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netrezven
Mage
- Dec 13, 2018
- 515
Hi all, took me over an year to understand my lonelyness, pain and desire to suicide. I have bipolar disorder. It's appears to be very much related to people who desire to or already did ctb, statistically. I believe that manic episodes play major role in the process of killing you - while being reckless, or by deleting memories of how you hurt your loved ones. And all this is presented to you acceptable and normal as possible. Yes i got hit very hard on the depression episode, whitch lasted for more than a year, or might still be waiting to come any moment. But in my case i used to live for 2-3 years of complete mania, non-stop. I did very extreme and crazy stuff during this period, i was so manic that the only effect metaamphetamin got on me was not to drink coffee in the morning. Yes it was fun, but my loved ones paid the price. I had no idea something was wrong with me till i got the depression.
So what are the craziest stuff any of you with biploar did in their manic episodes?
So what are the craziest stuff any of you with biploar did in their manic episodes?