What do you think it’s like in the life of a “regular” person?

[Vault of Memories]

Do you ever wonder what it's like to not have the thought of catching the midnight train on your mind constantly?
What do you think it's like in a day of the life for the people that actually live like this. Do you think they wake up with a smile on their face and just drink their coffee as they ride to work or school with a smile on their face? Rather than having to drag themselves out of bed knowing they have another miserable day ahead of them. Sure they get upset about things, but it's things you're supposed to be upset about. Maybe their girlfriend dumped them or their grandma died.

I wish I knew how it felt to be that way. To just wake up and genuinely be happy for a day. Not even happy necessarily, just not sad. I'm sure we all envy that.

I wonder what they think when they hear about suicide. They've probably got no way of comprehending why someone would want to commit such an act. I wish I was like that. I wish my life was so good, that I couldn't comprehend why people would want to end theirs.

 

[k75]

I haven't always been suicidal, so no. Daily stress and worry and pain and irritation and the desire to not get out of bed and face the world still exists for "normal" people, too. I never lived a fantasy-land smiling existence, but I'd like it back. It's exhausting to battle your own mind like this.

I get what you're saying, though. It really is nice to be able to function without overthinking or having to push yourself to do simple things like take a shower or simply stay alive another hour. But it's not something you really think about until it's gone. It's just taken for granted, so normal it's not even a thing. You only start to notice what normal feels like when things aren't normal anymore, and then it's kind of too late.

I used to just think it was really sad when I heard suicide stories. Tragic someone could feel that bad. But I understood it well enough. The difference is now I can't escape from it.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I've lived life as a 'regular person' who never thought about suicide and it was great to be honest.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I have experienced this.

After many years of depression and OCD anxiety, I started taking Prozac.

Six weeks in and all my issues evaporated. I remember standing at the railway station looking round at everyone else and thinking 'I can't believe how easy you've all got it, how easy it is for me now. This is how other people feel.'

That year, everything went right, and if it didn't, I didn't care. Got knocked down, got back up. Carried on, with song in my heart. Best year of my life.

Then the drug pooped out. Tolerance effects. Nothing ever worked since and 20 years of SSRIs have seriously fucked up my health (not the only cause, but I'm thinking it's a factor).

Was it worth the one year of clarity and happiness?

No.

 

[gnomeboy17]

Even though I can briefly remember a time I wasn't suicidal, it's weird because obviously you don't think "I'm not suicidal" because why would you? So i guess it's kind of weird to constantly think about it. It must be amazingly weird to not

 

[Ko9]

A normal person? Well IDK someone who graduates from high school to work in a office with files and stuff. Someone who watches football (European) and has a family of 2 kids. Someone who pays taxes and eats tuna. That sort of thing. Very bland. I don't want to be normal but insane is also something else.