Whar are you more afraid of

[Lady black]

What are you more afraid of, when you try to ctb?

 

[ExitStageLeft]

I'm afraid of Poincaré recurrence and subjective immortality in this life.

 

[depression999]

my fear is not succeeding and being in long term pain

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Failing and having brain damage as a result. Life is already miserable enough as is and getting worse. No need to pile it on

 

[Nutmeg]

I'm afraid I don't do it the right way and fail that's why I am still looking for the right method.

 

[Lady black]

I'm afraid I don't do it the right way and fail that's why I am still looking for the right method.

Hope the megathreads can help you a bit

 

[waterbottleman]

As someone else said some sort of permanent physical injury would be bad (brain damage or some other organ), that's a fear I have although I don't worry about it too much because SN + meto is a fatal combo. High rate of success it seems.

The biggest fear I have is the process of it. Like after I drink the SN then what? How is it going to feel physically, mentally, emotionally? For me the psychological aspect is just as scary, possibly more so than physical symptoms.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I have a theology background, academically and have walked away from a religion that is very clear on death and the afterlife. I'm afraid of going through the process of my body shutting down, me falling asleep and "waking" up to my destiny in Hell, which is what I am choosing outright. It's just such a big unknown. It excites me and terrifies me at the same time.

 

[death137]

The process of dying.

 

[TAW122]

I'm mostly afraid of failing and being rescued, surviving with permanent damage. That would be a fate worse than death itself, depending on the kind of permanent damage (especially if it is severely disabling).

 

[Lupgevif]

I am more afraid of sabotaging myself than being rescued. I plan to do it at a time people think I am well, so nobody would check on me until morning. The only person who could ruin it is myself, with my SI.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i wouldn't want to be rescued or fail. i mean, if it permanently damages my body, that's one thing, but i would hate to listen to all the people yelling at me for trying to ctb without trying to understand why i did it.

 

[foxdie]

I have a low chance of being rescued but I am afraid of fucking it up and injuring myself

 

[Brink]

I'm quite surprised that I'm the only one (at the time of writing) from the poll whose biggest fear is actually being dead.

For me, the rest is temporary. Potentially awful and abusive, but finite. I am frightened of the (potential?!) permanency. I'm scared of subjective continuity. I'm afraid that there is a god, and that they're cruel, sadistic and unforgiving. I am worried about technology and human interference of my consciousness.

No matter how well-read you are, the size of your platform or how many big words you use, no one knows what being dead constitutes. I have my hopes set on returning to the void I came from - complete unawareness, repaying some of the energy I took up whilst being here through my decaying corpse - but the uncertainty of what death is, is a big fear of mine.

 

[Und0n]

That my father will die before me.

 

[valentine]

I'm scared of my survival instinct taking over and making me regret it after it's too late. I don't want to spend my last moments feeling extreme regret. Hopefully since I'm planning on a heroin OD it won't be too bad.

 

[Ghost2211]

That I would be found before I'm dead. It would suggest I had the resolve and bravery to go through with it, and someone took it away (and possibly causing disability). The unknown of death Is a very close second.