Discussion What do you feel today?

[oxymoron]

I don't feel anything.

no love
no hate
no fear
no pain
no sadness
no happiness
no anxiety
no stress
no guilt
no regrets
no life
no hope
no ambition
no presence
no breath
no heartbeat
no loneliness
no questions
no answers
no me
no I

 

[irrelevant_string]

The "no I" would be nice. However, no amount of meditative practice could bring me there. There's a stubborn sense of self in this one.

 

[pole]

numb.

 

[Dawn0071111]

I feel totally worthless, I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself..... lol

 

[dandan]

I feel totally worthless, I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself..... lol

Been there many years, I started a testosterone therapy with a very professional doctor. I'm feeling good, like living and working. Who was going to know that testosterone has been by far the best "medicine" I've ever received.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Been there many years, I started a testosterone therapy with a very professional doctor. I'm feeling good, like living and working. Who was going to know that testosterone has been by far the best "medicine" I've ever received.

I am so glad to hear. I am still doing my "rule out" since my close attempt in January. Since Im female, testorestone prob isn't my answer. My next step is hypnotherapy. If I can over come my problem. No need to die. But once hope is gone so am I. But yes, my freind. Whatever one can find to enjoy life. Do it!

 

[oxymoron]

I feel totally worthless, I hate myself and I hate myself for hating myself..... lol

Same.

 

[Ixtabba]

Empty. Like a pit has swallowed my stomach and my chest, I feel nothing but emptiness and for some reason that's the most painful feeling.

 

[Ladylethal]

Grief stricken. Numb. Angry. Disgustingly worthless. Scared.

 

[dandan]

I am so glad to hear. I am still doing my "rule out" since my close attempt in January. Since Im female, testorestone prob isn't my answer. My next step is hypnotherapy. If I can over come my problem. No need to die. But once hope is gone so am I. But yes, my freind. Whatever one can find to enjoy life. Do it!

The hormone doctor told me many people are wrongly seeing psychologists and psychiatrist when it's all a hormone issue. I hope this lasts for me, I have found before hope and lost it, I cannot get my Hope's high. But I'm doing fine at the moment, thank you. I would first go see an endocrinologist than a hypnotherapist if I was you, and tell them you are close to suicide and that you been told other people ha e found that it is hormone related ..... like me, we have to try everything we can.

 

[Saga]

I wish I could say I am empty...But my heart is aching so bad rn..I might impulsively ctb only to fail again..i feel empty and lost I mean I do all the time..but this time..theres so much emptiness that it's painful

 

[omoidarui]

Happy but in pain. i think a fkn spider got in my bed a few nights ago because im covered in bites, chest, back, elbow, nipples, errywhere!!

 

[glk]

ready-to-go

 

[Throwaway9787]

Tired

 

[Lyra]

Feel like I'm just waiting to go and it feels like too long.

 

[Beautifulletdown]

Fucking hopeless. I wish to feel nothing but instead I feel too much.

 

[Reaper44]

Terrified.
I can't find my rope anywhere and I'm freaking out. It's not where I left it and I'm scared a family member might have it. They don't know I want to CTB, but they know I'm depressed, so things could get bad if they know about the rope.

 

[oxymoron]

Terrified.
I can't find my rope anywhere and I'm freaking out. It's not where I left it and I'm scared a family member might have it. They don't know I want to CTB, but they know I'm depressed, so things could get bad if they know about the rope.

That's ok. You can get ropes at Walmart.

That's ok. You can get ropes at Walmart.

Or Target idk.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

Depression. Tiredness. Anxiety. Fatigue. Rage. Hatred. Confliction.

 

[HappyEnding]

Insanity and helplessness.

 

[wanttodie.nz]

Disappointment that there is another day without what I really want.

 

[SinisterKid]

I feel a sense of elation because for once, I am in control of my own fate, something which I have not felt in a long time.

 

[oxymoron]

I feel so dead that I think I know how it feels to be dead.

Disappointment that there is another day without what I really want.

So true.

Fucking hopeless. I wish to feel nothing but instead I feel too much.