Venting What are you upset about today?

[Pisceslilith]

I'll go first, I'm upset because I lost my whole childhood to trauma and I'm never going to get those years back. Now I am an adult, I don't have time to "live my life" like a normal young adult and now I am hearing that I basically have to work my life away just to survive and it doesn't even matter if I like the job or not, I just have to do it because I have to survive in a life that I am stuck in. This is bullshit .

 

[ClownMe]

My entire existence as a whole upsets me everyday, I simply don't want to be alive, it's painful.

 

[Eric Draven]

Specifically today (as opposed to every other day) I have a meeting with the Department of Works & Pensions in 2 hours to discuss my ability to work. If they deem me fit to work they will reduce my benefits so I can't afford my rent.
I just avoided being made homeless 18 months ago and here we go again.
Oh, and my freezer seems to be on the blink.

 

[MeltedJello]

Waking up.

 

[8evergo]

I want to go today but it's like every day who has sn, I want to go with you

 

[Peaceisnear]

I am upset because I have everything set up for the SN method but still can't ctb, yet. My SN has arrived and I am picking it up tomorrow along with my propranolol. I already have meto and antacid. The problem is I can't go to a hotel and my parents are at home most of the time which makes it practically impossible to drink the SN without being found as I would need 8+ hours just to be sure. I was thinking of locking myself up in the basement and telling them I will be hanging out with friends so that they don't try to find me. Idk, I have to figure sth out...

 

[8evergo]

and you are certainly not near me, otherwise I would say let it be with me in my home

I am upset because I have everything set up for the SN method but still can't ctb, yet. My SN has arrived and I am picking it up tomorrow along with my propranolol. I already have meto and antacid. The problem is I can't go to a hotel and my parents are at home most of the time which makes it practically impossible to drink the SN without being found as I would need 8+ hours just to be sure. I was thinking of locking myself in the basement and telling them I will be hanging out with friends so that they don't try to find me. Idk, I have to figure sth out...

and you are certainly not near me, otherwise I would say let it be with me in my home

 

[existtosuffer]

Waking up.

and breathing.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Being awake and everything still being ruined and broken and my mind slowly slipping into insanity.

 

[8evergo]

Being awake and everything still being ruined and broken and my mind slowly slipping into insanity.

oh my god that's the way i feel today too

 

[Sebuet]

Horrible loneliness. Soon it will be over

 

[needingpeace24]

Backed out of hanging myself over the weekend. Feel mentally exhausted because I was sure I'd go through with it for days and then at the last minute didn't. Found out some terrible news from someone important to me last night so I'm hoping I can get it done today or tomorrow. I'm so tired and mentally fucked just want this to be over.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find life to be upsetting in general. The fact that I exist in the first place, the fact that I am still alive. There is no way to just disappear. Ctb is difficult and requires a lot of courage. I cannot enjoy food anymore and I feel ill most of the time. I could not sleep last night and now I am extremely tired. I ended up thinking a lot about the past and painful memories. I simply cannot move on from the past. The fact that things will get worse in the future. Everything is hopeless. These are the things that upset me every day.

 

[demuic]

That the future is very scary and things only get worse and never better. Everything I enjoyed or wanted is dead and gone.

 

[8evergo]

That the future is very scary and things only get worse and never better. Everything I enjoyed or wanted is dead and gone.

me too

 

[deflationary]

That I'm stuck here. I'm ready to go but I can't.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I'm upset that my inner ears are basically broken and cant afford surgery for it. I'm upset that I have no one, been dealt shitty hand with this stupid psychiatric disease and my family hates me.

 

[NasiGoreng]

I'm upset I struggle to get out off bed and and leave the house.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

The nonchalant insincerity and inconsistency of a certain someone.

 

[Ch92921]

My entire existence as a whole upsets me everyday, I simply don't want to be alive, it's painful.(copy)

 

[feggut]

Well today I found a big ugly cockroach crawling around on my kitchen counter it ran away before I could kill it

 

[DeathBecomesMe_2021]

I feel worthless and like a burden. Nobody wants me around them. I want to be loved but I'm unlovable. Nobody cares what happens to me. I had one friend who I thought would be more understanding due to the mood swings I experience from depression. We used to meet up now and again. But he discarded me like yesterday's trash, only strengthening my resolve to die. The world would be a better place without me in it.

 

[8evergo]

maybe you will find someone here who is a nice CTB with you

 

[stygal]

That I want to slap people for their slow thinking processes whenever I explain something...so my inner anger, I guess.

 

[Yziar]

my life is a comedy

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I was actually in a decent mood. Got home and mom talked about how **** might have disowned her. By extension that means me.

So that killed the good mood. lol. FML

 

[Ch92921]

Face,

 

[keyakizaka]

i quit my job after the first day. felt like i was gonna collapse all day bc i had to stand for 8 hours. feel like i can't do anything