I've always had a fear of life itself. Life is the true disturbing and horrific thing and is the cause of all problems and suffering after all. I fear life getting more unbearable, there are endless things in this life to fear, I mean there is literally no limit as to how much pain we can feel. I fear very old age, I fear suicide attempts failing, I fear being unable to ctb and being trapped in an existence of endless torture. Only being free from this world and no longer existing could ever remove my fear. Peace could never exist in this life no matter what.
Wow, so your whole argument is motivated by Fear? Let me tell you then that it is not valid at all, not in terms of wanting to end your life but in terms of justifying your decision.
If you live long enough you will realize this yourself. You don't need to justify anything to yourself or to others, you just want to stop suffering and for this nightmare to end... and that's it.
I am 44 years old and I don't know how to overcome fear, so I can't advise you, but I discovered a solution (revelation) that I don't know how to apply, I hope that someday it will help you:
"Any person, when he is ready, is able to express and understand his fears while giving himself the opportunity to change his attitude in a pure act of affection towards himself and towards others, thus breaking those limits that many of us have and that we never bother to dynamite in order to keep growing as people, but that sooner or later we will have to assume as a non-postponable task."
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Ostres, així que tot el teu argumentari el motiva la Por?. Deixem dir-te llavors que no és vàlid en absolut, no en quan a desitjar acabar amb la teva vida sino en quan a justificar la teva decisió.
Si vius prou temps te n'adonaràs tu mateix d'això que et dic. No necessites justificar res ni cap a tu ni cap als altres, només vols deixar de patir i que aquest malson s'acabi... i prou.
Tinc 44 anys i no se com vencer la por, així que no puc aconsellar-te, pero vaig descobrir una sol·lució (revel·lació) que no se pas aplicar, espero que algún día et serveixi a tu:
"Qualsevol persona, quan s'hi troba preparada, es capaç d'expressar i comprendre les seves pors alhora que es dona l'oportunitat de canviar la seva actitud en un pur acte d'estima cap a si mateix i cap els altres, trencant així aquells límits que molts tenim i que mai ens preocupem de dinamitar per a seguir creixent com a persones, però que tard o d'hora haurem d'assumir com a tasca inposposable."
