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kitchenwindow197

Student
Sep 22, 2024
114
I plan to watch a movie with my favorite meal and just eat any snacks i want until its time to go
 
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cantThinkOfName

cantThinkOfName

Member
Sep 12, 2024
28
Id like to draw and have a nice meal. Go spend time with my family and their dogs.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
925
die hopefully
 
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DevonBostick'sAss

DevonBostick'sAss

BillyIdol
Jan 10, 2025
82
Eat as much as i can eat and wear fancy stuff
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
381
The same as I always do, but with the added combination of dread and excitement that CTB will bring.
 
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Princess_Kitty

Princess_Kitty

Lost kitty
Jan 4, 2024
202
Probably drink one last cup of coffee, have a nice meal (maybe order some Chinese food or something) watch a movie and then maybe play a game for the last time.
 
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steppenwolf

steppenwolf

Not a student
Oct 25, 2023
209
If it is up to me, I will post a letter to the local hospital informing them of my name and address and that the front door will be left unlocked, and that by the time they read it my lifeless corpse may be found in the bath.
 
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blood-orange

Member
Jan 19, 2025
18
cocaine and tidying my room
 
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Despair 7

Despair 7

Member
Feb 7, 2025
24
Just kill myself as soon as possible
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,382
Nothing special. Just go through my day until I am ready to make an attempt.
 
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E Butler

E Butler

Member
Feb 6, 2025
33
Day before I'm gonna order out and watch a film with my family. Something experimental. Then the night of the attempt I'm gonna get very drunk and write my goodbye note before walking to the spot.
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
179
Probably not much, watch youtube, talk to mom, listen to a few songs and pray that it's gonna work.
 
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roommate

roommate

Not in the moment
Feb 14, 2025
262
Hookers and cocaine ofcourse
 
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AreWeWinning

Student
Nov 1, 2021
105
Probably nothing special. I'll just be going through my final preparations and todos according to my plan. There will be very little to do on the final day. Apart from that, probably I'll be just lazing around, taking naps, collecting the mental energy to do it. In my experience, doing anything else is just a distraction, and increases the chance of failure or changing my mind. Things like nice meals, watching a show I enjoy, talking to people... What's the point anyway, if within 24 hours I plan to be dead? I either should have done those things already in my life, or I would do them if I didn't plan on offing myself. But doing anything special on the last day makes no sense to me.
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
238
i think i'll try to make it special, idk how yet, but i'd like it to be a relaxing day
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
595
Probably having my fav meal and watch a horror movie.
 
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Poltergeist

Poltergeist

Member
Jul 24, 2024
43
There is a distinct relief and great feeling I had when I quit university and also when I quit my job, walking home and the world barely existed. Just felt a relief that washed the surroundings away.

I hope I get that and take a long walk to the place I do it, if not I want maybe a few days isolated from people and wait for good weather to do it. I will also have a good energy drink or can of fizzy drink, fizz head to the grave.
 
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Corvette90

Member
Jan 2, 2025
56
I hadn't thought about it like that. I just wanted to be as comfortable as possible. I probably will be in a location far away from home. I'm looking at the south coast somewhere with natural beauty. I'm not sure what I will do on "the day". Try to stay calm and clear headed. I may say goodbye to a few people in a subtle way (but not to make it obvious). When it's happening (ctb) I hope to have some gospel music or something nostalgic and relaxing playing. Hopefully my mind then will focus on the music and distract from any survival instinct. 🙏 Then hopefully peace.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,882
die hopefully

That's what I was going to say! Try and keep things simple... I expect I would be going mid morning via SN. So- it rules a lot of stuff out really. Following boring protocols. No nice food or drink on the run up. More likely, last minute preparations and a desperate attempt to keep calm. No doubt a few last minute re-watches of favourite YouTube clips. Listening to favourite music. It's a weird thought though. Just thinking about it makes me nervous.

The ideal would be to do some nicer things on the run up really. Visit some nice places, eat some good food.
 
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blackpillhopeless

Member
Nov 30, 2024
34
I will probably just meditate and reflect on my life a bit, maybe I'll listen to my favourite song Rebellion by Arcade Fire
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
647
The SN protocol has quite a few steps, and I'll need to travel to a hotel to to do it. So it won't be as relaxed as I wish it could be.

I wish I could do it at my own home in the mountains, but I get triggered by trauma out there, and my body wouldn't be found for a while. So the hotel is my compromise.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,706
Not much, just eat my favorite food, just like condemned prisoners
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
610
No idea. Probably nothing special or significant.
 
ringo99

ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
462
Watch a movie. Double check that my documentation is in order. Wipe my phone and laptop hard drives. Maybe talk to a few people I'm close to if I'm up to it. I'll have my last favorite meal two days prior since I'll need to fast a day for the SN to be effective.
 
Languish

Languish

A Flower of Flesh and Blood
Feb 7, 2025
124
I want it to be a rainy day. Heavy rain. I'd like that to be the last sound I listen to as I wilt.
 
yearofluigi

yearofluigi

(🏳️‍⚧️she/her) The L stands for "winner"
Nov 19, 2024
58
I... don't know. I feel like I should have some favourite movie to watch or favourite game to play or something, but I'm drawing a blank right now. I'll probably just wanna get it over with.
 

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