -life in the workforce,!I don't even want to give humanity the satisfaction of my slave labor! I don't have children, so I have no reason excuse to want to live. I just want comfort and hedonism. But what if i don't have this, becuz I refuse to work anymore.? I hope to die young, but longevity runs in my genes......I just don't want to hear "do this, and do that! Take care of this person, take care of that!" I don't want to talk to anyone at work, or hear about their goddamn BS!" I don't want to care for anybody, or ship their damn shit, becuz I am sooooooo exhausted spiritually, mentally, emotionally!!!....The system has worn me the fuk down! ....and the more pain it causes me.....I am so exhausted.....

 

[waterbottleman]

Having enough money that I could retire comfortably and travel the world.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

A new torax

 

[Squiddy]

A few things have to change like my mental illnesses being cured (not gonna happen), me becoming competent (most likely not gonna happen), and me being able to articulate myself verbally better (most likely not gonna happen)

 

[Lightyagami]

the though of the people i will leave behind and the damage i will cause them

 

[aardar]

Some company. Some care. Not only when convenient, but always, including when I'm depressed or maniac. I'm not unbearable when I'm like that, but I've put all my trust in some really untrustworthy people.
(...and the death or disgrace of those who fucked me up would also help)
Well... people here seem to have bigger problems than mine. I feel like a whining spoiled kid now.

 

[Hatebeingalive]

My daughter's mother has to stop telling lies about me, using our child against me, preventing me from seeing her. It's been almost 3 years of this and just when I think it's getting better, it gets much, much worse. A braver person would have certainly killed themselves by now. I think I've figured out the "how", it's just a matter of when.

 

[RainAndSadness]

This path is irreversible in my case. I will probably always feel some tendency to ctb, even in the absolute best case recovery scenario. Too many horrible things happened in the past and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. It's not even worth talking about this as long as time machines aren't a thing. And I think, at this point, suicidality has become a part of my personality. I know this mindset is gonna stay with me as long as I live.

 

[whereispeace]

I don't even know. It would take some kind of miracle that I can't envision. I'm already dead, I just haven't made it official yet.

 

[tooStupidForExitBag]

I'd have to learn how to live with myself; quit judging and questioning my every thought, and come to terms with all of my regrets.

 

[Sha70]

True love.... but that is not in the cards for me.

 

[muffin222]

A radical shift in perception

 

[s1mplem3]

If I had family and friends.

 

[elsilbon]

I would have to change, but it's been almost a couple of decades, with its 'ups' and downs. I know I won't change. I can't get a job, I can't have stable relationships with anyone, I'm selfish, arrogant, insecure, a bipolar shitshow.

I'm just tired of being me.

 

[ritsulover]

Millions of dollars and a couple people to be close with. Though even then I think I'd still have suicidal thoughts, just probably wouldn't act on them

 

[DeathNoot]

Enough money to be a recluse comfortably lol since my problems give me a hard time existing in society. Or being cured of mental illness I suppose, except thats not possible

 

[terry_a_davis]

A job i enjoyed with good people.