well, well, well

[Ashpac]

turns out my operation is more serious than i thought.

i had it today.

ive tried everything to turn my life around.

when the doctors told me my operation has high infections ive decided to end my life.

i pulled the SN infront of my mother.

shes cool and knows how much ive suffered. im so lucky to have a mother like i do. i love her loads.

we plan to go on holiday together before i kill myself.

i know this might sound unreal or weird, but shes my best friend.

i tried girls and gals, i stuck my job out for 5 weeks, but the hospital results fucked me.

so im gonna take the SN very soon. ill give you updates on what it feels like and if i die or not.

chat soon

 

[Final Escape]

Sounds like an unusually close to mom relationship. I might be wrong I just got that impression. Glad you have someone to support your ctb efforts. That helps a lot I'm sure.

 

[littlelady774]

Wow :( I'm sorry to hear that. That must be a very difficult decision for you and your mother.
I really hope you find peace.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

One of a kind mother right there. Caring and understanding. Lucky, indeed.

 

[Ashpac]

i really dont give a fuck, now i know im gonna be dead soon. i tried my best to stay alive. i guess it wasnt to be.

im sure some people on here will be happy im gonna die, never mind.

i need to ask you all something ... i have 250g of SN , how many table spoons is that? do i need to take two table spoons?

 

[EternalSanction]

Sorry to hear that, it's good that you have a supportive mom though.
One tblsp should equal around 9g. Recommended dose according to pph is around 15-20g if I remember correctly so you should be good with around 2 tablespoons of SN.
If you have any way of ordering from Amazon or anywhere else, just buy a scale to precisely measure the stuff to make sure you got the right dosage.

 

[Miss clefable]

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My mom is dead

 

[Johnnythefox]

I've not interacted with you much, but I'm sorry it's come to this.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I'm sorry for you that this is how things are x

You have a good, pragmatic attitude and I'm glad you are taking a last holiday with your mum so you can have that time together. It will be special.

 

[21Neberg]

I hope everything works out for you. Good luck friend, and enjoy the holiday!

 

[lost_soul83]

turns out my operation is more serious than i thought.

i had it today.

ive tried everything to turn my life around.

when the doctors told me my operation has high infections ive decided to end my life.

i pulled the SN infront of my mother.

shes cool and knows how much ive suffered. im so lucky to have a mother like i do. i love her loads.

we plan to go on holiday together before i kill myself.

i know this might sound unreal or weird, but shes my best friend.

i tried girls and gals, i stuck my job out for 5 weeks, but the hospital results fucked me.

so im gonna take the SN very soon. ill give you updates on what it feels like and if i die or not.

chat soon

I think it's wonderful that you can be that open and honest with your mom. I hope you guys have a wonderful time on holiday and I hope your suffering will come to an end soon.

 

[Ashpac]

I think it's wonderful that you can be that open and honest with your mom. I hope you guys have a wonderful time on holiday and I hope your suffering will come to an end soon.

thanks, means alot.

 

[Lara Francis]

turns out my operation is more serious than i thought.

i had it today.

ive tried everything to turn my life around.

when the doctors told me my operation has high infections ive decided to end my life.

i pulled the SN infront of my mother.

shes cool and knows how much ive suffered. im so lucky to have a mother like i do. i love her loads.

we plan to go on holiday together before i kill myself.

i know this might sound unreal or weird, but shes my best friend.

i tried girls and gals, i stuck my job out for 5 weeks, but the hospital results fucked me.

so im gonna take the SN very soon. ill give you updates on what it feels like and if i die or not.

chat soon

turns out my operation is more serious than i thought.

i had it today.

ive tried everything to turn my life around.

when the doctors told me my operation has high infections ive decided to end my life.

i pulled the SN infront of my mother.

shes cool and knows how much ive suffered. im so lucky to have a mother like i do. i love her loads.

we plan to go on holiday together before i kill myself.

i know this might sound unreal or weird, but shes my best friend.

i tried girls and gals, i stuck my job out for 5 weeks, but the hospital results fucked me.

so im gonna take the SN very soon. ill give you updates on what it feels like and if i die or not.

chat soon

Hi Ashpac
I am so sorry to hear this after you have been trying to follow a path to recovery which i was really hoping would take you to a better place.
I am glad that your mum is understanding and supportive.The holiday will allow you both to enjoy some quality time together before you go which she can then treasure.
I thankyou for your messages and wish you find peace without any additional pain or suffering.

I am sorry to see you leave.you will be in my thoughts and be sadly missed.
Big hugs my friend xx

 

[Ashpac]

Hi Ashpac
I am so sorry to hear this after you have been trying to follow a path to recovery which i was really hoping would take you to a better place.
I am glad that your mum is understanding and supportive.The holiday will allow you both to enjoy some quality time together before you go which she can then treasure.
I thankyou for your messages and wish you find peace without any additional pain or suffering.

I am sorry to see you leave.you will be in my thoughts and be sadly missed.
Big hugs my friend xx

wow. thank you lara. means alot.
im not sure what you wanna do with your life but i wish you the best too.
i appreciated our convos.
all the best to you, okay, i really mean that. good luck with your child. ill say no more on that one for privacy reasons.