DeadDumbDream
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- Jan 5, 2020
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I self medicate with sex, drugs, internet.
I don't want to derail the thread, but I've noticed there are two main camps for self harm. You say you do it to feel something, for me I do it to stop me from melting down emotionally when I can't cope with it.i self harm when i feel empty, and also listen to music and drink alcohol
I'm not sure really, i think personally i do it for several reasons. As a distraction, the very act causes obvious pain which is a distraction but then having to clean up the mess is a distraction. Sometimes I have strong pent up feelings of anger or mental pain which can only be released through self harm. Other times it's punishment, I deserve to be hurt.I don't want to derail the thread, but I've noticed there are two main camps for self harm. You say you do it to feel something, for me I do it to stop me from melting down emotionally when I can't cope with it.
I wonder why that is?
I got caught by my whole family with my cuts but I made the biggest lie ever which was a cat scratched me and with the help of my friend who didn't even know what was happening, I fooled everyone, so I now can have my cuts showing around my houseI can't cut my arms anymore as I wear a uniform for work and have to have bare arms so I cut my legs instead. No one knows I still do it, I started at 15 and am 38 now!
ah yes, I've had to be creative with answers sometimes! can't get away with it anymore though, it's too obvious. Would much prefer to cut my arm though as for some reason it's more satisfying (maybe because it's closer than your leg) but hey ho needs must. Haven't needed stitches but last few have been deeper and can see yellow which I think is fat? Sorry if this is a bit grim, don't mean to gross anyone out. it's become so normal to me now I couldn't imagine any other way of coping . sending you hugs xI got caught by my whole family with my cuts but I made the biggest lie ever which was a cat scratched me and with the help of my friend who didn't even know what was happening, I fooled everyone, so I now can have my cuts showing around my house
The good thing is that I unintentionally made it look like cat scratches so I'm good, and i never see yellow, maybe I'm not cutting deep but I don't think it's fat though , I don't know howeverah yes, I've had to be creative with answers sometimes! can't get away with it anymore though, it's too obvious. Would much prefer to cut my arm though as for some reason it's more satisfying (maybe because it's closer than your leg) but hey ho needs must. Haven't needed stitches but last few have been deeper and can see yellow which I think is fat? Sorry if this is a bit grim, don't mean to gross anyone out. it's become so normal to me now I couldn't imagine any other way of coping . sending you hugs x