Weekend. I'll give myself until the weekend

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Write up a few suicide notes to prepare, and then jump off a bridge Saturday or Sunday. I'll see how long I can last because I cannot fucking survive another second in this shitty house anymore

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Damn, that's rough man. Atleast you're giving yourself some time and not acting on a whim. I'm here if you need someone to talk to

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Damn, that's rough man. Atleast you're giving yourself some time and not acting on a whim. I'm here if you need someone to talk to

Tbh I want to act on a whim

I want to jump off a bridge not far from home. hit the water and just die.

 

[Ghost2211]

Tbh I want to act on a whim

I want to jump off a bridge not far from home. hit the water and just die.

Is it high enough to kill, or at least knock you out so drowning happens?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I think the latter.

 

[sideswipe84]

Sorry your living conditions arent very good (I'm assuming it's other people causing you this much stress)
are you unable to move? Whatever is going on I hope you can pull through.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Sorry your living conditions arent very good (I'm assuming it's other people causing you this much stress)
are you unable to move? Whatever is going on I hope you can pull through.

Its a long story. College starts soon but....I was sexually assaulted there and lost all my friends. Reported it, no one took my side

the reality is that I am one of the people who fell through the cracks. No love, no one to care, etc. I dont even want a funeral. I dont want a bunch of fake ass people who didnt care all of a sudden start crying and "missing" me. If you didnt care about me when I was alive, dont care about me when I am dead

 

[I screwed up]

@DeathIsTheWayOut99 I love u my friend ... I feel for you .

 

[BPD Barbie]

I know the feeling and having the same thoughts about making it to the weekend. Sorry to hear about your experiences at college, can't imagine how that must have felt to have nobody back you up.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

@DeathIsTheWayOut99 I love u my friend ... I feel for you .

Its fine really I was born on a whim, not because anybody really wanted me anyways. Might as well go back to wherever I came from

I know the feeling and having the same thoughts about making it to the weekend. Sorry to hear about your experiences at college, can't imagine how that must have felt to have nobody back you up.

Yeah, but thats why I am happy CTB is a reason. There was a woman who died recently named Daisy Coleman. Sexually abused, reported it, and faced more abuse for using her voice. She eventually killed herself this past August and was a year older than me. I relate to her. I envy her. I wish I had the strength to just do it. Maybe she is happier wherever she is knowing she doesn't have to deal with trauma

 

[grungeCat]

I'm sorry to read you are down. I also don't want to offend you but jumping off is a pretty hard way to finish the game. I have tried to jump off a high building once. I was very determined and I swear I'm not afraid of height... well in cases I know I'm safe. When it came to catching the bus, the height seemed like an insurmountable barrier. It feels really different when you actually decide to jump. I was just standing there like an idiot until police arrived... So make sure it is the best possible way.

 

[sideswipe84]

I'm sorry to hear that people have been so horrendous towards you. i hope you find peace in whichever manner you seek it.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I'm sorry to read you are down. I also don't want to offend you but jumping off is a pretty hard way to finish the game. I have tried to jump off a high building once. I was very determined and I swear I'm not afraid of height... well in cases I know I'm safe. When it came to catching the bus, the height seemed like an insurmountable barrier. It feels really different when you actually decide to jump. I was just standing there like an idiot until police arrived... So make sure it is the best possible way.

thats what im afraid of really. Like, what if I chicken out? or worse, what if I fuck up and survive only to never be able to walk or have brain damage?

I'm sorry to hear that people have been so horrendous towards you. i hope you find peace in whichever manner you seek it.

Thank you. Peace is not something I have been able to find confidently on earth

 

[ShyRaccoon]

Good luck friend, I hope you rest in peace

 

[Wincombe00]

I hope you find peace, one way or another.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Wishing you luck and I hope its a peaceful exit for you. I'm sorry to hear you've experienced so much pain in this life.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Wishing you luck and I hope its a peaceful exit for you. I'm sorry to hear you've experienced so much pain in this life.

yeah sucks doesn't it. Some of us are just abandoned. Not everyone matters, for if that was the case we'd all be given the love we deserve.

My suicide is the only voice that people might wake up to, because the voice I have now, despite the numerous times I have used it, consistently never mattered

 

[Sinai Silence]

yeah sucks doesn't it. Some of us are just abandoned. Not everyone matters, for if that was the case we'd all be given the love we deserve.

My suicide is the only voice that people might wake up to, because the voice I have now, despite the numerous times I have used it, consistently never mattered

That's the sad fact of life unfortunately, being neglected by the people we are meant to trust most in this life hurts deeply.

I feel the same, it feels like being a ghost, like I'm not actually there or something. I hope that voice is deafening to them, you deserve to be heard.

 

[TheQ22]

The thing I find the saddest and the hardest on here, is that those who want it all to end have endured unfairness, pain, bullying, abuse and etc - they are the victims, and deserve the most, yet will take the hardest step to end the pain when it's other people, the ones who caused it, who should suffer that consequence.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

The thing I find the saddest and the hardest on here, is that those who want it all to end have endured unfairness, pain, bullying, abuse and etc - they are the victims, and deserve the most, yet will take the hardest step to end the pain when it's other people, the ones who caused it, who should suffer that consequence.

Speaking facts my friend. Speaking facts

Its such a sad reality. People not wanting to take responsibility for how their actions affect others, and the victims are left with pain. They are left with the burden. They are left with the trauma and abuse. And they get shamed, and abused even more. And when they die everyone says "WhY DiDnT ThEy SaY SoMeThInG?!"

They did, loud and clear. But the people who hurt them just didnt want to listen. They wanted to pretend everything was nice and dandy. But now they victims are dead where the perpetrators get away with it

a fucked up world that drives people to death every god damned day

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I've always said funerals are for the living, not for the dead, and that death brings out the idiots and the assholes. I'm wouldn't be surprised if your funeral would be akin to a telenovela.

I wish you could get out of there. Lie if you're straight and get into a LGBTQ shelter. Lie and get into a domestic violence shelter. See if there's a chance for freedom from the shitty house and support to heal and support yourself. Those as my unsolicited suggestions.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I've always said funerals are for the living, not for the dead, and that death brings out the idiots and the assholes. I'm wouldn't be surprised if your funeral would be akin to a telenovela.

I wish you could get out of there. Lie if you're straight and get into a LGBTQ shelter. Lie and get into a domestic violence shelter. See if there's a chance for freedom from the shitty house and support to heal and support yourself. Those as my unsolicited suggestions.

thanks, though I am not strong enough to leave. Sad I know and pathetic

Youre right though, death brings out the assholes. Such a shame