What are you going to do before you go?

[Judy Garland]

Do any of you have any rituals, or anything special you plan on doing a few hours or so before you cbt? I think, one hour before I'll take Kratom, smoke a cigarette...then I will put music on while I measure out my SN, take the recommended medications and then I will take that drink. I may have a cigarette as soon as I finish the SN but I haven't decided yet. I'll walk over to my computer, sit on the couch, and let you all know I'm leaving. If I feel up to it I'll give you a minute by minute like posting of how I am feeling. What about you all, are you going to do anything before?

 

[FuneralCry]

For me personally, all that I want to do is make sure that the method does not fail. That is what is important to me. Nothing else really matters as I will soon be gone. All life is meaningless after all. If only it was easier to leave this world, it is unlikely that I will be dying for a long time as ctb is so difficult for me. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[littleshopofhorrors]

My plan is to pick a day like Saturday or Tuesday where I don't have any meetings or work to attend and I will spend all day deep cleaning my apartment/do my laundry. I know cleaning on ur last day on earth doesn't sound appealing, but I don't want to leave my family having to clean my apartment and deal with funeral shit on top of possibly grieving. Once I am done with cleaning, I will take whatever antiemetics and antiacids I can get my hands on and chill out and watch The Office and smoke a bowl or two. About an hour after that I will go into my bathroom, tape my note to the door, close the door, and take the first glass of SN. I will have three glasses of SN just in case I vomit (because I can't get ahold of any of the strong antiemetic prescriptions, so I will inevitably throw up at least once), and hopefully I will be gone in like ten-twenty minutes.

 

[Foresight]

Oh I'm making it an event. I'm still planning it out. I'm throwing myself a party of 1 goodbye ceremony.

 

[DPJ187]

Eat a final meal, the day before obviously, have an evening with some drinks, some smoke and some games or movies. Then just as tiredness kicks in take my SN although still holding out for N. Relax with one final salute to all the positive people I met in my life and close my eyes, I will be complete. My life and my journey, stopped in peace and harmony, not something to be sad about rather something to take joy in. My life was mine and i went out on my terms

 

[its-about-time]

Banking on impulsivity so no plans. I'll probably listen to The Wall though and definitely have a few cigarettes.

 

[°Celsuis_Caesar]

Pomp and Circumstance, Life Graduation!

 

[DPJ187]

Banking on impulsivity so no plans. I'll probably listen to The Wall though and definitely have a few cigarettes

Not cigarettes man, settle those nerves and sickness with some weed. Some = alot. Li

 

[Judy Garland]

Not cigarettes man, settle those nerves and sickness with some weed. Some = alot. Li

I get so paranoid from smoking weed. But I don't get paranoid from edibles, hmm...I wonder if I can buy edibles online because I live in New York State? Hmm....but yeah, smoking weed before I go would be a disaster!

 

[its-about-time]

Not cigarettes man, settle those nerves and sickness with some weed. Some = alot. Li

You know, weed is not something that's proven to be good for me long term, but I really like being stoned. I still have a big jar of weed and a pipe from my last bout of use. I was thinking about pulling it out and getting stoned today.

 

[WonderingSoul]

Listen to some good music and then get ready to die.

 

[kovu]

I'd probably watch either Avatar: the last airbender, a Ghibli Movie or Violet Evergarden - loved the frist two as a kid and I'm rewatching all three every year. With that some Ben&Jerrie's and maybe some MCR afterwards. Everyone seems to have SN, but I'll stick to partial hanging, so after all that I'd be gone pretty quick. The last time I tried, I did it impulsively and failed, so this time I'd take more care.

 

[WonderingSoul]

I'd probably watch either Avatar: the last airbender, a Ghibli Movie or Violet Evergarden - loved the frist two as a kid and I'm rewatching all three every year. With that some Ben&Jerrie's and maybe some MCR afterwards. Everyone seems to have SN, but I'll stick to partial hanging, so after all that I'd be gone pretty quick. The last time I tried, I did it impulsively and failed, so this time I'd take more care.

I'd definitely watch a studio Ghibli Movie before I die.

 

[Flying Away]

Do any of you have any rituals, or anything special you plan on doing a few hours or so before you cbt? I think, one hour before I'll take Kratom, smoke a cigarette...then I will put music on while I measure out my SN, take the recommended medications and then I will take that drink. I may have a cigarette as soon as I finish the SN but I haven't decided yet. I'll walk over to my computer, sit on the couch, and let you all know I'm leaving. If I feel up to it I'll give you a minute by minute like posting of how I am feeling. What about you all, are you going to do anything before?

Clean, pack, watch my favourite films get drunk. Nothing fancy

 

[Glowarm]

I'm not sure. There are a few items that I'd like to give to certain people. But, that might raise questions. I definitely want to spend some time alone, go on one last hike around my mountain. Listen to the songs on the playlist that I made for ctb

 

[xo777]

Go to my room at my dad house, curl up in bed with my old favorite blanket, put on my favorite movies, remove the password from my phone, take my N and cuddle up until it's time to go home wherever that may be

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Honestly would love to visit South Korea (I am very much into Kpop, can you tell by my avatar?) as something on my bucket list, but too much red tape due to covid so that's a no go. I don't have anything else I'd really want to do before then.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

There's really nothing I feel a compulsion to do. I don't really get any enjoyment from anything anymore. Sometime before I go, and will probably be this summer, I do plan to visit the graves of some loved ones and bring them some flowers. Other than that, just get affairs in order somewhat.

 

[notmuchtimeleft27]

I'm thinking I might play some of my favourite music when I go.headphones on when I step into the hope rope. Something to calm me when things get darker. I drew on my hands too for personal significance and symbolism. If I'm lucky they'll get it. Both of these as a reminder that there are still good things in life even if it turned into a nightmare.

 

[blue_muse]

Not really. I just plan on waiting to die .

 

[Hope:-)]

Trying not to worry, listening to music all day, getting a bit drunk and eating my favourite food the day before, putting up signs not to come in the room, doing a thread on here. Pretty much it.

 

[AnxietyHangover]

I will write my letter to my family then leave. I'm thinking about these things before you go, but we had a lifetime to do them anyway.

 

[makethepainstop]

I get so paranoid from smoking weed. But I don't get paranoid from edibles, hmm...I wonder if I can buy edibles online because I live in New York State? Hmm....but yeah, smoking weed before I go would be a disaster!

Gummies do provide an excellent effect. Got to love em.

 

[outrider567]

Nothing but just display the suicide books, my notes, and the Nitrogen warning signs

 

[StolenLife]

I'll clean up my apartment before hand, do personal hygiene and feed the neighbourhood cat for one last time. I have to buy a dress or a skirt and make an outfit. I have to delete browser history, make a phone call to my family at the usual time so that they don't suspect anything and I also have to have a bus ticket bought for the bus driving towards The Bridge. Other than that I don't know since nothing else makes me content anymore.