We are a Dissociative Identity Disorder system with no hope left

[constellationmind]

Hey guys. Just thought we'd share a bit about us before we get started on here.

We are a DID system (we use plural pronouns such as "we" and "ours" as we feel it helps to express our experiences of being a dissociative system), and we have Complex PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder, & Atypical Anorexia Nervosa.

During our childhood we experienced organized abuse including the creation of CP, programming, trafficking, SA & R*pe, emotional abuse, mental abuse, and neglect.
During our teenage years we experienced 4 separate traumas, 3 being single event SA & R*pe, & 1 being an abusive relationship over months including SA & R*pe and emotional abuse.
During our adult years we have experienced 2 SA & R*pe.

We are in pure agony. There's nothing of us left except for our suicide.

We have a suicide plan that we've had for a long time and it's lethal. All it takes is for us to decide whether we need our eating disorder to express our pain before our suicide happens, or if we do it very, very soon.

See y'all around!

 

[longpig]

I'm so very sorry for what it is that you went through, that all sounds so unbelievably horrific. I really hope you are able to find some peace here and feel comfortable to express how you feel and whatever it is you wish, thank you for sharing some of your story

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Hello to all of you! I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. I am friends with a few systems and I know they often have it hard. But what you've all been through is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry people have treated you all this way. None of it was deserved.

No matter what happens, everyone in your system deserves peace.