Lilacmoon
Beautiful moon, take me away.
- Sep 23, 2020
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I threw myself back to school in an attempt to try and at least be stable for a little bit to have an accomplishment under my name that I could be proud of.
Then my laptop broke and I lack a desktop. Isn't that funny? The power supply doesn't work and there's an assignment due today I was depression-procrastinating from doing. It's happening all over again. Life smacked me in the face for thinking I could at least pretend to have something good going on.
This was clearly my fault somehow. I'm surely just incompetent. I was supposed to be better, but this is all I have amounted to. Pathetic. My abuser was right, undoubtedly. I would never become anything without him. He knew all along I couldn't succeed.
Then my laptop broke and I lack a desktop. Isn't that funny? The power supply doesn't work and there's an assignment due today I was depression-procrastinating from doing. It's happening all over again. Life smacked me in the face for thinking I could at least pretend to have something good going on.
This was clearly my fault somehow. I'm surely just incompetent. I was supposed to be better, but this is all I have amounted to. Pathetic. My abuser was right, undoubtedly. I would never become anything without him. He knew all along I couldn't succeed.