What do you do with your life?

[timetosleep]

We want to ctb, but since we are still here, what do you do with the life that's remaining?

I have been trying to think about what I want to do with my life and I came up with nothing. I find existence to be pointless and unenjoyable. You wake up and do the same thing over and over everyday without any goal or purpose besides making rich people richer through your work. At the end of the month, you pay bills, and the cycle repeats.

 

[GuessWhosBack]

I'm sure you've heard this a thousand times over, but since I don't know you - have you tried therapy and/or meds to alleviate depression? Do you have any hobbies? Goals to work towards?

 

[chester]

We want to ctb, but since we are still here, what do you do with the life that's remaining?

I have been trying to think about what I want to do with my life and I came up with nothing. I find existence to be pointless and unenjoyable. You wake up and do the same thing over and over everyday without any goal or purpose besides making rich people richer through your work. At the end of the month, you pay bills, and the cycle repeats.

Tying up loose ends. Going through a list of stuff that someone else would need to do if I died now, like:

• change the oil in my car (someone's gonna get it after I'm dead)
• organize my stuff, documents, etc, so that everything can be easily found
• write detailed instructions for the event of my death
• throw away all the useless shit from my apartment. I recently went through having to clean up an apartment after my dead loved one, and this was hell, you wouldn't believe how much worthless garbage people accumulate and forget over the years. I want to spare my folks this experience.

There's always something that needs to be done. It doesn't make life meaningful and it's not something you enjoy. It's something to do though.

EDIT: And yeah, I've got a full-time corporate job which I never really liked, but the money is good. I mean the money would be good if it weren't worthless to me at this point in life.

 

[mikuhappy]

just working at my job

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find existing pointless, in my case I find existing deeply undesirable as well. I know I'm not meant to suffer in this reality, to me existence is such a futile and torturous burden that I never would have chosen, I only wish and hope for eternal nothingness. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm at a constant stalemate between procrastinating on my CTB plans and being hopelessly deluded into thinking I could still find a reason to live.

 

[pollux]

Electrical engineering student. Some sort of one anyway.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I try to get by as best I can. I try to avoid things getting any worse. For now, that means trying my best at my creative job because I don't want to have to go back into wage slavery. (Worse wage slavery anyhow.) I make myself exercise each day because I felt awful last year. I do the absolute minimum domestically. But really, I just try to distract myself as much as I can by having music/films/anything on in the background.

My focus in life has changed though. I used to be ambitious. Now, I just want to stay as I am. For things to get no worse until I'm free to leave. (I want to wait for my Dad to go first.) It's a weird limbo state I feel in a lot of the time. I care less about a lot of things although, I know I can't give up all together because, I suppose I do still care about failure and letting people down. It's kind of like a whole lot of obligation with a lot less reward which tends to make me feel resentful a lot of the time.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Crawling my way through attempting recovery yet again... Now trying supplements inspired by a member here that wrote a promising post about it. I feel quite connected to my psychologist and he believes I can have a happy life and is trying to get to the bottom of my problems. I appreciate that so I've been trying the things he said and doing EMDR.

My daily life is working and watching videos/series. Work is going very well, people praising my work a lot, yet I feel nothing, no satisfaction.

Will be on holiday next week so will need to do something otherwise I'll feel even worse than now.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Just waste the day in bed and scrolling on my phone. Sleep and eat a lot. Just waiting for my final day to come.

 

[CatLvr]

On my good days I am fairly active. Try to catch up on all the things I didn't get done on my bad days. On my bad days I am worthless as tits on a boar hog. Feed and water the houseful of critters I have -- husband is on his own. My pets are what keeps me here as they are all rescues and I don't trust my husband to love and take care of them like they should be.

I have always had a connection with animals and always had pets -- yes, plural. Looking back, my pets have been to me what humans could or would not. So anyway I'm here until the last one passes or I find them all good homes.

 

[samdocheon]

Constant traveling , cycles don't repeats for me, that helped me to be more confident to what i'm doing.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Unfortunately, after a big failure I do nothing with my life - literally, my life is living without me. I'd probably have options and chances to start over but yet I do nothing but rotting at home.

 

[VeryShy]

Uhm, I spend my day lying, sitting, walking around the apartment (I don't go outside), taking a look at the TV (although it doesn't interest me), being on here, eating, drinking, using the bathroom and other non-interesting stuff...

 

[derpyderpins]

I experience and I love. The struggle is a side-effect.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I experience and I love. The struggle is a side-effect.

Seems like the struggle is stressful today lol
On this birth of a new day...