What drugs/alcohol do you use, if any?

[slamjoetry]

I don't ask this to judge anybody. I grew up in an impoverished area where everyone did drugs like meth and heroine because there was nothing else to do, so I'm totally comfortable with anything. I'm just curious what vices are common in us mentally-ill folk. To name mine: I'm bipolar and a few years ago, my ex inadvertently got me addicted to weed, and ever since then I take edibles almost every night. I feel like it helps me because usually I have so many thoughts, monologues, and dialogues going on in my head at the same time, most of them negative, and I can't really focus on any of it. When I'm high, most of those voices are silenced and I can actually feel somewhat at peace. I also drink occasionally if I'm around others who are drinking, but it's not preferred for me because it's expensive, tastes nasty, and can make depressive episodes a hundred times worse.

 

[g0ne1nthew1nd]

alcohol and really weirdly the stuff they use to drug people at bars because it feels euphoric and dream-like lol

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I was given one xanax prescription, and I've been dipping in and out of it for like a few months off and on. I've been using it a bit too much for the last week, week and a half, every day sometimes every 1-3 days. I didn't realize exactly how long it stays in your system. I thought maybe putting 2-3 days in between doses would prevent me from getting addicted, but after 2 days without taking it I'm feeling very depressed--which is unlike me, usually I'm very logical and emotionless and hopeless (if scared out of my wits most of the time)--after not taking it for 2 days which I'm guessing is a bad sign. I really want to take more on day 3.

Maybe I'll do half the dose?

I've heard it's hard being bored. And that that's a big reason homeless people end up doing drugs. When I was locked up in the grippy socks jail, it felt the same. Like torture. They had the t.v. on but hardly any volume, only 1 meeting per day maybe for an hour, then the rest of the time it was talk to the other patients and wait for food. Sucked.

Same for me. At least with my new experience with the xanax. Without it, my inner voice is screaming death is around the corner, someone's going to kill me. Pure paranoia, and my mind goes all over the place. Pretty difficult. I can see why it'd be an easy escape.

100% agree on alcohol. Evidentially, for some people it actually increases their dopamine, so it legitimately makes them happy, not sad. They're the ones more likely to become alcoholics. For me, it makes me terribly depressed, too. I hate alcohol.

 

[Igotaplane]

I mainly smoke weed, I smoke multiple times a day every day just to try to manage with my anxiety and body pain even though it's becoming less and less effective because the tolerance I'm developing, but I also have nearly no coping skills or outlets so it is what it is I guess. Other than that I drink occasionally and do psychedelics very rarely though I've found shrooms just make me overly anxious and panic the entire time. I used to be addicted to Xanax and Adderall but have since recovered from those things. I am Bipolar 1 and have a very addictive personality so this all isn't really shocking. I only drink when I'm with friends because I can't stand the taste of alcohol

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 last year which has changed how I use drugs a lot.

I smoked weed for decades, but I had to quit this year when my manic episode flipped to depression. Now weed makes me ruminate on sad things and get really anxious. It's weird how much the experience can change depending on our mood.

I drink a little bit socially, particularly cocktails, but more than that never interested me.

I'll try anything I can get my hands on within reason. I did mushrooms and LSD last year, those are great every once in a while. I did some meth this year, and oxycontin and cocaine when I was younger.

I'd do more cocaine if it was available, but it's expensive for a short high. In reality when I had a manic episode last year it was like a 6 month straight cocaine binge.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Shrooms, weed, and alcohol. I usually only drink or smoke weed on occasion. Meanwhile, I trip on shrooms usually every once to twice a month. I love getting high on shrooms and I want to try other types of psychedelics (specifically classic psychedelics and maybe MDMA). Despite being illegal, it is really easy to get psychedelics where I live. Shrooms are the easiest to get my hands on since we have illegal shrooms dispensaries. The other stuff I can't get since I would need to order them online and I still live with my mom.

Weed can be fun and I find that food tastes better when I'm high, but I also find that I get paranoid while on it. I also hate smoking it since it smells, tastes bad, and makes me cough a lot. I can't get high on edibles, so they are a no-go. While music can sound good on weed, it doesn't compare to how music sounds while I'm high on mushrooms. Sometimes it can sound so good that listening to it sounds euphoric and even better than having an orgasm. The main downsides are that it I have to make sure that my stomach is completely empty before taking them since they upset my stomach and make me nauseous. It's also not fun to shit while tripping, lol. I also sometimes take laxatives the day before in order to help calm down my paranoias over potentially having an accident while high (it's never happened to me, but I've heard plenty of stories of it happening to others). My appetite usually ends up becoming suppressed whenever I take them. Honestly, it's hard to fully describe what it's like to be high on shrooms.

I find alcohol to be the most boring of the three. It's the first one I've tried and its only appealing quality revolved around how it made me self-destructive. Otherwise, I can't see the appeal. Most alcoholic drinks taste awful, it makes me feel sleepy, and being drunk comes with getting a headache and vomiting a whole bunch. Maybe it's more fun if you happen to drink with friends, but I don't have friends so maybe that's why. I usually only drink when I'm bored and I can't do shrooms or weed.