Method What do you think about violent deaths?

[TiredofLife-Thanks]

I've read several articles/questions on the site, and most people seem to choose death with SN. I understand, I also intend CTB with SN. But I'm pessimistic (or cautious?) and I believe it's best to always have a plan B. Unfortunately, I don't have access to a large number of methods in my country. No, I can't die by hanging or drowning, it's a sure failure (at least in my case.). If by chance the SN fails and I am conscious, what should I do? Obviously I'll be alone and I still want to die. With my little imagination, all I can think about is cutting some caliber artery and waiting for the hemorrhage to kill me. The question is what is the best place? With easier access and that requires little force? The carotid?
As a person who has already failed a suicide and who has remained conscious (and agonizing) during cardiac arrest, I am very afraid of a second failure. This time, I'm definitely going to die. I'm determined. At first, I want the most peaceful death possible, but if it is not possible, I will go for more violent and probably desperate methods.
What are your thoughts? I feel a little insane at the moment I'm writing this text.

 

[Edpal247]

I don't want a violent death - I want a relatively peaceful one. Or at least one that won't traumitize anyone else at the time. Obviously my family will miss me. I used to be the life of the party - then I wasn't.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

I've read several articles/questions on the site, and most people seem to choose death with SN. I understand, I also intend CTB with SN. But I'm pessimistic (or cautious?) and I believe it's best to always have a plan B. Unfortunately, I don't have access to a large number of methods in my country. No, I can't die by hanging or drowning, it's a sure failure (at least in my case.). If by chance the SN fails and I am conscious, what should I do? Obviously I'll be alone and I still want to die. With my little imagination, all I can think about is cutting some caliber artery and waiting for the hemorrhage to kill me. The question is what is the best place? With easier access and that requires little force? The carotid?
As a person who has already failed a suicide and who has remained conscious (and agonizing) during cardiac arrest, I am very afraid of a second failure. This time, I'm definitely going to die. I'm determined. At first, I want the most peaceful death possible, but if it is not possible, I will go for more violent and probably desperate methods.
What are your thoughts? I feel a little insane at the moment I'm writing this text.

You don't necessarily need a more violent death. If you want to die more than anything, the only thing that matters is lethality. There are violent and lethal ways to die. There are also violent and non lethal ways to injure yourself. There are peaceful and lethal ways to die. There are also peaceful and nonlethal ways to injure yourself. You can pick a more peaceful option if that is what you prefer that is the same lethality as jumping off the empire state building head first. For example, Sodium Azide has no cure. There are no survivors. You could take it in front of medical professionals and receive immediate treatment but you will still die regardless if it gets into your bloodstream. That means it's essentially 100% lethal. Popular methods like SN and N are also 100% lethal under the condition that they are taken in the proper dosage and you are not discovered because medical attention will thwart your attempts. One of the absolute worst and violent methods to choose is cutting. This usually will fail to kill and there will be a lot of blood and drama. Jumping and reaching terminal velocity and landing headfirst has a 0% survival rate, but how can you ensure you will land headfirst? These are all different things to consider when choosing your method.
As for how I feel about violent deaths (sorry, I got distracted and forgot the topic's name), violent deaths are not for me. I'm too squeamish and would be in so much distress from the idea of how violent my death will be that I would probably mess it up.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm in a similar situation where violent methods are all I have so I would need to be certain it's lethal enough. Unfortunately my SN isn't viable anymore. Maybe some of it hasn't been oxidized too much and is still useable. Maybe I can test it again because I don't want a violent death if I can avoid it.

 

[UKscotty]

I don't think many people actually use SN. In principle it sounds like a good method but in practice it is slow and unreliable. Most will go onto use partial or jumping I'd suspect.

Why would you want a violent method when there are plenty of fast peaceful methods? Do you feel like you deserve to suffer?

 

[happynot]

What is a fast and peaceful method??