What are you doing this Friday night?

[SuicideM4n]

I spent almost the whole night looking at the ceiling, I don't feel like doing my hobbies anymore due to anhedonia, and I don't go out to have fun because I don't have friends and no one ever invites me to anything

 

[TheHatedOne]

DRINKING, I WANT TO BEAT MY RECORD AND DRINK ONE BOTTLE OF VODKA TONIGHT I WONT GO TO SLEEP UNTUL I ACHIEVE THIS. ADDITIONALLY I LISTEN TO MUSIC AND JUST VIBING. \M/

 

[Mixo]

Got high, listened to Sufjan Stevens songs, ate falafel, contemplated alcohol, and just tried to escape reality. It worked somewhat.

 

[Live Free or Die]

Same as you. Hiding under my fuzzy blanket and browsing the forums here. I have the TV on in the background to give me the sense I'm not all alone. I don't go out at all, can't be around people like that. What kind of hobbies did you used to enjoy?

 

[savagepeonies]

Drinking on discord as per usual.

 

[summers]

Playing some FF7 Remake, then going to the gym. Probably getting laid after that (and after a shower ).

 

[lostautist]

TV is on for background noise. I'm on here in massive pain from surgeries yesterday. Debating if I should just suffer in pain or take a percocet. I just decided and took the pill. I will save the rest just in case...

 

[Sides]

Reading, drinking yogurt because I lack the energy to eat. Need to go to bed early because I have a visiting nurse coming in the morning (recovering from open heart surgery.) The house is quiet and I am alone at last. Splendid isolation, as Warren Zevon put it. And yet I'm posting here, so I must be seeking the commiseration of a community of like-minded souls.

TV is on for background noise. I'm on here in massive pain from surgeries yesterday. Debating if I should just suffer in pain or take a percocet. I just decided and took the pill. I will save the rest just in case...

What surgeries? I just had open heart surgery (6 vessel CABG) on Sunday.

 

[OrcWitch]

Watching a stream and picking at my toenails, drinking diet mountain dew

 

[Mixo]

Watching a stream and picking at my toenails, drinking diet mountain dew

I'm watching a stream too about Trisha Paytas. Not the same one, right?

 

[OrcWitch]

I'm watching a stream too about Trisha Paytas. Not the same one, right?

Neat. I've not heard much of her since her fallout with Ethan from H3 podcast

No I've been watching HasanAbi watching master chef

 

[Mixo]

Neat. I've not heard much of her since her fallout with Ethan from H3 podcast

No I've been watching HasanAbi watching master chef

Never heard of him. I'll have to look him up. Haha yeah, I'm watching some lady (her yt username is MYSTERIOUS) and she's analyzing the night that Trisha drove her car into Jason Nash's house and some of the lies she told about that incident. Good times. And YES, girl. She totally blew up her spot on Frenemies. Shame. I really liked that podcast and totally would have bought merch.

Anyway, enjoy.

 

[Silenos]

Doing a Marvel Cinematic Universe marathon. Next up: Thor.

 

[Circles]

Just alone in my room looking at my phone pretending my life isn't a joke. I'm half ass planning on hiking tomorrow but I hurt my back again so yeah wonderful. Might just end up talking about my problems on Reddit or get into a pointless argument on there for the fuck of it. Then get high with the little weed I have left and listen to the tv while I stare at the wall or ceiling.

 

[Lurker]

Just been reading forum threads/posts for the past couple hours (I think? It may have been longer... I lose track of time and become numb when mindlessly scrolling). Thinking about the past. Listening to music in the background for company. Probably going to disappear again and not log into this account for a long time and just lurk forever because I'm too awkward and sad to even talk properly to people anymore, or that's how I feel every single time I type or open my mouth.

I spent almost the whole night looking at the ceiling, I don't feel like doing my hobbies anymore due to anhedonia, and I don't go out to have fun because I don't have friends and no one ever invites me to anythingView attachment 83809

I don't know why, but seeing drunk Freddy made me laugh. It's so stupid it's funny. Also made me think of this:

It was more funny in my head. I don't know what I'm doing anymore hahahaha

 

[croctears]

Just drinking and listening to black metal. i havent eaten all day, probably will at some point

 

[lostautist]

What surgeries? I just had open heart surgery (6 vessel CABG) on Sunday.

I'd say but they're very specific invasive procedures grouped into one visit and I'm not comfortable being searchable. Not on your level of invasive. I hope you recover quickly though.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Just woke up from a nap, time to eat dinner before going back to sleep.

 

[Ringo]

Playing Odin Sphere, listening to podcasts and trying to spit out the fly that I think got into my mouth

 

[Sides]

I'd say but they're very specific invasive procedures grouped into one visit and I'm not comfortable being searchable. Not on your level of invasive. I hope you recover quickly though.

No problem, I totally understand privacy issues. Hope you get relief from the Percs and are back in good health soon.

I've got a little Oxycodone left over from a previous surgery and trying to decide whether to take that before bed, as it will make my sleep apnea worse in combination with my Valium. Fuck it, what have I got to lose, right? Most of my life is pain now anyway. But I did just have a glimmer of hope just now a few minutes ago. Maybe I can hold onto that just long enough to make it to morning. Or if God blesses me, to die peacefully in my sleep, which is all I have ever wanted, to just slip away from the world peacefully without pain. That's my prayer for tonight, as it has been for months now. The clean death, the clean getaway, without fear or worry or pain. Just to close my eyes and let go and be with God forever at peace.

 

[lostautist]

No problem, I totally understand privacy issues. Hope you get relief from the Percs and are back in good health soon.

I've got a little Oxycodone left over from a previous surgery and trying to decide whether to take that before bed, as it will make my sleep apnea worse in combination with my Valium. Fuck it, what have I got to lose, right? Most of my life is pain now anyway. But I did just have a glimmer of hope just now a few minutes ago. Maybe I can hold onto that just long enough to make it to morning. Or if God blesses me, to die peacefully in my sleep, which is all I have ever wanted, to just slip away from the world peacefully without pain. That's my prayer for tonight, as it has been for months now. The clean death, the clean getaway, without fear or worry or pain. Just to close my eyes and let go and be with God forever at peace.

Well, it helped take the edge off a little... but still plenty of pain. Thanks for the kind wishes.

I wish it were simple like that. Even before my situation that has lead me here, I've wished the same. Just going to bed to sleep and not wake up. I wish you peaceful sleep. And more hope if you wake up.

 

[Sides]

Well, it helped take the edge off a little... but still plenty of pain. Thanks for the kind wishes.

I wish it were simple like that. Even before my situation that has lead me here, I've wished the same. Just going to bed to sleep and not wake up. I wish you peaceful sleep. And more hope if you wake up.

If I could take away your pain and put it on myself, truly I would. At least then I would have died helping somebody else.

Good night and sweet dreams and no pain forever for both of us, forever.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm here so.... being here is better than going to a bar.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I spent Friday night staying at home but what else is new?

 

[Sherri]

was watching crime documentaries like most days. Nothing exciting and was here most night.

 

[FuneralCry]

Its not friday night now where I live, it is Saturday afternoon, but I am spending the day just wishing I was not here as usual. I have so much dread for the future. It is a depressing, empty existence. I hope for eternal sleep.

 

[OrcWitch]

I'm watching some lady (her yt username is MYSTERIOUS) and she's analyzing the night that Trisha drove her car into Jason Nash's house and some of the lies she told about that incident. Good times. And YES, girl. She totally blew up her spot on Frenemies. Shame. I really liked that podcast and totally would have bought merch.

I don't mean to be judgmental over her issues, but I wonder how much her status/money/fame shields her from any real consequences for her unstable behavior? If she was an average person she would be so screwed.

I really liked frenemies, also content court. It had me in tears sometimes.