Discussion what did you expect your life to be when you were younger?

[devian]

i thought id be someone helping others emotionally. a therapist or something. i was a good kid who never had issues myself. look at me now lol

 

[bed]

Even from a young age, I didn't see much of a future for myself. I've always suffered from anxiety so things just seemed out of reach to me. I remember thinking when i was 12, I'd never be able to drive or be able to work due to my anxiety, both of which I still have never done.

I did do very well in high school and devoted my studies to either going into engineering or architecture. I knew by the time I was 17 though that I wanted to kill myself - 9 years later and I still do but it's only gotten worse.

 

[motel rooms]

I thought I wouldn't live to see 25. I was sure I'd implode or explode.

 

[The_Dreamer]

I had a very overactive imagination as a child and when I was younger I thought the world worked the way it did in my head. Aka the way it did in the books movies and songs I consumed.

Naturally life hit me hard and shattered those dreams BUT that being said I dreamed I'd be a writer or something creative considering writing is one of my stronger skills and I have had a vivid overactive imagination as I said. Not to mention my dreams which are beyond vivid, my dream log is pages and pages long and I still have memories of dreams I had over a decade ago now.

Come to realize I have nothing original to write about (no inspiration) so I decided to do the 'responsible' thing and get a business degree and im just gonna ride a monotonous desk job until Im dead and gone. Whether that comes sooner or later is undetermined.

Regardless, I don't feel bad about my life specifically. Moreso I feel bad that Life itself brought us all to this point and fooled us into thinking our existence is consequential when it really isn't, in the grand scheme of things.

 

[thefoodispoison]

Before my childhood trauma I thought I'd grow up to be a writer.

After my childhood trauma I thought I'd die before 35.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never imagined myself having any sort of future. I have never wanted to be alive and even at a young age I found death to be comforting. I am not meant for this world. I have never had any goals or aspirations, there is nothing for me here. I think the truth is that I belong in the eternal nothingness.

 

[WitheringBird02]

I always thought that i will die after school and will not survive my 20s. I always wanted to die young it was kind of my life plan Lol.

 

[BllyNoM8s]

I never thought I would make it past 18, I never knew why. Just had that feeling

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I didn't have a clear image of what I wanted to do, so I just imagined having 7 different jobs for each day of the week while having all the time and resources in the world to do whatever I wanted. Although, that fantasy died quickly when I got mocked for it. (To be fair though, I find the idea ridiculous myself.)

 

[lionetta12]

i thought id be someone helping others emotionally. a therapist or something. i was a good kid who never had issues myself. look at me now lol

Not what it turned out to be, that's for sure.

 

[Cin]

Nothing. I figured the future was far enough off that by the time I became an adult something would click for me. It never did, and the "you can be anything you want" doesn't apply if you're not an overachiever I guess.

 

[Darkover]

i thought life was magical when i was a child i always wanted to learn electronics and how everything works but then as a adult heartbreak happened leading me to learn we are nothing forever i never did recover from that deep feeling of impending doom, life it's all for nothing soon to be gone for all time never to see or hear or touch or feel anything ever again, everything i am is going to go into the void of nothingness for all time how disappointing nothing would ever care for us here life the biggest let down that ever existed

 

[Archness]

I was quite a dumb youth so I really missed the mark. Even then, I had no idea what'd I'd be, but thought, "I'd just live and enjoy life". I thought that, like my parents, everything would end up right in the end.

How wrong I was.

 

[Ruma]

I wanted to be a vet when I grew up,but you had to be good at maths and english,so I failed miserably. I basically just fucked about at school. Now I'm a Carer,not the best job in the world,but it pays the bills.

 

[Tartuffe]

Nothing special to be honest. I'm late 30s and feel like I have over achieved. I had no ambition

 

[ghosty2187]

I imagined future me as a happy person enjoying his life. I didn't have many friends in school and almost everyone didn't like me , but I was hoping , that some day I would meet people , that would support me. Unfortunately my dreams never came true - now I'm just wishing , that I will die as fast as possible and I've already tried to do it by myself , but ended up failing.