torimandy
Fear is the mind killer
- Aug 3, 2020
- 146
Over the past 11 years I have suffered so many indignities that I really have no reason to be alive. I have been shut out from my career field. I have been fired from jobs that my performance was over the top incredible at because of the undeserved hate of co workers and customers, and these were shit jobs. When I was no longer able to find a job due to this I turned to prostitution to be able to cover my basic needs. Every family member including my children have disowned me. And then this morning I was told by a potential suitor that I was not ever going to be trophy wife material and I needed to just stop turning the many men away that want nothing but one time sex from me as it is all and ugly old broad like me can expect.
Because of this, I now have 5 attempts logged in my medical records and 2 more I didn't even bother with as I was still alive. Every attempt was studied and done with the proper amounts and the proper preparations. One was thwarted but the others all should have been successful. 2 times the nursing staff told me I should not even be alive.
SO WHY THE FUCK AM I ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I no longer have the drive to even try again. I was a big deal prior to transition. I made 6 figures and in 23 years I never applied for a job as I was actively recruited. Now I am a piece of shit that people would rather see dead and I can't get it done no matter what I try short of the gruesome things I know for sure. I just can't bring myself to that.
Because of this, I now have 5 attempts logged in my medical records and 2 more I didn't even bother with as I was still alive. Every attempt was studied and done with the proper amounts and the proper preparations. One was thwarted but the others all should have been successful. 2 times the nursing staff told me I should not even be alive.
SO WHY THE FUCK AM I ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I no longer have the drive to even try again. I was a big deal prior to transition. I made 6 figures and in 23 years I never applied for a job as I was actively recruited. Now I am a piece of shit that people would rather see dead and I can't get it done no matter what I try short of the gruesome things I know for sure. I just can't bring myself to that.